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There was a part of Joseph that wanted to continue this debate with his master, but naturally, he knew better than to continue speaking after being dismissed. Outwardly, he merely bowed low, and responded with a soft, “Goodnight, Master Mois,” before exiting the cottage. But once he left, and began his trek back to the mansion, his mind was on fire, wishing he had been free to say more.

You misunderstood me, Master Mois. Both you and Master Alexi are very special, and if this insane secret plan of Master Alexi's succeeds, then perhaps the two of you will be remembered in history as the men who ended slavery, assuming his plan even allows for such recognition. In any case, I will not forget what you did, or even what you tried to do, for the magicals, regardless of history's opinion. But even without that, you have both been kind to me, allowed me freedoms and privileges that I never have deserved, and treated me with respect. I will not forget that either, long after both of you have passed.

And though I did not have time to say it, I wish you could know that I do trust you just as much as I do Master Alexi. If I have favored him in my servitude, it is merely because he has asked more of me, not because of any real preference. I don't care what your father decided about this estate; you are both my masters, and nothing can change that.
But of course, none of these things had been said to Master Mois, and when it came down to it, that was fine by Joseph. There had been enough heartfelt conversations in the past few days to last a lifetime.

When he reached the room he had been cleaning before, he changed his clothes to a less formal polo shirt and black pants, clothes that still looked dignified, but were a little more suited to the “dirty work.” Then he set to the calming task of polishing the wood furniture and the floors of the rooms in the northern wing. He thought about how Master Mois said that he stacked too much on his plate, but in reality he only did an average of 12 hours of work, 6 days a week. Vampires did not need as much sleep as humans did, and it was not as though he had a commute, so he found that the work was completely reasonable for him. Furthermore, there had been masters in the past which worked him more than that, and so he was accustomed to it.

Besides, he refused to make things easier on himself, for this too, was part of his punishment. Even now that his responsibilities were increased, he would not shoulder the work onto any of the other slaves. He deserved this servitude. They did not. The other slaves served roughly forty hour workweeks, and while several had seen what Joseph was doing to himself and asked to help, he had turned them down. The last time he had asked someone else to take the workload off of him was when he'd been severely injured while serving Tristan Vandros, Mois and Alexi's father, and had needed two days to mostly recover.

It was seven hours before he was finally finished, and so it was just about the break of dawn by the time he packed up the cleaning supplies, traveled to his room in the servant's quarters, showered, and fell asleep. Naturally, he set his alarm clock to awaken him in three and a half hours, so that he would be ready to take Master Alexi's blood at 9 AM.

~*~*~

Meanwhile, Erik finished an hour long bath, one of the longest he had taken in his life, and stepped out of the gigantic tub feeling remarkably content, given his situation. There was an assortment of huge towels and linens in the corner of the room, and Erik selected a fluffy terrycloth robe and a large towel. He had taken the vial of potion with him into the bathroom, for he had been afraid that it would somehow be switched out when he wasn't looking, and now he slipped it into the pocket of the robe.

If only my soldiers could see me now. I've traded my freedom for the comfort of a beautifully gilded cage. Do I really believe Alexi's promises, or did I just want to be free of the hunger and of the chains? Even after he gave me his blood, I knew that if I refused it would only be four days before I would be back to where I was before. Is that why I agreed to this? The former rebel leader wondered as he walked back into the bedroom with his slave clothes in hand. But as he thought back to that moment, he was able to reassure himself.

No. I truly couldn't stand to resist a plan that promised the freedom of my people. He promised me the thing I've watched people die for. Hell, it's only sheer luck that I'm still alive myself. I meant it when I said that I would spend the rest of my life as his slave, if he freed the rest of the world. One life for the lives of many, that's worth something, right? Still, I fear that if my followers saw me enjoying these luxuries, they would think me a traitor. But it does not matter how they see me, only if Alexi's eccentric plan is both real and successful.

Besides, I've already lost their trust. I led them headlong into a trap, got myself and most of those with me captured. They'll think I've been hard broken, even if that's not what this potion even does. Even I I were allowed to leave here, they would never let me lead them again, and rightly so. I've lost that privilege. I've been cell Leader for fifty years, but it's meaningless now. I cannot face them, much less lead them.

However, once again, I must remind myself that it does not matter. This is not about my glory or leadership, and I should not let my own arrogance into this. If somehow this madman's plan works and ends this nightmare, then that's what matters, not my damn ego.


