I have been doing a RWBY Roleplay with a bunch of friends in real life and I have been keeping a journal of how my character is progressing, and what is happening in the Roleplay from my characters point of view.

I actually enjoyed reading the 'Journal Entries' I wrote (so have others that have read it) and decided that I would share it here. If you have any questions about anything you read. Feel free to PM me about it.

Small Background to help you understand the beginning.

Meeka is a young girl (age 15) who was a human at start (transformed Faunus). She met a guy dressed in black 4 years ago, and now she can't remember what happened 4 years ago.

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First day, the only thing I can remember before now was when I was 11. Back when I met that man in Black. Now... I have no memory of why I am here, why I have this spear, why I am on a plane to go to a school I have never even heard of. Memory foggy, hurts when I try to think beyond this flight. I am extremely nervous about my surroundings, all the people here, I have never seen, but they all look my age. Well, except for the robots and the veteran sitting near me. I'd rather not interact with these kids. I do not know anything about them, some seem very unstable, especially that black kid. I just seem to be in a very disadvantageous situation, the pilot is an idiot, homicidal guys, and don't even get me started on the smelly big guy who doesn't know the meaning of personal space. Then there is the one sane kid on the plane who actually saved me from the big guy. He said his name is Jax, and he.... well I can tell he is trying to be nice, but how do I act around other people? It seems that asking the same questions others ask is acceptable. What else happened on that plane.... right. Another idiot fired a chain gun inside the ship, normally it wouldn't have made me cry but the suddenness of the sound and my sensitive hearing was just to much to bear. Which brings me to my next mystery.... WHY DO I HAVE WOLF EARS AND A WOLF TAIL!!!!
I was human in my other memories, my parents were too. The only logical answer I can make is that the man in black is responsible for this change and I will find him no matter what. I need to know why he did this to me or if he knows who did. Until then, however, I am just going to have to adapt and hide my unnatural appendages so people will see me as I am. I hear that being labeled as a Faunus is a fate worse than death, and although I am not a Faunus, to others, I would be labeled as such. My thoughts like my diary, confused, jumbled, no organization, and worst of all.... empty. The feeling I have knowing that I have been robbed of my memory is a large blow to my identity. People will probably label me as insecure, but can I blame them? They know nothing of losing memory, the literal and figurative pain is unbearable.
Finally, the plane has landed, abrupt and hard as it was, at least I am on the ground. Waiting, waiting for people to leave the plane. Next, I am confronted by the big black homicidal maniac. I'm scared, he just threatened to kill me, for what reason. None.... He just threatened me. I am coerced to leave with him, a robot stops the big black guy; while he is distracted, I run away. He chased me down, but I am to quick, maybe its because of the changes to my body? I stay hidden, the big black guy leaves, I think his name was Mishak. Either way, I would like to avoid him. It seems that constant exposure to him would increase my likelihood of death. I head back to the plane, I ask the robot where I should go. It refers me to my Scroll. What is a scroll? I check my pocket and inside it is a device with my info, school schedule; I guess this device is a scroll? I refer to it, I find a map. That's handy. Along with the schedule, I navigate the school and make it to the next stop.
A guy wearing a black coat with a green scarf steps onto the stage, he speaks about why we are here. I have no recollection of any purpose why am I here. Should I adopt his purpose so I can actually have one? No time to rest, no time to think, already we are being herded back to the planes to go on our first mission. As I head to the ship, I avoid the one we came in, that pilot was terrible. Hopefully this one would be better. I am about to board the plane, there is a high-pitched scream brief but full of anguish, a commotion of guards, I try not to notice and go into the plane. There is a large singular round room, it seems that the best way to minimize contact would be to sit at the entrance. That way, only 1 person could sit next to me. As people board, that kid, Jax, sits next to me and another I do not know. Mishak boards the plane... did I just feel a dip in the craft when he stepped on? How heavy is he? It seems that his behavior is what pushes people away from him, maybe if some kindness was shown, he would become more mentally stable?
Nighttime, we are still flying, all students are forced to sleep close together in the same room. I open my case, when did I get this case? I didn't even bring it with me. Yet my name is on it, and all the clothes are my size. Its strange, but I don't complain, I need clean clothes, I look for pajamas, I find a single white onepiece. I put it on in the restroom, I try to sleep, but people are noisy. I see Mishak wearing pink and white polka dot onesie. He actually looks like a teddy bear in it. I continue to try to sleep, people begin to talk about how they miss their parents, I begin to think of mine. I try hold back the tears, yet... they come anyway. It seems that Jax has taken it upon himself to protect me for now. Why? What did I do to receive this boon?
I can't even find peace in my dreams, yet it is better than being awake. I cry myself to sleep.

