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Alright. Goodnight! :-)
Nah, I found it funny. Unless he was sure that Alexi was being facetious, Joseph would probably be terrified that he had overstepped his bounds and beg for forgiveness. I'm no where near that submissive. :-P

Yay! A reply!

And I just finished the most well-written book I've read in a long time... the last 1/5th of it had me sobbing.
So, I know my post was super short. And I'm really sorry about that... it's just I wanted to put down SOMETHING to get back into it.

I realize some of the problems I'm having with this one... It's been a long time since I was bullied and it's not really something I like to think about much, but even then that was middle school and not so much in high school. Also, it's been 4 years since I was in high school as well... so it's merging middle school and high school experiences while trying to imagine what that would be like in a Gattaca-like setting, and I don't know... it's just posing problems for me.

But in any case, I posted. I'm totally up for continuing it, but I can't guarantee anything about quality. I'm just having troubles with the whole story, though I liked the idea. I'm really sorry. Anyway, if you want to quit that one because my posts aren't up to spec, I understand. Otherwise, I'll muddle through and work on improving.
For Ethan, it had been another boring and trying day. He wondered why he still bothered to attend school, honestly. Most of the jobs he could get would not require a high school education, and he already knew most of what was being taught. He was that kid who hardly seemed to pay attention but did well on tests. It was just that the work in half his classes did not interest him. He wound up getting very good grades in the classes he cared about, and scraping Cs in the ones that did not pique his intellect, usually courses involving timed writing, to be honest.

But on this one day, he left the school without anyone following him. His usual tormentors were busy talking with each other, and they were fine with ignoring him. For Ethan's part, he saw no need to change this little reprieve.

He started his usual walk, feeling calm and thinking about the work he wanted to do tonight, when he caught a cat out of the corner of his eye. The feline looked familiar and he paused for a second.

No, I'm just seeing that thing everywhere because of yesterday. This couldn't be that. I still don't even know what happened.
Joseph merely watched as the pair spoke, waiting until he could escort Master Alexi down to breakfast. He had honestly not known what to expect from this strange “Bonding” potion. His own Binding had been less emotional in the beginning, as the main feeling had been relief from the pain of bloodlust. It had merely begun to depress him and deaden his emotions and his will as time had gone on. There was a portion of him that was almost envious of Erik now, for the idea of feeling Master Alexi's thoughts and emotions was appealing to him in a way. He wonder if doing so would perhaps allow him to understand his dear master better. But alas, he was not the one granted the privilege of peering into the enigmatic Master Alexi Vandros' mind.

Meanwhile, Erik was slowly beginning to come back into some form of rational thought, though he still found it difficult to wipe the silly grin off of his face. In their more muted state, he just felt content, loved, and confident. He was not even terribly embarrassed at having hugged Joseph and Alexi, and replied to the latter now.

“I am sorry that my emotions are still causing you discomfort. That is strange to hear, because I do not find them anywhere near that painful. They are simply my reality. It was actually rather jarring to see their effect on you,” the former rebel leader replied truthfully. He simply felt pleasant now. It was as though he just loved the presence of everyone in the room. There was even a small part of him that wanted to take the next dose soon, just to feel that complete love and contentment again. “How long will it be before we have to take the next dose of it?” he asked curiously.

The truth was, there were several more questions that he wanted to ask Alexi about these emotions, about this strange adoration. He at least knew that part was honest now. But he also knew that Alexi needed to get downstairs to see his brother. No one would want to know that their kin was in the same room with him. He was a terrorist after all. And he would never want anyone to lose their job. It is important to note that he still had no idea that Mois Vandros was the one who had fired the tranq dart that had captured him, that had led the spring for the trap he had fallen into. Without that knowledge, he only felt a mild sympathy for the poor man who had to deal with this eccentric billionaire for a brother.

Perhaps when Alexi returned, the former rebel would be more open to asking him about his life, and about these strange emotions he felt. Perhaps, in time, he could even begin to trust him.
I screwed it up, but don't change it. It's funnier if he did kiss him.

Oh, and I would hardly say that Joseph "orders" Alexi. I try to write it as non-verbal looks, or in this case, it was an assertion and an offer to escort him. Joseph would never dare give his master an "order." :-P That would be completely inappropriate for someone of his station (yadda yadda yadda.)

And Alexi is still totally in charge. I did find that funny though.
Heehee... I was hoping you would enjoy that. :-P
Okay, edited. I hope you approve. I was afraid I went too far in the severity of the emotions, but I was trying to say that they come out as stronger for Erik because they are just so different from what his brain has been feeling. That's why I had them "normalize" to closer to Alexi's actual levels after just three minutes. Hopefully that works.

