I'm in a nostalgic mood... And a bit of a depressed one as well. Struggling a bit with where my life is. Thinking about how I should be going into my junior year of university this year at the sweet tender age of 19. But instead I'll be a sophomore (oh yeah I've decided to return and finish my studies after all) so I don't know I'm just feeling like I need to reflect a bit. Which involves RPG and toontown... Except apparently Toontown isn't a thing anymore. :tear but anyway, life is moving forward at warped speed. I'm getting married in the near future and moving out on my own in October. My boyfriend is in the hiring process of a job making 110,000/year so he's just waiting on everything to be finalized. So my life has just been moving quite fast and I think I needed a moment to chew it over with Twix (RPG) hope all is well with everyone else! But in other news, my computer died two months ago and I've yet to acquire a new one... Which is strange because at one point I essentially lived on the Internet and my computer. It's weird to think Spam and RPG have been a part of my life for four years now. Where does time go. I need a shoulder to cry on guys! D: some of you have supported me through unspeakable things especially within the past year-- and I could never thank you guys enough for that. If it wasn't for People in Spam I don't know if I would still even be alive if it wasn't for he support I've gotten from the people on this site. I love you guys.

Marriage, motherfucker

can you dig it?

Just to ckeck. You ask spam for advice? Your braver then most people on this site to even come here.

@User

If I had a nickel for every post I've seen like this I would melt them down and slit my wrists.

EDIT: with a nickel blade.

Never stress out about anything that will be over before you turn 25. Especially school.

Marriage, motherfucker

can you dig it?

It is incredibly strange. Especially since it is being kept a secret since my boyfriend just wants to make sure we get settled into our own little abode before being rushed into wedding planning by my mother or his. That and we just got through a lot of bullshit with his friends making physical threats towards me and he also wants to make sure those people are completely out of his life before we announce anything because he says with everything I've been through with the assault and then his own friends making threats of physical harm. He doesn't want to give anyone anymore reason to say anything negative towards me. Basically he is being super protective. Which I understand because I'm sure people will automatically assume I am pregnant, due to my age. However, I am incredibly happy with everything and cannot wait to share it with everyone in my life. (Kind of) People in my life offline are not the greatest so I don't know how it'll go over!

Never stress out about anything that will be over before you turn 25. Especially school.

Noted. Just wish I could apply that advice haha. I stress over almost everything~~~ I just feel angry towards the school thing because it wasn't by choice, y'know? I just feel a wee bit robbed. However, I am grateful with how things turned out. I most likely would have never met the guy I am with now if none of that ever occurred.

His friends were the worst as well?
Shit K00kie
You must be a hell of a lot stronger person than me, cause I don't know if I could trust anyone again if I went through the same bullshit.

SEND US PICTURES OF THE WEDDING I WANT TO BASH YOUR CHOICE OF BRIDESMAID DRESSES HUEEHUEHEUEHUEHUEHEUHEUEHU

Supportive... Support? *looks at smudged writing on hand* Suppository? Man, I'll just default to reposting this instead and hope it helps.

SEND US PICTURES OF THE WEDDING

Do this if you feel like it, though. It'd be great.

His friends were the worst as well?
Shit K00kie
You must be a hell of a lot stronger person than me, cause I don't know if I could trust anyone again if I went through the same bullshit.

SEND US PICTURES OF THE WEDDING I WANT TO BASH YOUR CHOICE OF BRIDESMAID DRESSES HUEEHUEHEUEHUEHUEHEUHEUEHU

Well, his best friend at least. It's a kinda a long story but basically his best friend is a member of the firehouse he is chief at called me a whore and said I made up being raped. Went around the town telling people that I was probably just drunk and was a typical female crying wolf. So speaking I am a business owner in a town that stretches about six miles long. Word got back around to me. My boyfriend addressed it in a meeting, stating that the fire company has a morals code they are all required to abide by and just saying that the rumors needed to end. So his "best friend" got butthurt since he knew he was the one that said it. Then sent my mother, brother, and myself messages stating that we were all lucky to be associated with my boyfriend because otherwise he would beat the brains out of every one of us. And that we should be careful who we sever ties with. So obviously this angered my boyfriend and he promptly informed him that their friendship would not extend beyond the fire company. So this guy continued on for a few weeks. Even sent people to fuck with my boyfriend at his grandfather's funeral. Then one day asked that we all come to his house to sort things out. So out of respect for my boyfriends friendship with him, I obliged. And the "meeting" was just him and his crazy fiancee playing 500 questions and unfortunately I got there before my boyfriend and then they said to me "Why don't you just admit that you're a low-life whore who made up being raped? Just like you're mother." (My mom was also raped at 16 and had a baby that unfortunately passed away after birth) So not so much for myself but my mom-- I lost my temper and basically threw the police reports at them and the reports from the school and the rapists' statement where he admits that I didn't consent. At which point the guys crazy fiancee went into their house and came back out with a baseball bat chasing me telling me I'm psycho and what not. Wanting to know who I paid to make up the reports. All as my boyfriend was pulling up. So yeah that's basically the whole story in a nutshell.

So that is why we are waiting before announcing anything. Unfortunately this all has lead to him stepping down from his involvement with the fire company.

The wedding however probably won't be for another year or so? But I will most definitely post some pictures! :)

And yeah, I'm starting to think I should write a soap opera based on my experiences or a lifetime movie. I would probably make a couple thousand off of it!

Honestly though, it is eating away at me slowly. Especially since my family really isn't that supportive. Best thing that I think could happen is getting into my own place. This way I can at least escape it. Because as of now. I go out to get away from my family and I go home to get away from the people from the fire house. But I am never truly getting away. It has been hard for my relationship too because I think Mike (the boyfriend/unofficial fiancee) is starting to think he doesn't make me happy... but he does! He really does. It is just hard to be in love and feel so broken and empty at the same time.

Supportive... Support? *looks at smudged writing on hand* Suppository? Man, I'll just default to reposting this instead and hope it helps.



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Do this if you feel like it, though. It'd be great.

Of course! :D