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I don't think you should do that either, least if it is in your current condition... But alas, all i can recommend is get yourself a strong network of friends who care for you as much as one cares for their own family. If worse comes to worse, make sure it is REALLY hard to get you down first, and then worry whether the reality you're in gives you such a trump card.
You're saying to make myself unlikable somehow? Find allies?