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Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

That is going to be so much fun that confrontation! I can just feel all the drama making it's way hahaa

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

When she heard his backfire of two whole weeks Iris found herself frowning, she hadn’t really thought it was that long, but the concept of time had been lost on her when she had just been left with her thoughts and the TV each day. She could have counted the stacked plates, but they weren’t all there and some things she had tried to eat but mostly she didn’t find the motivation with it. “Honestly Cas, I didn’t realise it had been two weeks.” Shaking her head, she was finding it hard to be honest with him on how she felt, to her it felt like she was letting him down and had let him down for not even keeping those promises to him.

“I didn’t want to tell you the truth.” Sighing softly Iris knew she hadn’t wanted to tell him and a part of her wished he hadn’t found out, “You’re going through so much how could I be selfish just because I was not okay? Cas, you’re a King now. You have a whole country relying on you that I just… I didn’t want to add to your problems because I’m not okay.” Hearing her own voice waiver when she admitted the truth out loud that she was not okay, she could feel her hands tremble because she was trying to keep composure but that was another battle she was losing.

Taking a small sharp intake of breath to stop herself from crying, “A-Anything is better than being here… alone.” Her voice cracked as a sob left her lips that she had been trying so hard to hold back. Perhaps it was time to be a little honest with him and how she had been feeling, but she knew it wouldn’t just hurt her but him too to know the truth. With her voice sounding dejected she placed her head in her hands working up the courage to give him a little truth, “I’m exhausted… I barely sleep, barely eat and my motivation each day is getting worse.”

It took all of her effort to meet his gaze again, it was hard to look him in the eyes when she was speaking honestly like this. “The calls… they were okay at first and gave me hope that we could be normal, but then… I don’t know what happened to them. I just felt like what was the point anymore, you didn’t seem to enjoy them, and we’d barely talk by the end of it that I just gave up on myself. I know it’s no excuse when I promised you…” If she was to go back with him to the palace it wouldn’t be a bad thing, she’d get to spend more time with him, and she knew she would feel less isolated but with Ethans call yesterday she couldn’t put him in danger like that.

There was still time, she may be on a deadline to return to the sadistic ex-boyfriend of hers to save his life, but Cas still had to remove her warrant first which gave her an opportunity to fix the situation she was threatened with.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

No worries! I'm excited to see where it goes :)

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Iris knew he had seen the state of the suite and as much as she wished he had focused on her movements she knew it was naïve to think like that. How could you not see the stacked plates in the kitchen because it was so in your face, and she had regretted not having the motivation to clean it up. If she had known he would be stopping by then of course she would have made sure there was nothing like that laying around, but it couldn’t be helped and now she would have to face that music with Cas.

“C-Cas?” Questioning him when he said that she shouldn’t be apologising, but then she felt his tight embrace and immediately a wave of emotions hit her because she had craved this touch, she had forgotten what it was like to be so close to someone she truly loved and it took all her strength to not just cry then and there. It took her a few moments before she finally wrapped her arms around him returning the hug but hearing his strained voice and the raw emotion that he felt towards her situation started to crush her because she didn’t want him to feel guilty or have to worry about her. It felt like a double-edged sword because as much as she had missed him and being able to hold him like this, she was also conflicted with the idea of her going home and that was something she could never tell him. Home would never be the Capitol for her, home would always be the districts because that was all she was good enough for in her eyes.

Feeling him pull back Iris averted her gaze out of instinct because she didn’t want to see the disappointment in his eyes, or the hurt that she had caused by breaking the promises on the phone to look after herself. The fact he was getting this upset for her made her feel just as bad and it was like a knife twisting into her heart because she had hurt him. Trouble was now she didn’t know what to say anymore, it wasn’t like he was over the phone, and she could say she was okay because he knew the truth now that she really wasn’t. Even his promise to fix this fell on death ears because she truly believed the only way to fix this was to not be in the picture, not when Ethan threatened to destroy everything she loved.

“I’m not starving myself Cas, I’m just not hungry.” Iris sighed as she shook her head not really sure how to explain it to him, if she felt the need to eat, she would. If she felt hungry, she would certainly dig into some dishes and on some occasions, she had done just that, it was just most days she barely felt the need too and maybe that was her own fault letting herself fall into this downward spiral. “I just…” Hesitating as she felt her voice waver the emotions bubbling away on the surface, she blinked back the tears not wanting to cry. Words like what’s the point, why even bother and how she didn’t even deserve his kindness swirled around her mind all wanting to be blurted out at him, but she didn’t dare release that.

“I take it saying I’m fine won’t make this go away?” Finally, Iris met his gaze as she spoke wanting nothing more than to avoid this subject with him even if it was far too late for that.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Omg same!

I think this was how she’d end up back in the districts and then Ethan uses her as leverage against Cas in trying to kill him? Unless you want that to be a bit later on!

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

“Why would I be upset with you?... oh…” Iris found herself frowning as her voice trailed off just realising why he may have thought she was upset with him. It was all because she hadn’t called him last night, but she wasn’t upset with him. Well, no that wasn’t the entire truth either and she couldn’t lie to herself because she had been slightly upset with how their calls had one lately. It was hard to see the point in them when he’d fall asleep or didn’t seem as interested anymore, but she knew deep down she couldn’t blame him for that because he was currently adjusting to his new schedule now as King.

