Raymond Charles, Pilot
“Dreams are strange, in hypersleep – or so they've always told me; I'm not convinced I'll ever know myself... seeing as I've never had them. But you? What might you tell me of yours?” I paused in that moment, hand cradling the mug of coffee, a particular arch of my eyebrow – just enough!-- to register my interest at the question; she leaned back, settled into the comforting depths of warm black leather, steepled her fingers and propped them beneath her chin. Watching, as she was wont to do after asking a question.
I did not respond at once. Rather, took a slow sip. Waited. She seemed convinced I needed encouragement (you should know me better by now, woman!); tilted her head to the side and added encouragingly: “Or perhaps I merely forget them, is all... because there is always -something- to be found in the darkness, wouldn't you say?”
“Perhaps, or maybe just more darkness?” Yet the words were spoken only to the blank emptiness of swirling walls, the room and my thoughts and existence altogether running away, dripping and pooling – sluicing in ever growing streams toward the drain at the floor of the room he found himself thrown to; the only sound that of the dull thud of plasteel bars slamming-to as he lands, and so I watched – watched in detached interest as the figure clasped his hands over his ears. Shook and quivered, crying perhaps. But I could hear nothing. Only see the tears, watch as they ran down the yellowed surface of scum-coated tiles... could almost hear each droplet as it hung – balanced – for but a moment before tumbling through the edge of the drain and beyond. Then he turned, turned and... and as I looked at myself, I felt the urge to scream. To reach out and erase, to shove away the blank face of sealed lips and lifeless eyes. It was me. It was not me. I shuddered, then cursed as I – too – felt myself shoved into the room; hurled from whatever strange plane from which I had been watching, and crashing toward the outstretched arms and babbling, toothless mouth of this abomination.
And then Raymond woke. The room was quiet. Nothing but the gentle hum of machinery, quiet pulse of the ship's life-support systems cranking away. Easing his feet over the edge of the pod, he pushed upright – thanked the gods for the lack of nausea (he was an old campaigner, anyway); bare feet planted on the coldly metallic tiles. Pushed upright.
It was odd, Raymond considered, as he plodded past the remaining pods – all empty – toward his locker. Late to the party, apparently. Overslept, perhaps? Was that even possible? He should have been woken precisely along with all the others...
Despite pushing these thoughts from his mind -- instead mechanically dressing and heading on toward the canteen -- he could not help but feel a singular sort of unease. The emptiness of it all, as though perhaps he had been duped – tossed out into space on an entirely empty vessel. Left to drift for years and then...
I saw her – maybe I was not alone after all! But the unease did not leave, only grew – grew as I increased my gait and strode on toward the departing woman, took a turn down a corridor and found myself face-to-face with... the same blank stare. Empty eyes, a toothless mouth spread wide in smile as the featureless face moved as if to swallow mine. The arms swept upward and about, crushing me in a cold embrace that cut off all air at once... and just before the jaw opened wide – grew to unholy proportions – then I heard the soft voice of the psychologist once again.
“Raymond! Raymond!” Several loud clicks – snapping fingers. I blinked. Saw her face. Blinked again. Saw -its- face. Blinked again. Saw white.
*****
Raymond woke with a curse and a sudden start upward – too fast! His head connected with the solid lid of the pod, a dull thud resonating as his torso was slammed back to the cushion at the unexpectedness of the blow.
“Christ...” was the murmured expletive, one hand reaching to rub at what he reckoned would soon enough create a sizable lump; he couldn't quite help but roll his eyes at the soft chime of the pod computer, followed by the gentle tones of a synthesized voice:
“Good day, Raymond Charles – Please be patient; wait for the final system check before your pod opens. Feelings of claustrophobia are not abnormal at this stage. Shall you require a sedative, to ease the transition?”
“No, damnit” was the grumbled reply as the pilot began tearing away at the pads and wires secured to his chest, then reached for the small bottle of water he had brought into the pod with him some two years past... Hangovers and Hypersleep – they both had one thing in common, anyway. And why the hell couldn't the goddamn computer offer a man some painkillers? Sedatives. Shit. It could feel free to shove those up its hypothetical ass...
By the time the pod had finally opened, Raymond was three-quarters of the way through the bottle, up and on his feet with a grunt as he stalked toward his locker. The nausea wasn't so bad to fight off... not when you'd been there plenty of times before; a few of his fellow crewmates – shit! Couldn't remember a name amongst them!-- but a few didn't seem to be doing quite so well.
I played my usual game. Looked uninteresting and uninterested. Kept that sternly standard face that the uninitiated seemed to consider “angry”; convenient, anyway? Not entirely untruthful. I certainly was in no mood for pleasant conversation so soon after waking from some two years of insanely over-complicated dreams. Two years!
“Christ...” Raymond muttered under his breath again – barely audible to anyone who might be standing near – before clutching his hands over his ears and shaking his head several times. How many times -had- he been in that room? It was difficult to say. Perhaps it had been the same dream, over and over and over.
*****
At least the coffee in this canteen was real enough. And convincing enough. And the people, too, though I was quite content to mind my own business. Wolf down several helpings-full of what passed for ham and eggs, suck down just as many helpings of the diesel-strong ship's coffee.
“Good for what ails ye...” I muttered to myself, before offering a perfunctory nod to anyone I might pass on my way out of the canteen, final, steaming mug of brew in hand as I stalked off for my personal sanctuary. I couldn't quite help but hold back a smile as the soft buzz of my internal speaker announced Annie's awakening – I'd been forewarned it was best to schedule start-up protocol for AI implants a good ten minutes after awaking from hypersleep at the least.
“Good morning... What's the word?” The response was immediate.
“Well Sir, to be precise, it is currently fourteen-oh-seven on earth, which I would scarcely consider morning...”
“Shit, Annie – forget about it! What's the word?”
“Still fully integrating with ship's systems... but thus far everything checks out. It seems the engineer has already checked in with the power system – everything online and fully functional; ship's logs state you are to be expected for briefing shortly.” I curled a lip a that. Briefing my ass! Two years asleep, and finally a ship worth flying...
“How short is short?”
“Probably enough time for whatever it is you intend, Sir.”
By the time Raymond had finished his customary inspection of the ship's bridge – -his- particular station in particular (as well as another mug of coffee) – he seemed in a much more amiable mood. The disconcerting years of hypersleep were already a distant memory, and it was with a bit more purpose to his generally jaunty stride that he stepped back into the canteen – grabbed another mug of what he'd by now become convinced was straight caffeine in liquid form – and straddled the first available chair without much ceremony; arms resting against its back, steaming mug held out before him (clothes a bit disheveled – the standard of perfection clearly leaving much to be desired; shirt far from tucked in, sleeves loose and dangling – not to mention the rising lump, evidence of his close encounter with the pod's glass exterior). Only then did he pause to give a further glance to the crewmembers who had assembled thus far.
Smoking hot somebody – mechanic, engineer maybe?... gorgeous doctor... stunning captain... someone else, all-to-perfect... I narrowed my eyes briefly – tried not to stare -too- obviously hard – yeah, too-perfect. I'd seen enough Synthetics to know one when I saw one. Interesting. She looked like one hell of an expensive job, whatever the case. Hell, what'd I gotten myself into? I was feeling a bit outnumbered.
But one of the faces seemed familiar – Natan, ship's navigator. At least I'd managed to remember that much. I raised my mug in the man's direction, offered a friendly nod, but beyond that didn't speak.