Kenna watched Church and Eva’s exchange with controlled curiosity, paying attention to their expressions and general body language. Their smiles, whilst innocent enough at first glance, held a sort of hidden... what? She couldn’t put her finger on it, but it wasn’t particularly good. Then, like the good little newbie she was, she looked away and pretended she hadn’t noticed. It wasn’t her place to get involved in anything that she hadn’t been expressly involved in, maybe she could question them when she was closer to the Sector. Despite his attitude thus far, Church still intimidated her. Must be a Sector-leader thing. Or a Churchill Gunner thing.
She did, however, make a mental note to add that to the list of things she had to ask about, along with how to fit in better to the sector, when people usually held their training sessions and how the hell do people even speak German, since she felt totally lost sometimes when Klaus and Marina spoke and, for some reason, felt incredibly guilty. Everyone else was fine with German, of course, but Kenna just had to be the one clueless one. The list continues.
A flutter of panic stirred in her chest as Kenna realised that she hadn’t listened to what had been said, but soon dwindled when Church spoke openly to Acacia, which probably meant that she, at least, was in the clear.
“Should we expect armed resistance...?”
The panic soon swirled back to life, twisting in her gut. Armed resistance? She hadn’t even thought of that! Kenna’s gaze swirled to Church’s face in time to see a frown sink into his features, and her stomach dropped. Frowning leader can never be good.
“It’s impossible to say. There’s no reason to expect Omega or Spectre’s on this occasion, but... we can’t rule them out. And I can’t say The Black Church won’t be run by a shotgun preacher, either. So you’ll need to be on your guard, alright?”
Great, Kenna’s favourite thing in the world – uncertainty. She would have preferred he told her yes there would be, so she could have time to prepare herself, rather than not knowing and constantly having to look over her shoulder.
Well, she thought, at least I’m not at the very back.
Church looked at each of them in turn, and when his gaze met Kenna’s own emerald orbs she felt a hint of reassurance run through her like a shiver, almost anticipation, as if she was looking forward to it. She’d heard of the Runner’s High, of course, the thrill and the rush, the adrenaline pulsing through your veins as you soar through the skies. And she could’ve sworn that, when Church looked at them all and uttered the simple sentence ‘I believe in you lot. You won’t let me down,’ she felt that very same rush with both feet planted firmly on the ground.
They set off walking.
Kenna forced herself to keep up, doing a slow jog to keep up with the other member’s long strides, and then slowed to a hobbling walk when she spotted Maggie in the distance. The first time the young runner had encountered Maggie, she had been too terrified to speak in response to the older woman’s little quips and jibes, despite the fact that she seemed pleasant enough. Now she was worried how Maggie might react given her previous lack of social etiquette.
She watched as the experienced runners embraced and wondered how she had ever found them to be intimidating – at least, until talk turned back to kicking ass and she dropped her gaze to the floor again.
Sector V set off and Kenna fell into step behind, hurrying so she wasn’t at the very back, when Maggie stopped ahead of her. She tripped over her own shoelace slightly in her effort to stop, becoming horribly close to head-butting the woman.
“You two are fresh meat, right?” Kenna nodded slowly. “Good. It’s your job to make sure the rest of V doesn’t do something stupid.”
Kenna stared at Maggie incredulously then turned to look at the rest of the Sector who had stopped for them. Her? Stop them doing something stupid? How is being inexperienced – or ‘fresh meat’, as Maggie put it – ever a good thing? Nobody in the history of Sundown had ever uttered the words 'Well, thank God the newbie was here', she reckoned. She didn’t even know how the Sector worked on missions! Hell, she just nearly head-butted a woman because she couldn’t stop herself, how the hell was she the responsible one here?
Kenna tried to keep the ‘are you crazy?’ look off her face and listen to Maggie speak.
“I love them to pieces, but between you and me? Fucking clueless.”
“I can hear you,” Church called from where he stood ahead of them and Kenna tried not to laugh. “And I think that’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever said about me.”
“Don’t get used to it, spring-heels.”
Maggie straightened and clapped her and Acacia – who Kenna hadn’t even noticed beyond her anxiety and partial fear of Maggie’s confusing attitude – on the shoulders and spoke whilst Kenna tried to stop her knees from buckling.
