Thoughts of a poet

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The flame struggles to stay alive, as my drive wanes over time due to the negative experiences I have gone through. I've grown tired of the experiences and the repeated result, when will I have the better result for myself?
The lone wolf now engulfed in darkness, loneliness, and despair as it's tale is being told like a legend. It's glair of self-defense and pain through the terrible experiences it has gone through in it's experiences. The bleakness of light around it is very obvious, it has tried to obtain the light to be like everyone else but it has drawn near but never obtained it.

All the lone wolf wants is to obtain happiness like the others it had seen on it's walking path, to rid itself of the emptiness within itself, it's heart and it's own eyes as the goal of happiness is as linear as an arrow.
For the wolf, it is obvious what it wants. It's own happiness where it doesn't have to struggle for a slice of the happiness that turns out to be a temporary one frequently in every case it has wandered into in it's circle of life thus far.

The day ends the same for the lone wolf, with no one new around it for the interaction it wants. The hopes that the wolf has is dimming over time as sleep is nothing but a fleeting dream on top of the day. The darkness stays around it as it has been nothing but the only sort of companion the wolf has had for the majority of experiences in it's circle of life as it eyes close in a hopeless attempt to rest as it's heart has this words etched into it.
'Where is my happiness? When will it come to me? My light? Or am I destined to fade into the night?'

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[Poem entry #2]

The flame is low, struggling to stay lit. The pit of darkness surrounds the once high flame. How long could it stay alive? The darkness surrounds it sapping the once strong flame of it's life. Strife all around the flame originating from the darkness that is surrounding the small flame biding and trying to stay alive but it's vitality is low, who will save the flame?

Who will breathe life into the small flame? Who will give it the spark that the flame needs to outshine the darkness in this situation? One where strife and conflict is rampant around the flame despite the attempts to shine the darkness away that has failed, others have bailed on this once high flame as it loses it sheen. There is a common question to this.

'Who will breathe life again into the small flame? Who will change the feeble flame into a roaring flame? The one that does...That stands the most to gain from it.'

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The lone wolf is now angry, frustrated and now irked. 'For what reason?' Nature wondered as she pondered the thought and the possible answers of the lone wolf that the wolf told.
No one is sold on the lone wolf and his viewpoint no matter the language the wolf speaks, is the wolf done being civil? Time will tell but the wolf continues to push on only getting louder over time.

The wolf feels his prime is now and wants the recognition of it being in the prime like the other animals of Nature, time for right now is on the wolf's side and likely on his side until like everything else betrays the wolf like the story of the lone wolf since it's inception. The notion of happiness is nothing but a fleeting dream as the darkness, anger, hatred, loneliness and pain are still in motion with the intent to engulf the wolf.

The wolf only wants acceptance, understanding, happiness and love. The wolf feels like it has no choice but to fight on a daily basis, as it wants to prove itself so it can finally be noticed in the way it wants to for a change instead of being shoved aside. The darkness gradually turning the wolf into a lone, gruff wolf that knows only anger, bitterness, hatred, rejection and frustration.

Who will break through the tough exterior of the lone wolf? Who will save the lone wolf from the darkness that is infecting him? The wolf may howl to the heavens but is it singing for help? The light of the wolf is fading away not as vibrant as it once was as the darkness prowls on it.

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Something that should be commonplace in the world, but for the lone wolf it receives little to none from it's viewpoint as it wonders what it has done wrong to earn such a callous treatment from the others.
It is trying so hard to be accepted to the others but it hasn't worked or clicked in the lone wolf's mind and it ponders why it has to fight so hard in order to receive this simple thing that is common in the world around it, from the bugs all way to Mother Nature herself they all have it but why not the wolf?

Has the wolf done something wrong and has to pay a penance? Or was his belief and his soul too strong and frightened away the other animals that it wants to be accepted by? The questions linger in the wolf's mind, it has tried to be accepted with the others only to result in it's failure more often than not with no end in sight. The animals do not hang around and go on their merry way, the lack of acceptance angers the wolf.

The wolf bares it's teeth now on guard and angry, still dejected from the animals earlier it stands alone seeing the others as it fuels his rage and the darkness smiles seeing the lone wolf and pounces on the chance to make the once bright wolf that was filled with happiness and optimism turned spiteful and angry. Willing to make the lone wolf an ally of darkness.

Will light bless the lone wolf? Shining it's light not only onto the wolf but also to his heart as well to save it from the clutches of despair as all it wanted was to find those that were just like him or for him to simply be understood or a feeling of belonging like the other animals had, it is not bad as it has been portrayed to be.

The wolf now has two available options, to be swallowed by the engulfing darkness around him and never return to the side of light? Or will someone from the depths of the darkness take a chance and pull him out of the darkness to bring him to the side of good and what is right? The wolf doesn't know what it happen next, as it bares it teeth once more ready to fight for what belongs to him like the other animals in the forest had obtained. It will fight for acceptance, as the resentment from the wolf's heart grows as it is ready to fight any resistance.

