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1 yr ago
Current Out of town until Thursday and the Wi-Fi is spotty. =(
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2 yrs ago
Been under the weather for the past couple days, posts tomorrow!
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2 yrs ago
Unfortunately, there are people everywhere that like to shame others for their tastes with an air of false superiority, even in RP.
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2 yrs ago
You would think, but there are so many people that make wild assumptions, and force you to create rules.
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2 yrs ago
It's going to be one of those days, I can feel it. Hope everyone is having a more pleasant Friday the 13th!

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About Me:
Just turned 40 (sadly), happily married with two sons. I've been role-playing since I was 14 years old, starting with AOL chatrooms and instant messenger (the dark days), before graduating to IRC, Gaia, RPNation, and then this website. When not roleplaying I am a GM of a raiding guild on Stormrage server, listen to Kpop, read books and manhwa, and binge on TV shows/movies when I am stressed (sci fi, fantasy, drama, Korean).

I'd love to get to know other RP folks, especially if you're my age!

What I like/want in RPs:
Romance (necessity, I respect not everyone likes it)
At least 2 paragraphs per post
Sci Fi, (High, Low, Urban) Fantasy, Futuristic, Supernatural, some modern or psuedo-historical
Someone who plays male characters
Plots that allow me not to have to write realistic melee action (but I love to read it!)
Characters 18+
Players 18+
Intrigue/mystery in a story
Cooperative world building

What I don't like:
Players under 18
Children or teenage characters
Western or prehistoric settings
Plots with only action
Almost all furry/anthro pairings
G-rated romance

Message me if you think we'd be good RP partners for each other! Please note I do require romance, though I certainly do NOT want that to be the summation of the story nor do I necessarily want it to be "fluffy." I also adore romances that have with characters with significant flaws and baggage, where there is conflict and disagreement, as there would be in real relationships. Some mundanes/players believe that all love stories develop "organically" in the story- but my real life experience has taught me you can have no chemistry with someone that would be great for you, all the chemistry in the world for someone you never thought you'd like, and romance is not 'organic' and predictable in practice. As a mundane/player we make the decision for romance because, quite frankly, we aren't the characters no matter how alive they might feel. They don't truly exist physically to have chemistry. If you feel differently we will not be a good fit for each other.

Additionally, I require players separate themselves from this characters. This should go without saying, but just because we write a romance together does not mean there are real feelings beneath. I am truly happily married. Please, please, please don't expect any fiction to translate into real life.

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Truthfully, Solae was beginning to doubt that keeping her out of Duke Tan's hands was doing much of anything for her cause. It avoided her bringing legitimacy to his coup, it was better for her health, and it kept him from reaping the boon of her resources and linage, but it wasn't hurting him as acutely as she would have liked. Despite being a duchess, she felt largely inconsequential, as if she were an annoying bug flitting around his room that sooner or later he would have successfully swatted if he could not do so himself. Every move they made was on the defensive with the possible exception of the rescue of their two Syshin comrades. He was still inordinately wealthy, he had still claimed the Eastern Cross with little resistance, he still had allies that had been threatening enough to force the empress into retreat, and his army was well-armed, well-trained, and brutally effective. Slowing the war machine was not akin to making it stop. Eventually the conspiracy would unite under one banner and there would be a reckoning.

There was nothing they could do where they were now. They could try to save a soldier's life, they could try to survive, and forge a better alliance with the Kalderi, enough that when Duke Tan found his way to their corner of the universe he would realize that humanity was not unrivaled in strength. For all that she had seen of him, and of their own civilization, she was fairly certain that the Kalderi had technological superiority. Slow as they were to anger, and reluctant as they were to engage in violence, there was no doubt in her mind that they could defend themselves against invasion. Innovation did not move backwards. If the planet destroying ships of so long ago were not their military, nor associated with it in any way, the firepower they had would be spectacular. Solae got the impression they would only use it to defend themselves, yet there was comfort in having a place to which to retreat, a sanctuary that no ruthless despot could penetrate. It would have to be enough.

Then again, people were fickle. During her time as a diplomat the embassy, translating and interpreting various correspondence, she had learned that power changed people in unusual ways. Nobility, enlisted military members, and the disenfranchised might flock under Duke Tan's power so long as they believed his offer was the best available. Someone in the ranks would possibly get greedy and try to use the instability to take his position. Followers would grow impatient for their rewards. Revolution would give clarity that change was not always for the better. If Tan was unable to follow through on all of his promises, or wasn't what they imagined, betrayed oaths, or made any minute mistake, silent eyes and ears would question him. Every step he took would be compared to the status quo. Victories must be swift or the restless and immoral would lose interest, would withdraw their support, would yearn for the past, or jockey for leadership.

The linguist's eyes drifted closed as she mused on what could stir up more unrest in his faithful. Rene's warmth, his arm draped over her, his soft words, the scent of soap lingering on his hair coaxed her slowly into slumber. She wanted to believe it would be all right. If there was a divine being, they were more than overdue for a blessing and guidance, for answers to how to turn the tide without compromising their morals. Never had her family been religious, but she found herself passively, unintelligibly, muttering a prayer as her consciousness slipped away.

She slept soundly for a an hour, two hours, three, with no dreams. The heavy dosage of medication and the exhaustion as her body tried to heal itself as quickly as possible kept her mind from being able to do anything more than sink into a void of deep rest. Before she had drifted off she had hoped for peace before awaking to the complex, frustrating, discouraging reality of the world. Solae was not so blessed. As the effects of pharmaceuticals gradually wore off, and as her fatigue became less oppressive, her overactive imagination tugged on the recent memories of trauma that none of them had an opportunity to resolve with themselves, much less with a therapist that wasn't a machine running a software algorithm.