“If he says something stupid, refuse to do it, alright? Seriously.”
Kenna wanted to point out that Church was her Sector leader, and she was new to the Sector, so she sort’ve had to listen to him, but a feeling she was incredibly used to swirled in her stomach and she kept her mouth shut. She couldn’t imagine Church saying anything that outlandishly stupid, anyway, there was probably no need for Maggie’s advice, grateful as she was to receive it. Still, Kenna nodded numbly whilst attempting to look as though she was definitely taking everything on board.
Kenna sent Maggie a small wave and a barely-audible “Thanks”, before following Church’s gesture away from Sundown, beginning their descent.
During the journey, Kenna was very pleased to report that she had only tripped twice over assorted rubble, and had sustained no injury more serious than a hair-line scratch on her index finger from when she tried to catch herself from falling by grabbing the nearest wall.
The atmosphere was so different here compared to Sundown and it was steadily taking its toll on all of them. Kenna lagged behind a few times, but never became the one at the back, thankfully. Every time they stopped for a rest Kenna would lean against the nearest sturdy wall, much like she had during her little episode with Henry, and take deep, gulping breaths. The fear that she would slip into panic-mode again was always present in her mind but it always passed and she was fine to continue with the rest of V.
She didn’t know what she was expecting from the mission, but it was, so far, much more relaxed than she had imagined. They stopped for breaks and, when they had their breath back, would chat just like normal. Whenever they came across an obstacle, Klaus and Church would mutter to each other in German and Kenna was confused just as she always was. At a guess, she’d say that it was annoyed mutterings, but she could never really tell with German.
Night fell sooner than Kenna could keep track of. It felt as though the sun was there one minute then someone had simply flicked a switch and it was gone. She was grateful when Church called them to a stop and handed out blankets. Despite the oxygen-rich air around them, Kenna felt exhausted and very ready for some sleep, regardless of the lumpy beds. She could’ve slept on rocks she was so tired, muscles aching and protesting with each move.
Kenna watched the fire crackling with interest as she set her bed along the circumference of what she decided to call The Sector V Sleepy Circle. She hadn’t even realised she was hungry until Church set the cans on a metal shelf, at which point her stomach growled loudly and she flushed, wrapped her arms around her mid-riff and prayed that no one had heard.
“Alright everyone, this is supper for the night. When the cans start hissing, Eva should probably start stabbing them open. You’ve all made me really proud today,” Church smiled and Kenna relaxed ever so slightly, not even aware that she was tense. “Tomorrow we hit The Black Church, so I want you all fed and rested... How are you all feeling?”
Kenna looked down as Church looked around at them all, praying that she hadn’t let them down. She had, after all, managed to cut herself on a wall. She wiped her finger on the side of her trousers consciously, shifting her position so she sat on her bed roll with her legs crossed.
Her head tilted, as it did when she thought. How did she feel now? Undyingly grateful for rest and food, that’s for sure, but there was always a sickness in her stomach and a dizziness flying around her skull – that, she reckoned, was a result of over-oxygenation – but, thankfully, exhaustion had beaten back the anxiety. Kenna had no reason to complain just now.
She watched until Church’s gaze met hers and shrugged slightly, in a way that she hoped came across as light-hearted but probably looked more like a twitch.
“Uh, I- I’m okay.” She looked around at the others then slid her gaze across Church’s features.
There was a certain look about him that she hadn’t seen on him as of yet. It took a few moments to process, though it eventually clicked. He’s exhausted too. He’s human, just like the rest of them, and he probably had a load more stress to deal with than the rest, having to make sure his Sector stayed alive. Kenna remembered Daisy, the member that passed away just before she and Sonia joined. No, not passed away, Kenna reminded herself. She was murdered. And, with that thought, she winced. No wonder he was exhausted.
She caught herself staring at him, and quickly looked slightly to the left of his head, then at the floor before speaking again.
“Are, um, are you al- alright, uh, Church?” Kenna tried to show that she was concerned without seeming like a dork, but she wasn’t sure it worked. Instead she simply waited for his reaction, twirling a corner of her bed roll around her fingers to occupy herself.