@shylarah Great post! I feel for her. She's so confused and conflicted. Hopefully one day she'll get the answers she needs.
Also, just food for thought. There are a few things from Essa's story that you might want to keep in mind for Oren
@CollectorOfMyst and Ziotea's discussion. Namely, the small detail that Essa included about Sydon-Mar being part of an unknown god. It's probably my fault, since I've been using god and "remnant" interchangeably, but when she said "god", she definitely didn't meant "remnant".
Other stuff to keep in mind. This land was once known as North Ura, a name neither of you has heard before. Also, and perhaps most importantly, Lanostre was not mentioned whatsoever in connection to these events.
Maybe something to ask her about when she wakes up. :p