“Ah… sorry of course come in.” Even as Iris spoke, she found herself inwardly cringing because it would reveal home truths, she hadn’t expected to come face to face with and she especially hadn’t planned for Cas to see it either. Opening the door wide enough for him to enter she turned and headed to the sofa in the living room with the dishevelled blanket and cushions scattered around it giving away that she had clearly used that to sleep on rather than the bed upstairs. Grabbing the cushions, she quickly put them back in place before grabbing the blanket and folding it up neatly finding herself fidget knowing he was here. Hoping that her movement would catch his attention rather than what was going on in the kitchen.

“Cas I… I’m so sorry I didn’t call last night.” Trying not to meet his gaze just yet because she didn’t want to see his disappointment in her, “I don’t know what happened last night if I’m honest… and by the time I had remembered I thought it was too late… I.” Sighing to herself she wasn’t sure what to say, but she could feel herself getting upset and she knew she had to keep composure. There was no way she could tell him about Ethans call last night and that was the reason she hadn’t called him, if she told him then he’d worry and right now he had other things to focus on. She could deal with Ethan.

Feeling her shoulders hunch slightly she wasn’t sure what to do in this situation, should she be honest with him? Tell him how she’d been feeling with the calls lately? It was amazing he was here after all, and he had moved things around just to come see her to make sure she wasn’t upset with him and if she had been to talk it out. “I’m so sorry.” Fidgeting with the hems of her sleeves because she couldn’t sit still not when she felt uncomfortable, but that wasn’t because of Cas.

“I do really appreciate that you’ve moved everything around just to come see me, I know you have a lot going on and everything’s been a bit crazy and now. Well, I’m rambling.” Iris grimaced slightly as she finally sat down on the sofa and looked towards him as the nerves bubbled away because she didn’t know what he was going to say next to her.

The Arrangement [Suki & Kassarock]

Oh man that’s a lot! I mean that’s great the overtime but must be tiring too xD Hopefully with the time off you get some time to relax, even after helping out with the move an such!

The Arrangement [Suki & Kassarock]

“Is it to your liking?”

“Oh… It’s, uh fine.” Elise trailed off as she glanced towards the beautiful tent that had been erected for her, it was adorned in beautiful colours and wonderous silks. The extravagance screamed of royalty, and it was the first time she had seen such a thing because she had never slept out among the stars and had always been inside a palace or under a roof. “Sorry, it looks beautiful. This is the first time I’ve ever camped? Is that the word I’m looking for?” Pondering the thought as she questioned her ladies that had followed her along with smiles on their faces.

“I’m not surprised personally.” Atarah mused with a rather knowing smile, the overseer of the Princesses household whilst in Morganyth. The older woman was holding a few soft blankets in her arm ready to store inside the tent as it could get cold of a night, and she wouldn’t want the Princess to be uncomfortable. “You haven’t really travelled much if I recall correctly.”

“Indeed, my first-time travelling had been to come here.” Elise smiled slightly realising she had been quite sheltered back at home, contained between the palace walls and even then, visits to the town had been scarce or with a huge amount of escort it was hardly enjoyable. Staying in Morganyth itself was a whole new experience and even now she was getting to stay outside the palace with the tradition of the hunt which was oddly exciting to her. Thrilling to be outside, but she did feel very exposed but perhaps that was partly to do with her little experience in exploring.

“Well maybe when things all settle down and people come round to the idea of this treaty, I’m certain you’ll be able to explore more. Perhaps even before then you could always ask his majesty if you’d like to see more.” Atarah shrugged, whether or not he would agree to such a thing was a different story, but she doubted the Princess would even ask in the first place.

“Oh no, it’s okay. I don’t want to be a bother.” Taking a few steps into the tent she could see a few plush chairs all set up ready for her to relax in, glancing back she could see everyone else was happy to be focusing on what they were doing, and no one looked like they wanted to approach her so she would take the opportunity to get some rest away from prying eyes and expectant looks. Another reason Elise wouldn’t bother asking was simply because they had only just started talking in a more civil way with one another, who knew how long that would last when both of them seemed to have a temper.

“I’ve brought some food M’Lady and Flora has some fresh water.” Ida bowed upon entry of the tent and placed a platter of fruit onto the table just as Flora sauntered in with a jug of water and a cup for the Princess.

“Thank you.” Elise smiled politely to the ladies that had all ensured her needs were met, as a household went, they weren’t bad at all. Though she wouldn’t trust them with her secrets or confide in them, they had all been welcoming and tried to assist her and not once did she sense any ill intent from them. “Although, I might take this opportunity to get some rest whilst I’m not needed.”

“Of course, the girls will keep watch outside and if you need me, I will be helping ensure the other households are all set up to expectations and smooth over any issues that occur.” Atarah nodded as she clapped her hands to the girls who were both up and ready to leave, “Perfect opportunity to get some reading in the sunshine before they return.” All three women bowed respectfully to Elise before exiting the tent leaving her to fulfil her wish to rest in peace. They had supplied food and drink and comfort so not much else would be needed, not at least until the King returned but that was all dependant on what he managed to hunt.

The Arrangement [Suki & Kassarock]

Ohh yeah, I’ll have a play around.

Oh gosh don’t worry! I’d also like to apologise for my lack of response lately. I’m currently in the process of moving house and work has been crazy on top of it!

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Dammit Jacob, how dare you add an element of excitement haha xD