There was a distant whistle in the nightmare that grew in volume and more shrill in pitch. As she turned, looking for the source, blank space was rebuilt into a warped illusion of the embassy. Stunned mute, she didn't relive history, and instead took the full force of the missile that shredded the building. Concussive force blasted her backwards as it collapsed around her, rubble toppling endlessly as if a mountain of infinite rock was self-imploding of its own volition. The golden hair-blonde coughed and started to crawl in the small gaps. As she inched closer to what she thought could be an exit, or at least a place where she could stop and find shelter, it was filled with scrap metal, debris, dirt, or mangled corpses that she forced herself not to recognize. Gradually she became aware there were voices outside where she could not see joking, laughing, taunting her from beyond their graves- slavers, mercenaries, and thugs that they had encountered and in most cases thwarted during their adventures. The weight on her shoulders, back, and legs became too heavy to bear as she became buried alive, helpless to save her friends, her family, those that had been murdered or left behind.

She began to cry quietly in the middle of the horrific sequence, but as it reached a crescendo she began to scream aloud, undoubtedly scaring her fiance as she intermittently twitched and thrashed, trying to free herself of phantom boulders. Even Mia, their faithful assistant, was drowned out by the shrieking that filled the former silence of the room.
Solae was silent for a long moment as Rene bolted upright and began to string together a theory that gave reason to the inexplicable murder of his beloved. For the briefest of moments her eyes drifted shut and she had to force them back open again so as to not be a terrible fiancee ignoring very important deductions. She would have loved to say her investigative nature, dedication to imperial stability, and unwavering devotion to unraveling the mystery were the only reasons she remained awake, but she would be lying to herself. The loss of tactile reassurance, warmth, and comfort, albeit brief, were akin to being dumped with cold water. Grumbling internally she did her best to pay attention. A considerable amount of effort was put forth to not stare at his jaw, his cheekbones, the way his shirt hung off his shoulders, the way he had tousled his hair after his shower, or physically attractive attributes. She couldn't have done anything if she wanted to, not in her sorry state, but she was could admire the view while her higher functions frizzled in and out erratically.

"I don't like it," the diplomat announced as she pressed her lips together in a sign of displeasure. What he said made enough sense. There was never any doubt in his mind that he was innocent and from what information she had about the crime, they were not dealing with anyone amateur. The high-profile target, sophisticated methodology, fabricating evidence to pin the murder on someone else, all while leaving no trace who the real culprit with smacked of a professional. Although she had surmised as much when he initially told her about the killing, that didn't necessarily eliminate suspects. Capella was laden with the wealthy, titled, and privileged, all of whom had a retinue of individuals capable of committing unsavory acts (to put it mildly). Differentiating between whether it was an ex-military attache from a duke or a covert assassin marketed as a mercenary from an earl was the real challenge. Their best way to find the guilty party was uncovering what specific motivation there was to slay his ex-fiancee in the first place.

"We haven't stopped Tan, we've only slowed him down a little," she sighed as she turned her head into the pillow. "We can't possibly save the empire from a huge conspiracy." It sounded pessimistic, but Solae didn't fancy herself a hero. Perhaps when she was really, really little she had dreams of becoming the savior of the interstellar empire just as she had dreamed about being a professional dancer, discovering a long lost prince, or learning magic from a fairy. Much had changed between then and now. By the time she was an adult her ambitions were more realistic and involved maintaining her financial stability, getting married, starting a family, reviving dead languages, and being appointed as an ambassador that would forge important peace treatises of mutual cooperation.

The longer she was with him, the more convinced she was that Rene was indefatigable. When he had been accused of callously taking the life of his lover, he had found an avenue to reinvent himself, and thrived. When New Concordia was attacked by one of their own, he had managed to survive when all the marines were ambushed, and then even saved her. He was resilient in a way that was hard for her to understand. Others, like her, would roll for the punches only so long before they felt defeated and demoralized. For a moment she wondered if Alric or Rene's late mother were the source of his unwavering strength, or if it was an unexpected result of the combination thereof.

The silver-tongued linguist was more deflated. Rather than reducing the suspects, they had increased their number exponentially, for it would be exceedingly difficult to flush out insurgents in a political coup, as a common strategy was that some remained 'undercover' until a change of power had successfully occurred. Instead of taking on Duke Tan, their duty obligated them to take on Duke Tan and numerous allies, to wage war, to save and secure the Stellar Empire from those that wished to do it irreparable harm. Solae was not a soldier. In normal circumstances she would make first contact and provide advice to leaders as to the best way to compromise on cultural traditions for the sake of trade. Being flung into the line of fire was hard enough. Now that the only way to restore Rene's reputation and clear his good name was to triumph over their enemies completely felt impossible, especially since she hadn't even won over a major ally! The Kalderi were still uncertain about her and one moody teenager and two Syshin bodyguards would not save her from Tan's clutches if he got close enough.

"This isn't what I wanted," she moped quietly, her voice muffled by the synthetic fiber of the pillow she had buried her face into. It didn't seem fair, and, drugged, tired, and reeling from a traumatic event, their ominous discussion made her want to reject reality. She wanted to run away where there weren't guns pointed at her, enslaved races, and danger around every corner that could result in everyone she knew dying again.
Once he had crawled in beside her, she tucked her head under his chin and closed her eyes, listening to the soothing vibrations his voice made as it rumbled in his chest. The comfort he provided made it easier to imagine going to sleep and waking up the next morning as if everything that transpired was nothing more than a bad dream. Prescription drugs had been a source of addiction for longer than she could remember, but now she could appreciate why it was not just the 'lower class' citizens that fell prey to their allure. Peasants had lives of hardship, economic turmoil, and physical labor, be it through their profession or because they lacked servants to perform tasks for them that the aristocrats were able to avoid, such as domestic chores. On the other hand, the nobility had intense social pressure, emotional stifling, and ruthless competition in every facet of their life that meant the duress broke more than would ever admit it. They turned to drugs more than their less financially blessed peers for escapism and as a coping strategy. Solae was not buckling under the weight of her responsibilities, yet she couldn't discount that there was an odd chemical elation, one that was carried higher with the gentle pressure of Rene's arms around her waist.

