Holy shit.

So today was, on average, fucking awful. For reasons I'm sure you can understand, I do not like spending time with someone who thinks that my (hidden from him) feelings are worthy of me going to hell / worth being mentally broken into giving up / straight up approached with violence.

My little brother, who has openly shared similar feelings to my dad has been visiting. You can imagine how this colours my feelings about him as well.

Well dad decided he wants to go to the tech museum place with my lil brother and everyone. A museum that we've been told many times isn't worth it / is mostly exhibits for children. I said I didn't want to go, and then mom guilted me into doing it (comparing me not going ruining family time just like dad getting into random horrible arguments as ruining family time, BLEH). So I went.

Apparently everything there was horrible leftist propaganda. The IMAX movie on aquatic life in the south pacific, which touted such ideas as "Hey, maybe fishing something to extinction is a bad idea" and "maybe we shouldn't blow up the coral reefs" and "maybe other cultures can be cool" was apparently 'brainwashing for children'. As were all the other exhibits, things that talked about evolution, space, and music. The music stuff wasn't labelled propaganda, my dad just insisted he could do everything that they did but super better.

Lil brother wasn't bad, he was just a bit annoying as he does sometimes. There was some game with marbles that we don't think was supposed to be done competitively, but we did and played to a draw. In that he was about to win and I prevented him from moving by holding my side locked in place despite that not letting me get closer to winning because NOOOooooo

Erm, anyway. He totally actually won, but don't tell him that.

So we got home, dad got drunk, and then started to insult all of us, and talk more about how the left is evil while shouting at us to play games, then insulting the games we play, and also berating us. Gets to the point where I just can't even handle it any more and LITERALLY sneak away and hide until he decides that after his idea of us all going to a bar to get more booze (lil brother can't legally drink...) was shot down, he'd just go get a huge tub of ice cream to eat by himself.

Not kidding.

So I come out of hiding, and lil brother finds me and sees if I still wanna play, I say I'm not feeling good trying to pretend to be sick, but long story short instead I somehow end up coming out of the closet as I just can't contain sharing right fucking then and now why I think dad is such a piece of shit. In retrospect, if I was any more stable, I wouldn't have told him, for reasons of him parroting those views as far as I could see.

Turns out that it's not so much as parroting, as just echoing it so he doesn't have to deal with dad. He's not LGBT himself, but he's in favour of it, even showing me his twitter as proof. A twitter he hides from dad. He was open, accepting, and loving and over the course of that chat I went from crying from stress and anger to crying from surprise to crying from er... not happiness exactly but damn it felt good to have someone else in my family accept me. Like holy shit

Now, he still has an opportunity to flip the table and ruin things for me, but he also came out with a secret of his own to me that dad wouldn't approve of... so... yeah I think we may actually be good.

I normally hate hanging out with him 90% of because of what he felt and 10% of him being a tool from time to time.

...

We may fucking bond over this. Damn.

Anyway, so that's basically been my day.

Your life is so fucking interesting it makes me physically ill.

Azarthes said
Your life is so fucking interesting it makes me physically ill.

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Holy shit. Your dad's a douche.

Also, awesome! It's great that your brother isn't the douche you thought he was and that he accepts you for who you are!

Nobody deserves to have a father like that.

But maybe, just maybe, you'll actually get a brother worth having over this.

Live your life the way you want to, I'm so glad your brother turned out to be supportive, that's really great.

I'm going to refrain from commenting about your dad because it's nothing that hasn't been said and it's mostly evil thoughts.

Is the marble game where you put those electrodes on your head try to relax to get the marble to go to the other side of the glass box.

That terrible leftist bullshit! Making people libertarians and open minded and not bigoted religious assholes!

Well guess what. Being left wing doesn't make you LGBT or a Atheist and neither do them things make you left wing.

Again, im sorry about your father.

Just goes to show to never judge a book by its cover, I suppose.

Elly I'm sorry you have a shit father. I personally think he's far worse than my own. Even so there was still light at the end of the tunnel and you now have someone who is not only, most likely, going to be your friend and understand you but also a blood related family member who actually accepts you for who you are. I'm glad you and your little brother are on good terms and revealed your secrets to each other... I guess that means that you and your lil-bro are no longer alone now. So while yes, I'll admit I hate the fact you have such a terrible person as your father, I'm more so happy to see that now you're no longer alone dude. c:

ImANargleHunter said
Is the marble game where you put those electrodes on your head try to relax to get the marble to go to the other side of the glass box.

No like it was this big table thing, that sensed how it was tilted and it would move marbles in this maze around based on the tilt. We were trying to each get our marble to the end first. He bumped my marble with his and nearly got in and I was like NOPE

Well, on the bright side, it's very nice to know that you have a family member that accepts you.

Also, do you have a safety cupboard in your house? If not, I would recommend finding something to use as one. That's probably what I would do.

Dervish said
Nobody deserves to have a father like that.But maybe, just maybe, you'll actually get a brother worth having over this.

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Your father is a dickhead. No one that isn't a terrorist, rapist, murderer etc. deserves to have an asshole father ._.

But at the very least, out of all this, you found out that your bro is a supportive and nice guy.

Besides, unless you don't already live by yourself, you'll be able to do so soon and it'll be great.

I couldn't be happier to hear/see this. I mean, the bit about your father sucked like it always does, but that's like acknowledging that dogs eat shit. I'm glad that your brother isn't horrible, and that you have someone else supporting you.

With these developments, however; I keep thinking about how much your life resembles a soap opera.

Glad to hear you were able to confide in him.