souleaterfan320

Myriad Reality

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Shh, shh, it's okay. It's all going to be okay...

@Nimda

...*slowly lets go*

....I really lost my cool there... you shouldnt have had to see that..

Myriad Reality

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It's okay... I will be your rock.

@Nimda

I....I'm sorry.....

Myriad Reality

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*Gently pats your back in the embrace*
It's all going to be okay. I'm here now. I won't ever do anything to hurt you.

@Nimda

......

*looks at you, eyes glazed over with fear*

Myriad Reality

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It'll be okay...

@Nimda

...I hope so....

Myriad Reality

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*Hugs you and holds you close*

@Nimda

*holds onto tightly, sobbing into your shoulder, clinging to you as if my life depended on it*

Myriad Reality

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Shinji, you need to understand that I'm mad because everything has snowballed. You need to be upfront with me and tell me what's going on. Ever since... ever since I almost lost you, I haven't been able to think of anything other than "I wasn't there."

@Nimda

You want to know everything? Ok, fine lets start with the whole reason why I'm screwed up. From the very beginning.

*goes into detailed about the issues iwth his childhood first, his dad slaughtering his whole family, him coming ot ifnd out it was out of self defense, them rekindling, the nobility war and its affects on him, Mordric aka Kirina in disguise, his whole relationship with kirina, the torture and r**e he experienced from being captured, every single detial from first to last. His face looked extremely pained through it all, and eventually, ears run down his face from being forced ot relive every traumatic event in his life via this argument*

Myriad Reality

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What infuriates me is being removed from your life. Every single time, it was when you pushed me away, or kept something from me. I've never once complained about your life being hard.

@Nimda

... you cant ask for me to be honest and say you want to be a part of my life and get mad when the truth isnt something you want to hear.

Myriad Reality

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*Takes your hands in mine*
Then open up to me. Walk with me. Weave me into your life instead of its border.

@Nimda

... you know that'll bring you pain and hurt, just like it has so far. You get bit by reality and get mad when it hurts. I am a person with problems. Most of them are only ones I alone can solve, and a few are ones I created myself... you asked me to be honest with you, so i did. Then you began to argue with me about it.... I dont know anymore. You sayyou want a thing and then get mad when I give you it. Do you really want to be a part of my life? Or is every aspect of it going to infuriate you?

Myriad Reality

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Then let me walk your life with you, darling! You mean too much to me for me to end up on the sidelines when you're hit with so much pain every day!

@Nimda

... I just want to exist as I am without causing you pain. It seems its all I do is hurt you just by being me...

The truth is... every time youve asked to help, youve only gotten hurt. Wether it be a shocking truth, someone trying to kill the both of us, people trying to drive a wedge in between us... i want better for you.

Myriad Reality

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I'm not even asking for it! I'm just asking you to finally think of me for once instead of yourself!
*Pauses*
One thing after another, it's been Shinji the president, Shinji the hero, Shinji the broken, Shinji the rescuer, Shinji the mortal. And I would support you in all of those things! But I always manage to find out after there's nothing I can do to help you anymore!
*Sobs*
I just feel... so excluded from your life.

@Nimda

You say I'm not thinking you? Blue, I'm the whole reason you got a fresh start. I've been keeping the entirety of the Tier Five off your back and risking loosing everyone close to me because I got close to you. A select few of them want you dead, permanently. and they would be the ones with the means to do it. A majority of my friends hate me now because i sided with you over them. Ive bought you a TON of gifts. I took you on several trips. I always do my best to text you and I havent missed a good morning text in over a year, disregarding the maybe month that I wasi n a coma and under your care, and you know I was right there with tou that entire time. When I woke up, my first thought was you. I think of you every day.