"My parents weren't sure what to do with me either," she sighed as she listened intently to his description of his father. She was under no delusion that he would want to be her father, given how distant Rene made him out to be, she hoped they would be able to have some manner of familial relationship. "They loved me in their own way, just like it sounds like yours loves you." The duchess wasn't sure if she was reassuring him or herself with her commentary, but didn't want to think about it. Her parents had been involved, albeit critical, and had given her attention than many of her peers. What she had realized during their travels, though, was it wasn't the soft, gentle, understanding, and compassionate sort of love that others experienced. What she wanted for any children she had in the future- and she would have them, with or without the Empress's blessing- was to be a parent who really dedicated themselves to being that pillar of support and availability children of scions so often needed.

Quietly she wondered what it must have been like to be an admiral during the reign of the previous emperor. No one in her family discussed him much, but what she had gleaned, the late marquis and marquise were largely left alone because they were horribly eccentric, divested from imperial politics, and lacked any ambition for achieving a greater title. Because they were not threatening, having no military background or strong attachments, they were allowed to conduct their lives as they wished so long as they didn't interfere with his plans. More than one lord and lady had taken the approach of trying to be as unnoticeable as possible.

"It sounds like he cares more about how someone conducts themselves than who or what they are," she said, trying to stifle a yawn and failing, "since it sounds like he picked your mother on criteria than 'best political match.'" Whether it was romantic love, shared values, admiration of her character, or some other set of standards she couldn't suss out. Regardless, it bode well for her introduction to him at a later date. Her lineage was almost impeccable, but there was no denying that a marine and a duchess were not ideal, and it was important to her that she had Alric's support as Rene's last immediate family member other than an infant half-sister. It was also less likely her radically progressive philosophies would rattle him as much as some of the diehard, cold, calculating nobles that treated every union as a business transaction where no one could diverge from rigid confines of behavior.

Suddenly it occurred to her how close Rene's father was to the empress. Seeing the empress over the relay had been such a shock that it hadn't occurred to her to prod about why the Du Quentain patriarch was there, and the only other person present. There had been too many other pressing matters for her to question the coincidence. Now that she heard he had been close to her since the empress was a young girl, there were subconscious thoughts clicking into place, as pieces of the puzzle gravitated towards each other in a more coherent pattern than days or weeks ago.

Unfortunately, she wasn't quite coherent enough to make all the brilliant deductions she would normally; instead, she let herself be gripped by irrational concern over her fiance's affections. Proximity to the empress made her paranoid that Alric would prefer the imperial figure to Rene's actual lover, and that preference and influence might bleed over, resulting in their return to Capella being punctuated by unfavorable comparisons. Of course, if she was thinking clearly she would know that even if the empress fancied the marine, his past, coupled with his current enlistment, would make him an ineligible partner= but Solae wasn't really thinking all that clearly. She pressed her lips together in agitation at her inner musings briefly as she wound herself up. Just as quickly as the paranoia appeared, however, it disappeared.

"It sounds like he's close to the empress," she finally mused in a somewhat sulky tone. "That has to make some people jealous," she continued as if she never had fleeting fits of envy, like any other human being. "I bet some people would like to be in his place, trusted like he is..." After drifting off, she exhaled slowly, and subconscious conclusions were revealed when a small bit of mental fog parted. "If he cares about family, hurting you would hurt him, right? Do you think someone like that did it? Made you look like a killer to drive your father and the empress apart, tarnish your name, and hurt him?" Hazy recollections were that he said something once about being in high standing with her highness, which made her grumble as she wound her fingers into his shirt. "Just remember when we get back to Capella that I believed you were innocent first," she commented to make sure she staked her claim clearly.
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While Rene was in the shower Solae took a moment to look herself over. There were strange synthetic lattices on her legs that functionally were braces to help give her the support she needed if she had to walk since her muscles and bones were still mending. She wouldn't be doing cartwheels for a week at least, but it was a temporary solution that she could appreciate was pragmatic. As an aristocrat on New Concordia on the rare occasion a noble was hurt, such as when Lord Armon flippantly decided to duel an acquaintance for the favor of a certain lady, resulting in both parties being injured, there were facilities nearby with a robust medical facilities. A viscount could walk into the center with a broken limb and expect to be pampered, to have every available resource utilized, and to walk out later just as healthy and refreshed as if he had been in a spa. If she visited someone in the hospital they were reclined in a plush bed, in designer pajamas, with no apparatus to be found marring their pristine image.

She dragged her finger across a section of her thigh where a mottled bruise was already fading, undoubtedly because Mia had pumped her full of all sorts of medications to help expedite her healing. Marveling at the bizarre pattern that stretched from just below her hips to her toes, she let her mind drift to the rescue during which she had been unconscious. Solae didn't regret what she had done, but she did feel a strange sense of guilt. As the marquise, and now the duchess, she had a responsibility to her friends, even if she did not consider them her subordinates. For better or for worse she was their leader. Throwing herself into a situation that left her incapacitated made her feel as if she had failed them somehow.

