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No one wants to know
If their straight and narrow swayed;
If they have ever been unmade;
That we are not of stone,
That what we carve is sure to fade...

Bathroom stall poetry. No author. I asked my phone about it, just out of curiosity, but she didn't know. Cute, I guess, but maybe not the best inspiration for an entertainer. Forever is kind of my patron saint, you know? Fame is definitely an orthodox religion, we pray for intercession, we try not to look God in the eye. Except in mirrors, where we're hypnotized, but you can't help that. God needs his stage makeup like everybody else. Cameras aren't big on reverence.

It was opening night at the Corpus Coliseum.


The screams rolled through the open space, slamming and slicing into each other, a frenzy of sound and passion ready to exalt or to annihilate. Martin waited in the wings, looking out over the crowd. All those faces, so hungry to be happy. His expression would have been strange to anyone looking, it wasn't excitement, it wasn't anxiety, or boredom, or contempt, or pride. Martin's face was a mask of pain, and beneath the mask was just more of the same. But no one was looking; that was the point. In moments like that one, buried in the blue breath of a fog machine and gazing out into a sea of expectant eyes, Martin was invisible, intangible, an absence stretched between the past and the future. Between backstage and center, there was nothing, as far as anyone knew; Martin himself was not self-aware.

He couldn't have said what it was that ached so fiercely during that time. Self-awareness was a tenet of his faith, one among many narcissistic oblations, and as a purveyor of mystery - magic being the popular misnomer - he had few mysteries himself, but those moments were exceptional, unknowable. Maybe the shape of that pain eluded him because it was too fast, transfixing him in a single soul-shivering motion that didn't slow as it passed through his conscious experience. The prestidigitation of a superior magician.

"You're overcomplicating things, kid."

Flash

The light shattered his trance, brought him into being, and then he was dashing through the blue fog, mounting the central altar he'd had set up upon the stage, and the roar of the crowd and his heartbeat became one great paean as he leapt up into clear view, arms spread and white teeth gleaming. The announcer was introducing him - his better half, anyway. The Magnificent Me. The Me that I could be, if only I didn't have to be me. Lowercase, unremarkable, recursively self-absorbed... An unproductive line of thinking, but his opening routine was too well-rehearsed, too familiar to distract him from thinking about it. The he he had to be.

"You're just thinking, thinking, thinking...like all the world's red and raw could fit inside your bursting brain."

Flash

Colors burst across the stage, a line of performance fireworks designed to mislead and dazzle as he moved from point to point. He drew three rabbits from three hats simultaneously - each a different color - and set them loose on the stage. Actually he drew only one of the rabbits, the white, and a pair of mirrored arrays replicated and shaded her to match her cousins' brown and grey coats. The timing was delicate, like a phone call to someone you were leaving behind.

"But pain doesn't fit. Couldn't. Pain isn't a thought, it's a feeling. You can't order it the same way."

Flash

She was in the audience, Anna's friend. Not having the best night herself, judging by the distance between her and her paramour, her crossed arms. She smiled up at him, unknowing that his eyes had found her through his fantastic mask, but there was sadness caught in the curve of her lips. Not just her date. Had something happened? Martin missed his catch, improvised a recovery. The audience murmured. Oh, fuck this.

"You're addicted to it. To order."

Flash

Back in the apartment, years ago. Anna called him a child playing dress-up. She'd been passed over at work, come home to find him working on his latest trick. She'd broken part of it and stormed out. Martin stayed up all night, but she never came home.

"So you try anyway. Adding pressure to pressure."

Flash

Half a hundred phones on camera, you better believe not everyone turned their flash off. It drove him crazy, threw off his timing - that was his favorite excuse. The truth was the timing didn't much matter, not as he moved into the second act. His tricks were too mechanical, too complicated, you couldn't follow it all, couldn't appreciate it, and in this half of the show the Magnificent Marovio evanesced into little more than light and shadow. The suggestion of a magician, like the suggestion of a family, like the suggestion of a morning mist - never materializing. Beneath consideration. Unimportant.

"You have to let the bad blood out, kid. You have to make a mess."

Flash

Jake and Ally, thick as thieves, like when they were kids - the same guilty eyes unwilling to meet. Everything seemed the same, except that time had stolen away their innocence and their childhood invulnerability, and so mischief had become trouble, and so mistakes became damage. It was Christmas, and they didn't want to talk about the personal things. So nobody talked at all, and love lay crucified by the silence, unavoidable and inexpressible, a ruined gift beneath the tree.

"Stop trying to think of everything, kid. Give your brain a rest."

Flash

It loomed over the stage, the incarnation of nightmare. It was all smile, all Smile, and when it moved Martin saw how it broke the rules around it, how it stretched in ways a body couldn't, shouldn't, must not. Blue fog rose over the stage, threaded by something darker, and driven by primal instinct Martin kicked off the end-stretch lightshow early. He disappeared into silhouette, small beside the monster, and now the crowd's murmur was interested. Anna's friend had spilled her drink across her date's lap, who was cursing, which she would neither hear nor remember. She was on her feet as Martin lost his, and Smile leaned down to offer him something. Something dripping. Something beating.

