1. I'm honestly a little disappointed in you. Not because you should do all I say or justify my world views, but because you never left and came back a better person. You just left and came back, I really thought I got through to you when we spoke and your disappearance spoke to me as progress in the right direction.
2. We were friends, and you're insecure. You build an ego easily to protect yourself and like so much in your life you seem happy to sit in a comfort zone and re-enforce that. I'm not judging, it's sometimes the best you can hope from others and honestly it gives you direction. But, you cared far too much about politics here and politics here aren't worthwhile, they're useless. But you traded someone who genuinely looked up to you, and worse of all you let that ego of yours blind sight you into actually believing the obviously satirical front I put on for humour. You're an idiot.
3. You need to stop hiding from a front of "intellect". You're damaged and you avoid expressing it. You also say you don't care a lot, so my instant impression is that you do. You have a real passion for this place but it would be healthy, and offer more if you cared less of what people think of you here and just work on the parts you're passionate about.
4. You've grown up a shit tonne, I'm proud.
5. Likewise chicka.
6. I know you're fake, I know you're not the person you claim to be. But you've always been kind and i'd never judge you for hiding your real self, nor would I judge you for revealing it.
7. I miss you from time to time, but honestly I see this is as a thing that's not too negative. You left and I did, I came back briefly and so did you at some point. We don't nearly engage here anymore, and if we don't interact with each other again then hey, i'm happy to of known you. I just worry you're in a bad place right now, it would reassure me to get a response from you but, honestly I can't be bothered pushing for one because you'd end up taking it in a way that would set a frame i'm just not willing to have with you, I also don't see you emotionally capable of having it any other way and that just ain't me.
8. Two Blonde Gymnasts and I hadn't slept in 48 hours, I had just gotten money from my "Mommy" right in front of them, and I had the image of a sack of potatoes. Suck it big guy.
9. You will always be a negative twisted fuck and that's why nobody will love you. Learn to be humble and stop torturing yourself. Or I dunno be less lazy but jesus just stop plaguing people with your shit.
10. I adore you. I feel anxious when i'm around you because it's been so long since we spoke and you deserve more. I feel we both kinda left you here and I want to hug you and have fun with you. You're one of the most authentic people i've met and you've shown yourself to be the most intimately human. I respect you for your courage and I yearn for you to use it and grow.
11. You are a twisted bitch, you're a conglomerate of daddy issues and people's attention because you live in a world of pedestals. And when you're 30 and having realized you spent your good years wondering why nobody is grovelling like they should while you go try and fuck other guys, you'll realize "oh hey I suck" and it'll be too late.
12. I actually pity you. You're your own worst enemy, and while we may of had clashes of personality I see you as a husk of the person you once were and I dont' see you growing to change these things. I hope you do, you really aren't the cunt you'd like to think you are, you should maybe consider reading Eckharte Tolle some time and applying it to yourself.
13. What day is it?
14. Hang in there buddy.
15. I'll make amends with you one day grumpy pumpskins.