To be honest, I mainly did it because I just loved the visual of Erik doing something so out of character as hugging Alexi and Joseph. :-P

Oh, and I'm glad you thought Joseph's little monologue was cute. :-)
So... pretty much the opposite of the way he actually feels right now.

Erik used to be very confident... outwardly. Basically, even after fifty years, he's not terribly confident, because every day he lives with the fact that the wrong decision can kill people, and sometimes has. That thought keeps him awake at night. But by the same token, he's very good at faking it, and sometimes even almost tricking himself, because a leader doesn't get to second guess himself.

Anyway, working on editing now. :-)
Joseph stood calmly beside his master and picked up the first aid kit that had been left in the room. He wished he could wait a day or two on extracting the human's blood, so as not to weaken him further. But unfortunately, he knew that it was important not to delay Master Alexi's Master Plan any more. Recognizing Master Mois' texting tone, he quickly took out the phone and read it to the younger brother verbatim.

“Your elder brother says, 'Please tell Alexi I'm not leaving for work until I've seen him, so it will be his fault if I'm late. Thanks.' So, I will escort you downstairs for breakfast when we are finished here,” he declared as he assembled the syringe. “You will need a decent meal after this anyway.”

And may I add that it is really pathetic that your own brother has to text ME just to get you to actually communicate with him, you bloody madman. Why must you be so damned admirable, so damn idealistic, but so bloody oblivious to those around you? This would have been much less painful for me if you had told me that the potion would not break him, if you had explained why you needed him. But this is not about me. Goddamnit, I'm not going to just watch you push Master Mois into an early grave. The least you can do is share a meal with him. Don't you know how worried it's making him that you would share your bedroom with a criminal? Don't you even care? Goddamnit, I am so broken that I would follow you to the ends of the Earth even if I despised you. But I love you. I love you both dearly; you are the closest I've ever had to sons. And the worst part is, I have no right to even think this, any of this! This is not my function. What is wrong with me?! Sometimes I think things were easier back when I was little more than an automaton. No bloody emotions to worry about, nothing but blind loyalty, following instructions, and doing my chores.

As usual, his outward actions did nothing to mirror his internal monologue as he carefully extracted the exact amount of blood that the potion needed to work, for he was unwilling to deprive Master Alexi of any more than was absolutely necessary. Erik strode over to watch, his face also passive. With a slight gulp, he handed Joseph the potion, and watched as the elder vampire mixed the serum together in a tall glass. With an unintentionally grave look, Joseph carefully handed the glass to Erik.

There was a minor bit of hesitation on the rebel leader's part, the last lingering bits of doubt. He thought to himself, Well, I already made the decision. A commanding officer does not have time to doubt his decisions. You make them and you live with them. And … and I am sure... well goddamnit, I hope to God this is the right one.

“Cheers,” was all he muttered, however, even managing to flash a tiny grin at Alexi before downing the entire glass in one draught.

Erik's first response was merely the normal soothing effects of human blood on his system. It had not been so long that he needed to feed, but it was long enough that his body wanted blood if possible. But it was only about a minute before the effects of the potion began to work. The emotions were... confusing, to say the least. Erik had steeled himself for pain, the same pain he had seen in Alexi's eyes. But this was... pleasant. He felt warm, and a smile was forming on his lips without his fully even being aware of it. He was admired, respected, adored... He was loved.

The emotions were directed towards himself, though he still knew they came from Alexi. And yet, he felt them towards everyone else. On complete impulse, he turned to Joseph, who had just wrapped the syringe to properly dispose of it in a few minutes, and gave him a bear hug, kissing him firmly on the forehead. Then he turned and hugged Alexi the same way, and left the kiss on the cheek this time. After days of battling self-hatred, pain, a severe case of cabin fever, and the beginnings of insanity, this felt amazing. He was so... so very confident that he could do anything. He could absolutely take down an entire governmental system and change things for the magicals. And he would do it himself, in his lifetime, dangit!

But the initial “shock” of the new emotions, as his brain and body adjusted to the influx, was over in less than three minutes, and Erik found that Alexi's emotions were much more muted than all of that. He still felt wonderful, but it was more like a warm and fuzzy blanket of love and confidence than anything else. He was still grinning widely though, when he finally spoke.

“I'm sorry guys. I have no clue why I just did that. I guess I was getting adjusted. It's very difficult to sort all of this out. I still have no clue what I'm feeling. It's so very different than my normal reality, and it's nothing like what I imagined after seeing what happened to you,” he admitted, looking to both the vampire and the human before him.
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