Nimda

Myriad Reality

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Ill tell you everything as it happens and start trusting you with the goings-on in my life, as it pertains to you and effects you as well.

@souleaterfan320

Only if it affects me?

Myriad Reality

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... and you'll have it.

@souleaterfan320

So what’s going to be different compared to before?

Myriad Reality

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Im going to give you an option.... a way out if you will. I have to finish this battle with Aeron and the amaranthine. It was my battle from the start. But you don't have to suffer because of me. I truly love you, Blue. And the pain I've caused to you is extremely unfair and unwarranted. Im asking you this once, and only once.... you can stay, but you likely will witness horrific things with the battle of the amaranthine. Or..... we can go our seperate ways, you'll have a chance to build your life the way you want to without my interference. Without me causing problems... I' not going to convince you either which way because regardless of what I want, its not my choice. Its yours....

@souleaterfan320

This is... this is not the time for that kind of offer. I don’t care about the amaranthine or all the pain or causes. But I do care about your trust.

Myriad Reality

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I dont expect you to do anything.... I haven't been fair to you at all lately. Ive been selfish, in a way that hurts you the most. I want to tell you I'm sorry, but those are just words. Words mean nothing without action. Im not going to keep dragging you into situations that cause you physical or mental anguish. Not anymore.

@souleaterfan320

What are you going to do instead?

Myriad Reality

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....I wanted to check in on you... make sure your alright...

@souleaterfan320

Do you expect me to be?

Myriad Reality

*calls Fairy Blue*

@souleaterfan320

*Sighs and answers*
Yes?

Myriad Reality

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... i dont blame you... if i were in your shoes, i would to. I still love you, regardless.

@souleaterfan320

*Chokes on my own words*
...Do you?
*Opens a portal and leaves*

Myriad Reality

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Its not you i dont trust... its my own mind. Im sick, love.... I'm trying to get better, I promise I am.... but...every step i make forward is another one back somewhere, i cant make any headway...

@souleaterfan320

I... I think I need to go. To not be here anymore...
*Takes a few steps away*

Myriad Reality

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I just said I-

*a tear falls down my cheek*

Its not your fault.

*leans against the wall*

I'm a monster, Blue. I may seem nice and warm and approachable but... despite the good ive done, I've also done a lot of really bad things....

@souleaterfan320

*Turns to hide the tears running down my face, but they still splash against the floor*
Then why can't we work through these things together? Do I not love you enough? H-Have I done something to hurt your trust?

Myriad Reality

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They dont help... I dont know what I was thinking.

@souleaterfan320

I...
*Fights away tears*
I don't understand. Why won't anybody ever trust me..?