"Why don't you just...have a heart?"

Flash

"Fuck!" Martin snapped awake, gasping, eyes wild. Images crashed into him, a waterfall from nowhere, as he tried to place himself in space and time. Am I...

The room was white.

Halogen light beat down on him, beat him down. There wasn't much to see, just an empty cell, panels set into the walls and ceilings behind which all the interesting terrible glittering instruments of science coiled like sleeping serpents, a drain in the floor, a cot, a bathroom. The room was divided in half by a polycarbonate shield, beyond which were one-way windows for observation, one end of the airlock into the cell. There was no one there now, nor had there been since Martin's arrival. Nothing to break up the monotony - except the hazard strobe, which was flashing now. What...happened?

Scenes from the nightmare offered him answers, a few, those that he could bear. Smile. The heart. An exploding web of viscera and burrowing claws. The unit of...paramilitary, special forces? Armored people with guns. Martin remembered feeling electricity arc through his body, choking on gas, trying to say...something, anything. Stop. Wait. Help me.

I'm not sick.


Was he? Martin looked down at shaking hands, and something seemed to - there. Shit. What the fuck? Shit! His hand was melting, running together, the flesh sliding back from a newborn spike of alien bone...

The airlock door hissed. Martin's head snapped up and he half-crawled, half-lunged across the laboratory cell to impact the shield, pressing his face and hands - human hands - up against the transparent polymer. "Hey. Hey! I'm in here! What the fuck is happening to me?!"
I'm pretty sure that if you could pull me out of this game, they'd have to make you the King of England.
Tristan watched the newcomers with divided eyes, his stance uncertain but active. His instinct was to follow Tabitha, but...whatever she was talking about with the kid, there was a connection there, one his cyborg form might endanger. And she was armed, and she had always taken care of herself, had done so before he met her. She didn't need a guard dog. He didn't need a collar. Plus talk had been kind of heavy recently.

A little space might not go amiss.

Still, the village disturbed him, for reasons it wasn't too hard to identify. Free food and drink, the idyll environment, the smiles...maybe without the masks, or the deaths, or the Ghost Girl, he could have been sold on this image of a witchless Narnia. But the scream in his Semblance was a context impossible to ignore. This other world was not an idyll. There were dangers here, and too much they didn't understand.

So knowledge was power. So Tristan sought empowerment. Zino Bertram. A late arrival? Are you part of her plan?

"The Ghost Girl of Lightbridge," he said quietly, "Was a mystery and an urban legend when she first started to appear. She lured...well, maybe. She's not exactly transparent-"

He paused.

"Sorry. Not a ghost joke. Anyway, she started showing up and people started dying. They stepped onto subway tracks and were killed by the train. Rumor was those people died trying to help her, but that's rumor, you know. Posthumous. She...gathered us. All of us together. When she brought us to the subway, it was-"

Another pause. Tristan was vaguely conscious of the acceleration of various processes, faster breathing, pistons shifting gears. She made that fucking ringing noise with her mouth, that night in my office. She did things, said things...nobody's sure of her, but in aggregate...no. She isn't safe. She isn't an ally. A mistress, maybe. But if there's anything about her that's true, it's that she is a dead thing in important senses. If there's anything about her I know is a lie, it's the implication of her humanity.

"-she made us offers. None of it made a lot of sense. I can't tell you why...most of us stepped onto the tracks, which is what she asked us to do. That and hold onto the masks. Some of us put them on. I guess you can tell," said Tristan, one hand gesturing to himself, his pentacle of eyes always tracking. "I don't think the mask is there anymore. At least, I don't feel like I'm wearing a mask, this is just...my face, now. I guess.

Anyway, most of us stepped onto the tracks. There was some, uh, excitement...the guy in the cocoon, he rushed Officer Keahi, back in the station. We're not really clear on why. I think he's just...that way. But the Ghost Girl wanted him, I guess. Wanted you too. And if you haven't figured it out already, that looks like it's probably a rigged game. You'll get the truth, maybe, but it's the truth about the mystery that she created, centered around your personal tragedy, which probably she arranged that too. You've been murdered and...reassembled, you said? all at her behest. When we got here, she said she wanted 'blades.' So far our free will hasn't actually been curtailed, but...you know, I think that's more about the cleverness of the strings she's drawing us along with than their absence.

For example, here are the first other living things we've found, and there's something wrong with these people, Mr. Bertram. With this place. I don't know if these folks were here before the Magician, or how long HE was here, or - what the fuck is anything, really. But I do know it's more than a little fucked up that these folks are in no shape to communicate to us anything at all about this world, its rules, its powers. Anything she hasn't approved for us to know. Anything that might be introduced in a context outside the one she has planned for it."


Tristan looked around at the others, a process that required less head movement than it might have once entailed. There were dichotomies forming, and alliances, and he wanted to see who was nodding along, who wasn't. Part of that was an old mentality and part of that was a new and alien paranoia. But we don't know anything about each other, and suddenly it occurs to me that even if we ask...who's to say who's telling the truth?

