It was almost...scary when Alex calmed down then became adamant. He wasn't quite angry, but whatever I had said to him sparked a fire. I took a step backwards at the mention of You-Know-Who's name. Not that I hadn't heard it before, but I tended to avoid using it, myself. It made me feel...well...something like an itch that you couldn't scratch, because it was inside. Just that nagging sensation.
Stepping around Alex, I sat back down on the seat and picked up a pillow, wrapping my arms against it and holding it to my chest. I wasn't entirely sure what to say, so I sat there and stared between my vault and Alex for a minute.
"Alex...I want revenge too. Trust me, I do. But I don't want it like that, to just 'end' the pain and suffering by getting rid of the source. Then I'd feel worse. What I want to do, why I study and connive, it's for a purpose." I clutched the pillow tighter.
"Someday, I want that jerk - no, that BASTARD - to suffer. I want him to look back and to KNOW where he went wrong. Even if he doesn't regret everything, at least he will know that someone knew about his secrets and mistakes, know that he screwed his own life over," my voice was slightly elevated.
Dropping my eyes to the floor, I picked up my Vault and put it in my lap, casting the pillow aside. Faster than ever, I drew my wand and traced the intricate pattern to unlock it, casting a summoning charm into the depths. Three small frames landed in my palm. I sat them on the other side of the loveseat, since Alex was still standing up.
"Engorgio," I said, pointing my wand at the items. When they grew to full size, they appeared to be pictures.
"These, Alex, are all I have to remember why I want to fight." I held up the first one. "This one, at their wedding, I suppose my father was light and charming, because she really does appear happy." Then the second one. "This one, was shortly after they were married I'm assuming. Look at the change! She's...empty." Finally, the third one. "And this...was right before she had me. You can see misery all over her face, all over the way that she is sitting. She's almost...vengeful but afraid."
I took another deep breath. "Reducio," I said, shrinking the pictures once more. I put them back in the mini-chest, where I kept them safe. I kept my vault open, however.
"I want him to live the rest of his life as miserable as I have had to live mine knowing what he did. I'm not out to kill people, Alex. Just to make them see what they did and make them live with it. What they choose to do after that is not my problem," I said. I motioned him over to sit down.
"As for you," I said, motioning to the open chest in my lap, "You should do the same thing. Study, look for clues, and someday, when you know who did these atrocious things, you make them PAY for it. They can't pay if they're dead."
Without a word, I summoned the book he'd been interested in earlier, about Fiendfyre. Increasing it's size to normal, I set it in his lap, a wordless encouragement.