With distaste, he changed back into the slave robe, hung the bathrobe, pocketed the stupid vial, filled himself a glass of cold water, and began to read one of the books he'd selected, in an attempt to distract himself from his own disturbing thoughts.
Aaand nevermind. Its written but I cant send it today. Without getting into details, real Li problems have stopp stopped me from being able to.
Well, prepare to love me because I just finished a thousand word post for you that you'll get in like 12-14 hrs. Very much a transition post, but I got carried away with Erik and Joseph's thoughts. Yay angsty mental rants!
Just a quick update. I just moved so ive been super busy. there's is a problem with the internet that means we wont have it for like two weeks. However, I'm leaving to visit my lovely SO in a week, so ill habe internet then, though I'm not sure on time. There are some museums I want to check out while I'm there.

Long story short, I'm reading from my phone and typing up a pos on my laptop. so I'm going to a friend's house to submit 2-3ish posts today (Thursday). Working on writing yours now.
Fair enough, thanks for the commentary. Good to know you are still alive, and I hope you feel better!
Yay! A Post! And a reply! Wooooo!
Joseph listened patiently to Master Mois' words, never willing to interrupt, even if he did not completely agree with the elder brother's assessment. Though it was meant as a compliment, he was rather disturbed by it, for he was already disillusioned by the fact that his belief in Alexi appeared so blind to the outside observer. But he would not have even defended himself, if Master Mois had not directly requested an answer of him. He hated expressing disagreement with his masters, but he despised lying to them even more.

“You are correct in most of your assessment, Master Mois. Should he allow it, I would follow Master Alexi to the ends of the Earth, even if slavery ended this very moment. But that is not wholly because of my faith in him, I'll come to that in a moment. It is because this life, the near complete devastation of my freewill, is my punishment for the crimes of my youth. I tormented humans because of cruel and outdated beliefs, and so I will serve human masters until the day I die. That is the way of things.” Joseph began, looking towards the low light of the fireplace.

“But I served your father with very near the same fervency that I now serve Master Alexi, except for one thing. I will not harm another sentient being, no matter how much agony the 'soft'-breaking causes me, for I will not have others punished for my sins. The only exception is if not following the command would make things worse for the victim. When I spanked you and your brother as a child, it was because I knew that if I refused, your father would be much more painful than I was. I agreed to help Master Alexi torment that man, because what I was really doing was providing Leader Schumann some modicum of comfort. Even then, it hurt me so badly that I nearly -” Joseph quickly cut himself off, unwilling to continue that particular thought. After a moment, he simply began again, refusing to acknowledge the near confession.

“All of that being said, I do trust Master Alexi. I trust him in a way that I have trusted few other Vandros masters, because I have watched and served him for his entire life, and I know his heart to be in the right place. It is not as obvious, but I trust you in the same way, Master Mois. But even so, my faith is neither blind, nor absolute. I evaluate his orders under the same scrutiny that I evaluated those of any other master, and the vast majority of the time, I choose to follow them because I find them either harmless, or worthwhile. Unless it is a question of harming another, then my own opinion, my own will, my own life, doesn't matter. I must confess, I am taking liberties even allowing that as a consideration in my station, but that is how my mind works, and I cannot alter it, anymore than you or Master Alexi could alter your minds.” With that conclusion, Joseph bowed respectfully again, silently hoping that he had not spoken too much or too out of turn before the elder brother. He rarely mentioned the matter of his penance to any master, but these were troubling times.
Joseph grimaced, and looked towards Master Mois, though he could not meet his eyes.

If he trusted me, he would have told me what the potion really was. If he trusted me, then he would tell me what he intends to do with Leader Schumann instead of leaving it in the dark. I have followed every command and request he has given me since he's come of age, and he still does not trust me, not really, Joseph thought, just a touch of resentment in his head. He had no choice but to trust the human completely, unquestioningly, and it would have been nice to receive the same. But he was only a slave after all, and he knew that it was wrong for him to feel such things. It was the function of a slave to give of themselves completely, and to expect nothing in return. That Master Alexi did love and care for him, and that he trusted him at least slightly, should have been enough for Joseph, and he knew that. But his words primarily focused on Master Mois' emotions.

“First of all, Master Alexi does not trust me, not really. As you've pointed out, he's told you parts of the plan that he has not told me. Secondly, trust should not come from giving into another person's will or constantly doing what they ask of you. If it were even true that he did not trust you because you do not follow his every whim and request, then that would be his failing, not yours. But really, I think he trusts you as much as he is capable of trusting anyone.”

The vampire servant wished more than anything that Master Alexi would see what his secrecy was doing to Master Mois. Even if he was going to make Joseph tear his hair out, it was far worse to do that to your own brother than to a slave.
Alright, if Joseph isn't supposed to know, then I'm ok not knowing. I sort of figured he was supposed to, and that seemed a gap in my knowledge versus the character's.
That makes sense... now I just have to figure out how Joseph should interpret it. :-)

Oh! I've been meaning to ask you, what happened between Mois and their parents?
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