Even worse than any perceived shortcoming with Rosaria, Dasin, Yarue, Bel'sian, and Bouardine, was that she had obviously traumatized Rene, whom she cared more about than the rest, regardless of whether or not she would say it aloud in front of them. As out of sorts as she was, she had seen the panic etched on his features when he retrieved her from the medical pod, and the relief that washed over him when he saw that she had not been horribly maimed or worse. The last thing she wanted to do was make him as terrified of losing her as she was of losing him. They were each other's emotional anchors; she had lost both her parents and had no family, and he was still a man accused of murder, who was estranged from his father. She didn't want to be another source of anguish.

Running a hand through her hair, she stared up at the ceiling and let the drugs coursing through her bloodstream artificially induce drowsiness that would not have been possible if she felt all the pain her wounds must have created. There was an almost imperceptible hum that permeated throughout the Bonaventure. In a yacht or imperial vessel there would have been more of an effort to insulate sound. Cheap freighters such as their current vehicle did not bother with the expense of making the various heating, cooling, and electrical systems run absolutely silently.

Just as she was starting to drift off to sleep she heard the murmuring of a conversation down the hall. "Mia," she called out, stifling a yawn, and pulling the sheets further up over herself. "Who is that out there? Is that Rene?" the diplomat asked, more curious than concerned.

"Yes, Duchess Solae. Sir Rene and the merchant Sir Bouradine are having a verbal exchange," Mia proclaimed in an even softer, sultrier tone than normal. If the linguist had to wager a guess, it was because she had some sort of absurd protocol dictating how loud she could broadcast a sound to a recovering patient.

"Excellent, can you transmit into the room?" Solae asked. When Mia didn't immediately comply she smiled to herself and then added, "or I can just go out there myself. You did say I could walk..." It was a bluff but a computer such as her AI could not take the risk that she was telling the truth. With seconds she heard a slightly more muted broadcast in her room of the discussion between Rene and Bouradine. It felt a little intrusive, since it was as close to eavesdropping as you could be immobile in a bed, but it wasn't as if their subject was confidential. Rene also had to know, as Solae did, that unless they requested their privacy that they were never alone in their vessel- their souvenir from New Concordia was always quietly observing.

When her lover stepped through the door she patted the mattress beside her to indicate he could take a seat or lay down himself. "You know the saying that it feels like a spaceship landed on me? I didn't expect to ever have to use the phrase so literally. It's horribly uncomfortable see my legs like this and feel them not all the way. My brain keeps trying to make sense of it and doesn't know how to make the right connections. Imagine your arms being asleep where it's tingly, and you can move it, but it's also amazing unpleasant. I'm starting to think Mia's suggestion of getting some more sleep isn't such a bad one."

Stifling a yawn she turned her head on the pillow and then tried to wiggle herself over to create more space for him if he wanted to join her. There would be no intimate encounter today, considering what they had both been through, but she was honestly just as content and enchanted with his presence. Going to sleep and waking up beside Rene was its own special kind of reward, something she wish Rosaria, Yarue, and Dasin could know some day if they found their own partners. Somehow she knew the Syshin would more easily open themselves up to the possibility of love than her young protege.

"I have an idea for the star-crossed couple," she continued, this time unable to suppress a yawn. She was slightly droopy, her mind was hazy, and she was pretty certain the pain relievers were just short of causing hallucinations because she intermittently had the peculiar sensation of flying. "Only one of them is Kalderi, the other is human," she reasoned. This clarity was not a result of her present but rather the brainchild of their travel to this planet. Solae hadn't wanted to volunteer her rough plot of how to proceed until she was absolutely certain the circumstances would fit her assumptions. "Under the treatise, and common courtesy, both cultures need to be honored, not just the Kalderi. We can broker a compromise that allows them to be together or, if that fails, I'll nicely paint them into a corner about Bel'sian's agency and ability to decide who she wants to be with. Yarue and Dasin are half a breath away from accusing them of being backwards, so if I give them an opening to accuse them of forcing one of their females against her will to a male, without her consent- well, that would offend the Kalderi enough they'd scramble to prove otherwise."

She didn't want to stoop to manipulation. Confident as she was that Dasin and Yarue would be willing accomplices, and complicit in her agenda, she didn't want to point out fallacies of another species when humanity had so many. If she had to, though, she would open the door to save two people that were obviously so madly in love they were willing to risk their lives to be together. The Kalderi couldn't both boast of being a sophisticated, more advanced race, and practically enslave one of their citizens to another. For centuries they had looked down on humans for being violent, basic, and cruel, and if they had an impartial spectator in the form of Syshin, who had been maligned and abused for equally as long, comparing them to the worst sins visited on them by humanity- they couldn't suffer that. They wouldn't suffer that. From what little she had seen, the Kalderi were curious about the Syshin, and wanted to cultivate a relationship there. It would be impossible to do so if the Kalderi did not show that they could value consent highly.

The duchess flopped an arm over and interlaced her fingers. Small abrasions from injections were on her arms, but they were otherwise unblemished, as if she hadn't been trapped under rubble for hours. "Can you stay for a bit? Tell me about your father, more than you did last time. I have to make a good impression on him next time I see him," she said with a lopsided, dreamy smile.
"Sir Rene," Mia cooed in a characteristically inappropriate smoldering tone. "While Duchess Falia is capable of resting in her own room, her mental faculties have been temporarily medically compromised by the medication administered to help relieve pain, reduce inflammation, accelerate the healing process, and improve circulation. I regret to inform you that Duchess Falia should wait until the dosage of such prescriptions can be safely reduced before she should make any major decisions. Legally she can not enter into contracts, verbal or written, at this time." Half of what the AI said sounded like a scripted portion of her program that was dictated by a group of consulting attorneys that had thoroughly reviewed the code. Given how widespread electronic assistants were it was not all that surprising, but the fact she sounded slightly like a worried motherly figure was odd. The attachment Mia had to her mistress was unusual to say the least.