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The wolf is now at this point irked and angry of the world around him, luck and life at this point has teamed up and made the wolf's life next to impossible to be happy in unlike the others in the world around him.
The outlook of the once happy wolf is now grim and is feeling more and more excluded from the world that it once called home while everyone else seemed to only do better around him and it only fuels the hatred within him as the darkness takes over as things were not going in his favor at all.

He could feel the lack of rewards in his life as the strife doesn't seem to be letting up but in fact increase and get worse, momentum is fleeing and fickle as it is yanked out from under the wolf as he needs a life saver and one where things go the wolf's way for once. Life is cutting the wolf's belief in anything good as he doesn't see how good life can be anymore when it and luck are against him as the fog rolls in consuming the wolf as things are a mess around him.

The max effort of the wolf is never enough as life refuses to go how he wants it to go, everyone around him has found a mate but the wolf has not, the wolf is becoming the lone wolf of story and legend despite it wanting to be like everyone else. Happy, loved and on the rise in life and morale while it's happy ending won't be a mirage but actually real.

Though that is what the wolf desires, it knows life will always be against him, luck has joined against him and even love has joined the fray as it felt like a triple sided attack, his back he feels he can't trust to allies feeling they will betray him like others that came before them. Part of him has succumbed to the darkness and also his mind.

Blind to the darkness and also the light to a degree around him, the wolf goes on baring teeth carrying hate along with him as his mind has these thoughts in his head. 'Will I ever be happy like them? Everyone around me is happy, why not me? I deserve that too. Will I ever be happy or am I destined to fade away?'

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Sadness is consuming her once again...
Tears just falling down her face and she can’t stop them...
She thinks that all of her tears will dry up, but that’s never going to happen.

-Anonymous

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The wolf looks around, surveying the surrounding landscape.
He feels like the world and prey are against him, having to bare his teeth to the world to protect himself and his once proud heart that was filled with light.
Once arriving he was happy and looking forward to a fresh start in new territory but as time went on, the past repeated for the lone wolf as abandonment repeated itself. The fur of the once white wolf was turning black like the night sky, while alone it saw the other animals flourishing and for the most able to tolerate each other's presence.

But for the wolf, this never came easy to him at all. Despite him coming as friendly to those around him as the past darkness returned stealthily and engulfed him and ripped any good he had garnered for himself as this was the results like before. This was no blast from the past at all in any sort of way for the wolf either as he felt more and more out of place with the animals around him.

Compassion, understanding, empathy. All of the animals had this, showed it in spades to the other animals around them. But to the wolf? He got none of that, not even a passing glance of it either as the treatment of him continued. The animals continued to treat him like he was just sort of 'outside the box' or in this case 'outside of nature'.
The once pure wolf, who had received none of even anything positive as long as he could remember is now as dark as the night sky and filled with anger and frustration. The information they have on the wolf and what was said is false and wrong, the wolf knew this and it only burned him up further on the inside upon hearing it with it's acute hearing.

'They don't understand.' The wolf thought to himself. 'The trials I have been through, the things I have seen from the results of their lies. They brand themselves right but I know they are not, they have no idea and are spoiled rotten by their gains that came as natural as the air around us.'

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You are my light, that shines through my darkness.
A darkness that is consuming me and my soul, but can your light really get rid of it?
There are so many paths to choose from, but there’s only one that glows bright.
And that is yours, then I shall follow it hoping that there’s a end to my darkness.
But I know your light will burn the darkness away.
As a new flower grows in that light.

-Anonymous

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A wolf's search

A search for a lonely wolf to find what he wants, a pack to fit in and call his own in life.
Something where the strife can't find him and batter down the morale of the wolf as a whole, a hole as to where he won't be pigeonholed into being something that he is not. He is not whole unlike the others.
His heart and soul is split in two realms of light and darkness, his darkness from things not going how he wants and the notion of life, luck and love mock him almost daily around him.

His light, from notions he thought to be true being proven untrue though the two sides still fight within him. His sight still clouded by the lack of successes in his life as it feels as unforgiving as the cold knife like air cutting through his fur.
He desires what the other animals have, warmth, happiness, understanding along with the feeling of being accepted by the light without it being hot to the touch or to look at. He doesn't want to fight for the simple things that seems to have come easy for the other animals around him.

As the lone wolf looked down the path in front of him after a survey of the environment, he wonders if things will be different, if things are meant to change for him for the better and for a longer duration than before on the path.
A state of indifference would help him greatly on this walk, he doesn't want to lose the hope that is left in his heart and mind anymore. Not wanting to cope if all hope does become lost to him he trots on the path wondering if the light will be there for him to enwrap in it's warmth and ready to accept him into the light and ready to shed the dark half of himself in the process.

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The night and silence can be good and bad, though it's been more bad.
My mood changes like the water in a raging river like emotions do.
It's hard to not be mad while trying to be happy, I feel as split as the rock that the water is cutting through.
My passion is still at a ember but flickering, I wonder who will save this tired flame?