Moving day is Monday. Everything needs to be packed by tomorrow to take to Jero's. This means I'm scrambling around my room trying to pack.

I eventually get to my little fireplace where all of my pictures, jewelry, and knickknacks are and I stop.

I am actually doing this. I am leaving my family and going four hours away into a town that I know nothing about. The only people I know who will be there is my sister and Jero. That's it. I'm terrified. I am so bloody terrified. No more random visits from my grandparents or uncle. No more, "You hungry? Let's go out to eat at the Catfish Cabin." No more, "Hey, I'm going to go see Grandmother. I'll be back in a bit." No more, "Want to go hunting with me tomorrow?"

No more of that. It's gone. And it feels like it's snuck up on me. I've been working so much that I am finally able to settle down and visit family... and I have no more time. An important person in my life is in bad shape, health-wise and probably won't make it to see 2015. And here I am moving. After finally reconciling with her, I am going to be leaving.

Hell, I am even already missing my pets so terribly that I've been petting my dog's head for what feels like hours every night I come in. I've been cuddling the barn cat (my baby, basically) even though it messes with my allergies to the point of being sick. This is killing me.

This is what I need. This is what I want. But this is still my first time actually moving out on my own. What I have known for close to 22 years is ending on Monday... I know, I am being a baby right now. I know most of you are thinking I should get over it. I will get over it eventually. It won't take me long. I'll call everyone and probably talk to family more now than I am use to. But that doesn't mean I'm not scared.

It's okay to be scared when moving, honestly its weirder to not be scared.

Lady Squee said
I know, I am being a baby right now. I know most of you are thinking I should get over it. I will get over it eventually. It won't take me long. I'll call everyone and probably talk to family more now than I am use to. But that doesn't mean I'm not scared.

"You shouldn't feel human emotions"

I'm just gonna call that idea dumb :D

Azarthes said
"You shouldn't feel human emotions" I'm just gonna call that idea dumb :D

...

Aza, do you realize what you have done?

Azarthes said
"You shouldn't feel human emotions" I'm just gonna call that idea dumb :D

unless, of course, one is a sociopath.

Things will work out, Squeeky. It's okay to be nervous, you'll get used to it in time.

You'll have to talk to Bea more about that, though, because I'm kinda fucked in the head when it comes to the "normal emotions" department xD

Lady Squee said
...Aza, do you realize what you have done?

>.> Too late.

Lady Squee said
...Aza, do you realize what you have done?

No
This post goes miles above my head.

Azarthes said
NoThis post goes miles above my head.

You have subjected to my power.

You were the only one who suppressed my power.

See you soon
-AntiChrist

But no, in all seriousness. Thank you for the kind words. Ranting helps me. Specially when I'm at that breaking-point. Sorry to subject you all to it, but it ultimately helps. Along with feedback.

Lady Squee said
You have subjected to my power.You were the only one who suppressed my power. See you soon-AntiChristBut no, in all seriousness. Thank you for the kind words. Ranting helps me. Specially when I'm at that breaking-point. Sorry to subject you all to it, but it ultimately helps. Along with feedback.

...
Do I get medical benefits?

Lady Squee said -snip-

I don't really have actual helpful advice for you this time Squee. I've just went through all the same emotions since I moved out a few weeks ago to WA because I wanted a better life. It is hard and it did hit me in the last minute just like you. So I know where you're going and I understand. Just love your pets and say all the goodbyes you need too and enjoy the time you have before you leave so you hold that good memory of home. You're on a new adventure and I congratulate you Squee. Have fun in your new home Squee, I know in the end you'll do good. ^_^

Sophistikit said

Holy fuck it's an egg.

As someone who moved 3500 kilometers, 3 provinces, and two time zones, I know exactly what you're giving up.

Trust me. It gets easier, and you are moving to traverse into the next stage of your life. In the end, it's worth it. And 4 hours isn't so bad. You can still make weekend trips back home. Don't feel like you're giving up everything. You're just changing the frequency.

Dervish said
As someone who moved 3500 kilometers, 3 provinces, and two time zones, I know exactly what you're giving up.Trust me. It gets easier, and you are moving to traverse into the next stage of your life. In the end, it's worth it. And 4 hours isn't so bad. You can still make weekend trips back home. Don't feel like you're giving up everything. You're just changing the frequency.

That is an excellent way to look at this.
Thanks

As someone (like Dervish) who has moved numerous times, my latest from Michigan all the way to Texas; Remember if it ever becomes too much, you can always give your family a call or just drive right on back for a visit. You're not losing anything, you're just moving a bit farther away from it. The Catfish Cabin will still be there when you get back, and your pets will be too