"So... she's drugged up?" Rosaria bluntly asked for clarification. Dasin, who had received the ship-wide alert that Solae had woken up, was wandering into the room from where he had been down the hall. Yarue was nowhere to be seen. Though the two Syshin were roughly the same age, same species, and had the same experience under Thorne, they were by no means identical. While Dasin was a little groggy from being woken from his nap, he was not quite as exhausted as his companion, who was still dead asleep.

"Your assessment lacks the nuance of the situation..." Mia began.

"Yes, I'm drugged up," Solae admitted. It wasn't as if she couldn't tell. She was aware of her surroundings, yet they were surrounded in a slight haze, and the fact that her legs didn't hurt was as clear a sign as there could be that the medicomp, via Mia, had given her something to make her condition manageable. Normally she wouldn't advocate for ignorance, but she wasn't sure she wanted to know what potent cocktail was running through her system.

"Dasin can help me put the solider in the medicomp," Rosaria volunteered, earning her a curious look from the male in question.

"I thought that Rene said he would..." Dasin interjected, confused why he had been suggested without the polite gesture of asking first. He was beginning to think that all humans had a quite unattractive habit of ordering around what they perceived to be 'aliens' because of some passive superiority complex. The way he was commanded so casually left a sour taste in his mouth.

"Rene stinks. I mean I can smell him across the ship," Rosaria said, dispensing with approaching the subject diplomatically. "I can't lift the soldier myself, but Dasin is stronger than any of us except Yarue maybe. We can get her back into the medicomp while Rene takes a shower." At first blush it seemed like she was taking charge, or issuing an ultimatum, but it was really a plea for everyone to collect themselves somewhat before they began having serious conversations about what to do with the lovers, the Kalderi alliance, and subsequently Duke Tan, who was no doubt plotting their deaths from across the galaxy. Jumping from one crisis to the next without remembering for everyone to wash, rest, or eat meant that they were disorganized, unfocused, and not able to look at the bigger picture. They had to keep their heads and compose themselves if they wanted to strategize. Intuitively, Rosaria understood this, perhaps from all her years being groomed to be a criminal mastermind for once Thorne retired.

"That is a great idea," Solae sighed, finding herself unusually candid.

Dasin glanced between the humans and lifted his shoulders in what was his race's version of a shrug before ambling over to the unconscious soldier. With Rosaria's help, who had studied the armor somewhat, they began the delicate process of dismantling it to extract its patient. They had forged a sort of rapport. It was still too early to call it a friendship, but there was a sense of camaraderie, of individuals going through a crisis together. The teenager flashed him a smile when she thanked him for his assistance. She didn't say it aloud, but she was thanking him not just for their current endeavor; she would remember how he, Rene, and Yarue rescued her from the mudslide for the rest of her life. A brush of death that put things into perspective as they often did. In her defining moment, she had been shown that compassion and loyalty were not weaknesses as she had been taught, and that they could be found in living beings that did not look like her, act like her, or speak like her. She was beginning to truly trust.

"I miss trees," Solae sighed, "the trees on New Concordia. I think I dated Lord Armon because he had a beautiful garden. I was so happy to be on a world that had such a breathtaking landscape... and it mauled me. When this is all over- if it's ever all over- I'm going to see if the Falias have any homes with big gardens. I'll ask the empress for a garden with lots of trees and not so much dirt. She'll think I've lost my mind," the noblewoman laughed. "It will warm her up for when I discuss the Syshin, I suppose. Once she's sure I'm crazy, not too much will shock her."
"Lady Solae," Mia purred with what sounded like a bizarre mixture of seductive concern. The duchess had wondered if her former paramour, Lord Armon, had sought out an AI that could perform every function with inappropriate innuendo. If she had paused to really ponder what her sophisticated computer sounded like, she would have realized it almost sounded a lady trying to role-play a nurse, something that she couldn't deny more than a few members of the nobility would find much more appealing than she did. "The injuries to your legs could not be completely repaired while you were under anesthesia. Only restricted equipment, which is not compatible with the Bonaventure is able to safely accelerate the complete recovery of a patient. It is recommended that you continue to rest. If you would like for me to provide a sedative..."

Disregarding the implied warnings she should remain laying down, the diplomat sat up, which she passively understood was the most she could easily do. She reached forward and wrapped her arms around Rene, ignoring how incredibly filthy he was. In its own way the mud was a tactile reassurance. If her fiance had bathed she might have worried about how much time had passed, questioned if everything had been a bad dream, if he had been caught in the disaster, if he had been harmed himself, if he had helped rescue them or there had been another intervention. The crumbling soil dispelled her worries that she was trapped in a bad dream. Even in her absolute worst nightmares there was never any odor like the muskiness her beau had- though she wouldn't point it out and ruin the moment. They had bigger problems than his lack of shower.

"No sedative," Solae insisted. There was sufficient localized numbing agents in her legs that they weren't causing her any pain. Her pants had been cut away and disposed of, her battered legs cleaned, and heavily bandaged, with braces that would allow her to awkwardly walk if necessary. It was top of the line treatment for a battlefield but not nearly as efficient as a highly sought after imperial rejuvenation chamber. Doctors had created ways with synthetic materials to make braces even more custom fitted and practical so that patients, be they leaders in positions that did not allow the whisper of weakness, or grunts in an active war zone, could be active for the majority of the recuperation period.

"You both look awful," Rosaria observed dryly as she appeared from the kitchen where she had been getting a snack. Bouradine and Bel'sian had brought provisions from their camp site and had a small meal together a short while ago, not wanting to impose on their hosts, and feeling too indebted to accept any gifts of food or drink. The couple had withdrawn to another part of the vessel to afford Rene and his beloved some privacy. Rosaria- who had been alerted by Mia just as Rene had- was not nearly as reserved about inserting herself in a scene or offering her opinion.

