Cecil was trying his best to keep up, but even cracks on the ground were causing him to near fall over. He was trying his best to keep up but as he continued he was increasingly aware of his own failures and was gradually finding it hard to believe that he should be with them anymore. They were his first friends ever, but they had fallen out with him because of what he did. He couldn’t understand how this friendship stuff worked completely, but he did know if you were a terrible person to them you weren’t deserving of them. Running on after everyone else as best as he could he slowed down as well, although the sudden stop caused him to stumble over and fall against the wall with a nasty metallic scraping sound following.
It seemed that everyone had stopped now, but even then it felt as if everything was still running and that he should follow suit. He should leave them so they wouldn’t get into even more trouble than they already were, but the desire to have friends was causing him to hesitate. The sight of the Machina and what Nymira did to them only played over in his head as a possible scenario of what might happen if he overstepped his boundaries again or if they thought he was too much of a danger to exist around others. He was a Machina who could emote unlike those at the mansion, something that others seemed to fear whenever they found out.
Just what was he going to do? That woman was leaving and now all they could do was contemplate their next moves. They had lost a lot because of that whole mayor thing, even their transport. Twitching momentarily he slowly turned away, holding his head as he shook. “W-What’s happening?? W-What is s-s-syst-…can’t-…how did this happen…” he spoke in distress, trying to understand everything that was happening and what was happening to him, “Did I do that t-to-to-to the Machina?? I already destroyed the people…already destroyed…threat nullified…sys-system failing…”
The stress was hurting his mental state and his senses, his mind going into shutdown. He shouldn’t be having this much trouble understanding what life and death was and what it meant to the others, but what he saw before he went on the rampage was still trying to invade his mind and causing even more problems. He had seen all of this before, he knew he had even before he knew what existence was. Maybe it happened in the factory when he was trying to escape, but that was only half of the puzzle. He couldn’t understand any of it, he couldn’t understand anything that had happened or what was happening to him.
Quickly turning around to Ethan and Amuné he stared at them almost blankly as Amuné spoke, his feet shifting to stop himself from falling over. She was never going to forgive him for what he did, he had completely destroyed what little respect she had for him and somehow that realisation made him feel even more upset like it could never be restored. Those Machina were going to kill them if they stayed, just like he could had killed them all if he wasn’t stopped. Standing staring as he tried to recover from his system errors he soon slowly turned around again. “Go…go and find him. If you stay with me I-I might hurt you too…like those other Machina”, he spoke slowly, rocking on his feet a little, “I’m dangerous! Don’t be around me…don’t get close to me. Don’t know what happened, I don’t-…don’t…not…b-but-…what did this to me…” Sitting down fairly quickly as if he simply fell off his feet he held his head, not looking as if he was comprehending anything right now. “I’m dead, I’m dead…don’t talk to me…”