Yes, she felt absolutely terrible. Kiara watched him, the way he looked at her, she knew that look. It was the one that you gave to an enemy that you could not trust. She understood, really she did, but it still hurt. It was one thing for her to be distrusting in a kingdom, castle, and country that had tried to kill her more than once. Why should he look at her like that when she was the one in enemy territory. She had decided long ago that she didn't need to prove herself to anyone here, so why on earth did she want him to like her? Perhaps it was just vanity.
How was she going to explain that she knew exactly what he was thinking, feeling? Would he even believe her? Did it even matter? He wanted nothing to do with her despite what she had confessed to him. Because of this, she was quiet as she took Lamont's arm and walked beside him.
Kiara knew better than anyone how to keep up appearances as she had been doing it all of her life. She'd done it earlier, and she was honestly tired of it. Who in their right mind would want this life? She remembered Ostus once saying that people would kill or die to be in her shoes, and more than ever she knew that he was wrong. Pretending to enjoy the company of her betrothed just to impress people who would know it was a lie... being told what to do and what she should enjoy... it was barely a life worth living.
However, she buried this as surely as she had buried every dream she'd ever had. As she had suppressed whatever it was that she felt towards Ostus. As she had been hiding her fury towards the king and what he had done to her.
Like Lamont, she held her head high, put a smile on her lips, and moved with the grace of a queen. After all, just as he had said, appearances were everything.