Honestly, I have it okay...Since I was mostly cooped up in Hawler due to school back then, I never really knew them, so their deaths haven't nearly hit me as badly as it has for my mother. That sounds pretty awful, I know, I feel awful saying it, but my family is just so big that there's many people I haven't even met yet, so when they die, I feel upset, but not really affected that personally, if you understand what I mean.
If anything, it's just seeing my mother like that...she's not a person who cries easily. That, and my increased fears that something's going to happen to someone whom I actually know and grew up with. I don't know what I'd do if something were to happen to them...but enough about that, I guess. I don't want to dampen everyone's mood.