"Rosaria..." Solae's words drifted as she spoke, still clinging to Rene as if he was her anchor to the world of the waking.

"Bel'sian and I are both uninjured, but Mia is right, you should rest," Rosaria asserted in a rare moment of wisdom. She had not been entirely divested of her selfish nature. Thinking of others did not come as naturally to her as it came to the heir of the Falia family line, but very few people in the known universe could claim that level of benevolence.

"I want to lay down in my own room," she insisted, "not in this thing. What about the soldier? Is she all right? And Yarue and Dasin?" One of the monitors displayed her blood pressure and heart rate, both of which were slowly rising as the pitch of her voice did as well. "I should check on everyone," Solae murmured more to herself than to anyone else in the room. "Everyone here is my responsibility."
The medical software and their corresponding instruments hummed as they worked in tandem over the unresponsive duchess. More quickly than any human could have ever operated the small laceration was analyzed and mended, a topical treatment was applied to reduce the bruising, and Solae was injected with a cocktail of drugs that would reduce swelling and help stimulate her recovery. What it was unable to synthesize, however, were the benefits of rest. Arguably Mia would have woken her mistress if she didn't have compelling historical evidence it would be better to let her 'sleep' off the worst portion of her healing process. An AI did not have the same emotional capacity as a human being. There had been experiments in creating software that would make them feel that had either ultimately failed or succeeded so well it became inherently dangerous. Scientists had quickly discovered that they were ill-prepared for a sentience that could review and react to their morality or lack thereof, especially since a machine had such vast capabilities that were not confined by fleshy mortality.

What was more worrisome than the mild concussion was the crushing damage the diplomat had sustained to her legs. In the heat of the moment she had reflexively pushed Rosaria and Bel'sian out of the way without considering the circumstances. Anyone who knew her could have complete confidence that she would have done the same even if would have left her crippled. The massive amount of weight on her lower limbs had fractured the bone in multiple places, internal bleeding, compartment syndrome, nerve destruction, and skin that was so badly wounded it was almost uniformly a dark color rather than its normal pallor. Anti-bionics were administered to stave off infection as well as anesthetics while surgery was conducted in the privacy of the pod. Technology would accelerate her return to mobility, yet this was not a top-of-the-line rejuvenation chamber. Zatis, for all his planning, had not anticipated this level of reckless selflessness. For a few days at a minimum she would be moving more slowly and awkwardly.

For their part, Dasin and Yarue had been reluctant to leave Rosaria in charge with the two strangers while Solae and Rene recuperated. Because of the importance of cooperation, consent, and compromise in their society, neither could in good conscience retire to their shared quarters unless they made a mutual agreement. Despite all the horrific treatment at the hands of Thorne they were still Syshin philosophically and culturally. Rosaria went to take a shower, disgusted at the mud, satisfied that Rene had not died from his exhaustion, and reassured that the eccentric linguist would survive without her presence. Bouradine and Bel'sian were left to watch in confusion as the duo of aliens bickered in their tongue about who should be inconvenienced to stand watch.

"Is there anything we can do?" the Kalderi ventured. What they were debating was unknown to her, but it was impossible to not notice that there was a disagreement. The slender female and her merchant partner were sitting near the two patients. They felt a sort of responsibility for the soldier since they had been the ones to first discover her. Similarly the lovers couldn't just walk away from the small entourage that had found them and prevented a mudslide from severing their relationship permanently. They owed the nobleman and noblewoman a debt of gratitude. The least they could do is wait until the larger group was all physically able to hold a conversation about what had transpired and how to approach the future.

"We must choose who stays," Yarue said curtly. He wasn't mad as his short tone might imply; he was tired and annoyed that Dasin was stubbornly refusing to be the one to go lay in their room. Each wanted to sacrifice for the other.

"Who stays?" Bel'sian queried as she shifted her weight and lightly fluttered her wings in bafflement. "Is one of you... leaving?" she asked more hesitantly, looking to Bouradine to make certain her common was correct. He nodded in approval. Hearing a tall masculine humanoid with combat armor and a thick accent have an exchange with a haltingly fluent waifish feminine humanoid in a dirty smock was a bizarre spectacle to say the least.

"One will go to sleep," Yarue answered, "the other stays to watch," he added as he gestured to Rene, Solae, and the soldier as an afterthought. He knew how to follow orders- he just was not as invested in the marine as the humans obviously were. Years of mistreatment left a scar and helpless as she was, it was hard not to see her as a representative of the violently oppressive arm of the Stellar Empire.

"We can keep watch," Bouradine volunteered amicably. "I'll wake you up if anything happens with the duchess," he promised.

Dasin and Yarue stared at him. Besides each other the best at reading their facial expressions and body language was Solae, who had both studied the Syshin and whose profession focused on being able to facilitate communication, regardless of whether it was oral, written, or otherwise. 'Large' emotions were much easier to read than the subtler nuances of doubt, apprehension, or uneasiness. Their silence was what ultimately clued in the trader that they were not terribly enthusiastic about his proposition.

"I owe her my life," Bel'sian interjected. "We promise you that we will not leave until we talk." She didn't quite know how to articulate the rest. Eloquent as she was in the Kalderi language, she knew they would not understand a grand speech given in her native tongue.

"We accept," Dasin agreed before Yarue could object. "The computer will alert us when she wakes," he said. He wasn't quite comfortable with addressing Mia as casually as the humans were- not yet. Something about the fact she was a computer that had control of the vessel and spoke so oddly made him passively uncomfortable with the artificial entity.

