Well, I ended up getting to where I am comfortable around guns. I went to the shooting range and was excited to do so. This was over 7 months ago. I'm doing much better and hoping to go for a concealed carry permit.
I did have an instance where I thought someone broke into the apartment and was screaming, and I was in the bedroom where me and my boyfriend slept. So I quietly locked the door to my bedroom and assembled his Ruger and did a sweep of the apartment. Turned out it was just my neighbors yelling in the next door apartment
And one time we had came home and the apartment door was open, and the boys weren't home yet, so me and my best friend were scared to death, but she told me to stay outside and quietly and slowly went into her bedroom (visible from the front door) and pullled out her shotgun and did a sweep of the apartment. We didn't see anything taken out of the apartment or anyone in, so we just guessed that we just didn't close the door all the way.