Suddenly he wished he'd gone after Tabitha after all. Standing together among the others, in the middle of a smiling crowd, on the eve of some great festival - more even than the dark of his office after-hours, Tristan felt very alone.


Tristan's gaze roamed over the town, snapping nervously to wherever townsfolk roamed outside, though it was the buildings he really wanted to look at. I guess I'm into architecture now. It was strange that it didn't feel strange. He wondered what other alterations the mask had made, and if it was done with its work, but the anxiety that line of thinking generated eventually pulled the whole string out into the encircling ocean of fear that had been the first, most immediate internal change his Semblance had levied. Its defining emotion.

Silverbrook's defining emotion seemed to be happiness. Though seeming isn't always being. He shared the reservations of the group; they were half a collection of unnatural things wandering down the road, invoking no alarm, no guardedness. Maybe this is normal here. Maybe I'm thinking about it the wrong way. But we're still strangers...

He touched the elegant gun at his side. If he had had a face, he would have frowned. He settled for a slow movement of his head, eyes drifting over the group, making sure everyone was still there. Counting the Ghost Girl's uncertain sheep to lull his mind to ease. No way but forward. Which wasn't true, of course. They could all wander as they liked, except perhaps for Oedipus. But if they did, the world would open into chaos. A memory flickered.

Edge of Lightbridge. Reading Lance's last text. The seawall, the sea... He'd felt so bound up in destiny back then, so chained to the world. All the things that had kept him grounded had been cut away like blindfolds or curtains, and he could see so clearly that he was just someone else's dream, an actor with nothing waiting offstage. And I thought, I could jump. Not to die, just...to leave. To swim out until I couldn't see the city. But he would have died. It didn't work that way. The edges of the map were boundaries, like pain, like fate. So he hadn't jumped, and he hadn't gone swimming since.

Now Tristan was drowning on dry land, fear encircling his little bubble of clarity and consciousness. It had occurred to him that if that bubble popped he'd probably go insane. His first reaction to the Semblance - if I hear that scream - was not unjustified, he suspected.

But Silverbrook beckoned, and if he ever wanted to get home...his heart panged at the thought of Rani and Lane. They had to find a way. So. No way but forward. They needed so many things. A center. Information. And...

...yeah, I'm hungry. I guess that didn't go anywhere.

While he was working that over in his mind, he voiced a subsidiary thought to the others. "Uh, I can grow food, I think. Given time. It...might be kind of intense, but if they're not willing to feed us..." He would have frowned again, settled for the eye thing again. He'd just thought of something.

Fuck, how do I eat?
Tristan startled as Tabitha hugged him. Appearances suggested an experience of immutable metal, but he wasn't; immutable, anyway. Plates gave way against pressure, and soft coils of wire and repurposed flesh beneath them added little more than the usual reinforcement of a fully organic body. As she drew away, he ran a hand over his head. It was perhaps the most human gesture he'd yet evinced. Listening to her, he laughed - or produced the sound - and it was almost his laugh,

"Who else would I...thank you. I guess I'm a little scared -"

That ocean knows no boundaries, submits to no human cartography. Even the sky is drowning.

"-myself. But less so, now. You're right. We can't lose focus. Our friends are waiting. And...I'm sorry too,
Tabitha. I could have been kinder. I told myself it wasn't my business, but really I didn't think anything was my business. Except business. It's no way to live. Pain IS a boundary, but not one that ought be left long unbreached. I could have been kinder to you."


Tristan paused to take in the sight of Anni flying past them, her face a setting-sun counterpoint to the pale-winged boy she'd left behind. Again? He hadn't been paying close enough attention; he could only assume. He sighed, or affected to sigh, and made a gesture towards the event that almost seemed to hold a smile. "Not that every boundary needs crossing, eh?"

He laughed again, and then stopped, his tone returning to an intensity-edged neutrality. "This moment pays for the rest, Tabitha. A prelude to the one where we go home again, and get to tell Lane and Rani we're back.

Nobody's getting left behind."
Thanks for being patient with all this! I'm really looking forward to exploring the world and the Miasma!

Also, as a general question. Do you guys plan to play solely one Character, or do you mind juggling multiple?


Also looking forward to this exploration!

I'd generally rather play one character, but I don't mind writing additional minor characters to drive narrative or expand the world.

I did once play a game where the website architecture was such that character accounts were sort of like puppets your master account invisibly manipulated, and the GM misinterpreted my interest in having a sorcerous familiar as "here you go, here's a second character account," and it ended up being really fun playing that role as well, so I'm at least open to giving it a shot if we end up short-handed!
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  • Have you ever been stumbling helplessly around the setting of Resident Evil with your battle-tank movement controls, and some huge, fluid horror of undead flesh and ill intent comes bursting out of the scenery with flawless scripted precision and you thought to yourself, heck, why aren't I playing that guy? This game is probably for you.
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