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For over an hour the Bonaventure was quiet. Rosaria, after showering, had made herself scarce in her room while she tried to erase the trauma of being almost buried alive (not recognizing that by most criteria she actually had been). The male crewmen slumbered. Bouradine and Bel'sian chatted quietly, their hands intertwined as they whispered so as to not disturb anyone. Given the unpredictable weather outside they were content in the warmth and shelter of the spacecraft. During the respite Mia had guaranteed any natural disaster disturbance would trigger her emergency protocols and allow her to fly them to somewhere safe. She elected not to inform them that her auto-piloting was rudimentary and that the take off and landing would be quite rough; her code determined this was not data they needed to know.

Underneath the tinted panes of the medical capsule Solae began to stir. With the worst symptoms of her concussion alleviated she started to buoy back towards consciousness gradually. Laying on her back, no matter how high quality the cot, was not her preference, and when she started to try to twist to her side and was unable, it jerked her closer to being awake. Eyes moved underneath their lids, lashes flitting, until they ever so slowly opened. She inhaled quickly as the confines of the space started to make her panic. Her last memory had been in a pile of rubble with a wave of heavy sediment crashing down over top, drowning out light, closing her off from the world. To say that her pod was not an ideal environment for her psychologically was an understatement. "Let me out, let me out!" she hoarsely demanded as she pushed on one 'wall' with her hand. "Mia? Mia, I demand you let me out!"
Up until they had been enclosed in the sphere that offered them so much protection, Bel'sian had been coping remarkably well with the circumstances. Kalderi did not enjoy closed spaces. Their architecture reflected the inherent, arguably evolutionary preference for open areas, to the point they did not have fully solid portals in and out of building structures. For a species that was capable of flight it was a completely understandable preference. The cavern in which the trio had been trapped had started to make the alien somewhat claustrophobic, yet it was the even smaller confines of the raft, and its curved bottom that pressed the three together, that truly made panic rise in her throat. Before she had been able to close her eyes, stretch her legs, and utilize calming techniques to retain a sense of inner peace. Now that she was more cramped, it was impossible to ignore their predicament, or the fact the limbs attached to her back were unable to stretch comfortably. Never would she have guessed that been buried alive could have been preferable to anything else.

"Rene, can you put Bouradine on the communicator?" Rosaria asked in an even tone once she noticed the very obvious signs of Bel'sian beginning to lose her nerve. She didn't pretend to really know much about adult relationships, much less understand them, but she had witnessed the way that Solae and Rene interacted with each other. They seemed to know how to reassure each other better than she ever could, how to communicate better, how to relate to one another on a more intimate level. Since it was clear that Bouradine and Bel'sian were also a couple- something she was still trying to wrap her mind around- then it stood to reason that the most effective way to keep the winged woman from going postal was to have her lover talking her through this bizarre experience.

"What?" she heard the older male grunt, not unkindly, but because it was such an unexpected request and because he was busy, toiling under miserable conditions, and undoubtedly taxing his endurance with the labor necessary to enact his plan.

"I think Bel'sian really needs to talk to Bouradine," she repeated with emphasis in hopes she could diplomatically convey the mini crisis that was unfolding. There was a long pause, which she would later find out was Yarue volunteering his communicator, going to the ship to attach it to Bouradine, and returning back to his post. The delay was frustrating for all, but the strained tone in Rosaria's voice, as well as the fact she hadn't really made any other demands, ultimately made them yield.

The Syshin's stamina was not to be underestimated. Though the Stellar Empire's culture was unequivocally reprehensible subjugating them, it was cruelly accurate in its evaluation of their strengths, particularly their strength. Despite the enhancements that the nobility had, they could not measure against the physiology of the benevolent humanoids, who were mere generations from an existence where they had to rely on physical prowess to survive in a harsh world. Philosophers argued that the enslavement was partially due to the fact that humanity felt threatened by the Syshin's raw superiority in certain aspects (height, mass, musculature, and speed namely). To ensure they remained on top they had to dominate, using their technological advantage to maintain their status as the great, 'unrivaled' galactic force. Anyone who could divorce themselves from the wanton discrimination, however, could gleam their untapped potential. They were not as trained as the marines Rene could have had under his command, but in crucial moments where perseverance and literal might were imperative, they were perhaps better.

"All artists take their inspiration from the world around them, but it isn't all landscapes my love," Bouradine was telling Bel'sian over the open channel in a soothing voice. Everyone outside the veritable pit had seen he was beside himself with worry, but he managed to keep the fear out of his spoken words, focusing instead on giving his partner a focus and distraction.

"I don't know what you mean," Bel'sian replied in a more feeble tremor.

"They express themselves with color and shapes to convey a feeling," he explained. "I know right now you might feel terrible, but you can concentrate on what you are going through, the sensations, the emotions, and in a few minutes when you are free again you can put it on a blank canvas. You can make something beautiful from something that right now is awful. Artists say it heals their soul when they explore their memories with art."

"The canvases and the paints are..." Bel'sian murmured. She was softer now as the edge of hysteria left her tone, neither tranquil nor about to have an anxiety attack, somewhere in-between.

"Much more easily replaced than you, my love," Bouradine answered.

They had a light conversation back and forth, Rosaria leaning back in the bubble. She and Belsian were facing opposite directions with Solae between them, on their laps, to help keep her stable. The teenager kept her hand on the duchess's for tactile affirmation she had not grown cool to the touch and that her pulse could still be felt. Occasionally she, Rene, or Mia would provide an update on their ascent, but there was little to do but wait inside the flotation device. As immobile debris, rocks and small chunk of building, obstructed the path, the sludge had to be watered for several minutes until the pressure could build high enough to make the orb push through. More than once the three males on the hill of mud had to retreat a few steps to secure their footing, regroup, and restart their operation.

Approximately thirty-two minutes after they began they reached an impasse. A jut of thick rock that was connected to the remnants of the structure's floor prevented the pod from hitting the top of the foamy cavity. Cutting it with a tool would not help since anything sharp or hot enough to cut through the thick stone would also blast through the barrier of the escape capsule itself as well. They reversed the function of the hose and sucked the grime off the top of the container, until they could see the hull that needed to be breached, and Yarue and Dasin lowered Dasin so that he could stand on its surface. It was firmly enough wedged that it barely rocked when his feet hit the slippery outer shell. Bouradine came running with a portable stretcher from the Bonaventure since Mia had all but commanded him to keep her mistress from moving more than was absolutely necessary until she could be assessed.
Rhiane should have known and anticipated that as soon as they were inside the school that she would be disregarded; she just had not expected that the principal would be the exclusive focus of Luke's attention, that he would be drawn into discussions about educational funds or lack thereof, or that he would be completely invested in the finances of anything so far from the reaches of the capital. He showed such thinly-veiled contempt for commoners in private it was baffling that he would be concerned about these strangers whom he had little to no obligation towards and whose very presence irked him. Pleased as she was in his interest, she hated that he did not even so much as glance in her direction to remind himself she existed. Nolan, Tobias, and the rest of their security detail were trustworthy enough to make sure she didn't need him babysit her, but being ignored stung, especially when she was so conscious of him. The former farmer was beginning to understand why some preferred to be actively hated than disregarded.

When Pio addressed her she smiled. The heir to the throne could squander this rare opportunity in front of cameras and absorb himself in the details of monetary allocation; she would not, nor would she outwardly betray the illusion of a fantasy romance. "It's like being part of a new world," she replied honestly. Commenting on their relationship would be too tricky to tackle without outright lying. Unable to claim they were madly in love, that he was the prince on a white horse, or that he was better than his scandals made him out to be, she hoped there wouldn't be further prodding on intimate details. Fortunately, it would be improper enough for him to pry that even a school teacher would be reluctant to force a confession.

"Something for me?" she queried and turned to look. Rhiane was genuinely shocked by the small velvet box and his explanation of the pearls. Instantly she knew how jealous Luke would be if she accepted a trinket of affection from a friend that was a man and, though she hadn't made him aware, a past fling. Refusing was just as challenging. The press could turn towards them at any minute and broadcast what was transpiring. More importantly, she wanted to have a present, a bauble that represented that anyone outside of her familial ties thought of her fondly. "I don't know if I can, Pio," she whispered in a pained tone.

While the entourage was distracted, fixated on the principal that was walking slowly and gesturing to some hallway display cases that proved prestige in decades past, Pio gently took the princess elect's elbow and guided her to take a sharp turn down a deserted hallway before ducking into a similarly empty classroom. Rhiane could have pulled away with little effort if she wanted to- but she trusted him and welcomed the opportunity to get away from what had clearly become the royal hour with the eldest child of the queen. She was done fighting for the spotlight. If he wanted it so badly he could have it- and without the false pretense of this being a stop on their journey meant to highlight the woman from which the cameras had panned away.

"If I remember right, you love art, don't you?" Pio smiled broadly at her with unrestrained enthusiasm for being with her. It was such a foreign expression lately. The castle was filled with those that simmered and brooded over having a peasant in their midst, with the sole exception of Callie, who would be her sister-in-law if she went through with the engagement. All around her were paintings on the wall, cheap prints of classical and modern artists for inspiration, local award-winning pieces by alumni, bits and pieces from the teacher that had held a position at the school for over twenty years, but was hardly ever at her desk, preferring the adjacent courtyard for relaxation and inspiration. It smelled of paint, plaster, glue, and clay, a unique and marvelous aroma that instantly made the brunette feel at home. She wandered around the edges, admiring the professional and novice landscapes alight, her eyes drifting over every careful splatter or stroke with joyful wonder.

"We all miss you," Pio told her as he watched her, estimating how many minutes it would take Luke to notice she had gone missing. The art room was an excellent excuse to have 'accidentally' taken her alone elsewhere. Everyone who gave a damn knew she loved it, as it was no secret, and it would make it much less suspicious once they were found in this corner of the building. His highness might be angry that his 'pet' was stolen away temporarily but that was not Pio's problem. "You can always come back, you know. There's always more to paint here and we'd support you. Hell, you'd get a free beer every night for years." He was charming, friendly, considerate, and thoughtful, a gentleman when needed and devious when wanted.

"That's kind of you to say, but I'll be married soon, and will have a lot of responsibilities," Rhiane murmured off-handedly, stopping in front of a large abstract portrait of what just might have been herself. Bold lines and geometric shapes made the subject a mystery. Fascinated, she studied the flow of colors, trying to gleam the meaning behind the creator, and what they were trying to convey.

"Do you have time in your schedule to show us your painting skills at least?" Pio asked sweetly, as if he didn't have an angle he was working, and was merely excited to see her work.

"I haven't painted since the contest," she replied somberly, no longer trying to hide happiness when they were alone.

"He doesn't call you Rhi. We've all noticed," Pio said, meandering closer to her. "That's why we know that you aren't happy. If you were happy, and he loved you as much as he should, he'd call you Rhi. If you were happy, you'd be able paint. Tell me what to do to make you happy, Rhi, and I'll do my best to make it happen. You'll still be in town tonight, won't you? We can sneak out of our houses like when we were teenagers and talk about anything and everything, maybe have some fun like we used to," he added with a sparkle in his eye as he planted the box firmly into her hand. If Luke could have his not-so-clandestine affairs with beautiful starlets and noblewomen, there was no reason he couldn't be a respite for her, a little dalliance to help her remember who she was and what it could be like to lay with someone that would give her the adoration that she deserved.
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