I wake up to the smell of bacon, I choose not to get up, I pretend to sleep. Jax, Mishak and a bunch of the other guys all rush to the cafeteria. I eventually get up, I change outfits, I look at the suggested menu. Junk, fat, more junk. Is this really a school for combat? Is this supposed to be like a last meal? I ask the computer, there are more options, I decide to get cereal. As I eat, spills are made, people are yelling, the ship is alive. Mishak wants a towel, but the bigger smelly guy took them all. I decide to experiment, I go and ask the big guy for a towel. He hands me his sweat soaked shirt. Jax again to the rescue, it seems that Jon respects Jax, and Jon walks away (big smelly guy). I get a towel, I hand it to Mishak along with words of hope. I sense that it had a huge effect on his mentality. Need to keep that in mind. Finally we land, more gently than the last time. Could the school not afford better pilots? We are greeted by 2 teachers, it seems that these are the leaders of the school. 1 by 1 we are thrown into these monster infested woods, expected to survive, expected to work with whoever we meet first.
I landed without fail in the middle of the forest spear in hand, I almost feel at home like back to when I braved the Grimm infested forests of my home when I was younger. Before I met that man in black, before I became a Faunus..... aside from that for now. The first person I run into is Jax. I'm relieved a little but I know that we are in the middle of the woods. Just us 2, a lot of Grimm, and no idea where to walk to. We were sent here to find some artifacts to prove that we pass the test. Things get a little more heated as I hear in the distance, the familiar voice of a certain homocidal/homosexual black man. Sure enough, its Mishak following a kid half his size. I begin to ponder as I watch that kid. He seems he knows where to go, and Jax, being the team friendly person he is, goes along to help make sure that a fight doesn't ensue; probably most likely just wanting to make sure Mishak doesn't flatten the runt. Seeing as how it's better to be in numbers, I decided to follow along.
We come to a clearing, the kid just keeps walking, not caring to survey his surroundings. If he had only taken care, he wouldn't have been ambushed by a Beowulf. Acting quickly, I shoot at the Beowulf, it starts to run away. I take it down with another shot. That kid though, he acts as if nothing happened and keeps on walking forward. Mishak and Jax are going nuts, trying to figure out who this boy is, trying to see why he is so suicidal. I decide not to add my voice, if 2 voices were already at it, what difference would a 3rd make? We pass through the clearing, walk through another small copse of trees, and come to another clearing. This timee with a pond in the middle. The kid just stands at the edge and looks into the water. Mishak, being the unstable force he is, tries to push that kid into the water. He hits the kid really hard, but that kid, that strange little boy, doesn't even budge. I decide to use my semblance (I am able to see the future to a degree) to see what is about to happen. *The kid throws a punch, sending Mishak flying through the trees and out of sight.* I bite my lip hoping that it wouldn't happen. I see the punch coming, but Mishak was able to dodge it. Slightly relieved, it seems that the 2 stop fighting and dive into the water. For what reason though? Shortly after, that runt comes back up with an artifact, the one needed to pass the test. Jax wants me to go in the water with him to find another artifact. I respectfully declined as I don't know how to swim. Shortly after Jax comes back up with an artifact he tells everyone about an iron door beneath the water.
Everyone decidesgoes back in to explore the area, I once again decline to go and instead watch over the area and act as a scout. They all go under, they don't come up. I begin to worry and decide to get to higher ground hoping they will come back up. 10 minutes.... nothing. 20 minutes.... nothing. I am very anxious to know what has happened to them. 30 minutes.... A large noise vibrates the surrounding area, the water explodes into the air, mostly evaporated, as the rest rains down, a woman comes out carrying all 3 of the people and sets them on the ground. What surprised me even more was that the women (a symbol on her shoulder. Triangle with 3 claws?) was able to immediately spot me. She told me to take care of my friends..... Are they my friends? Can I consider people I have only known for a day as a friend? I must think about it later as I know my 'friends' are in trouble.
I get my friends, I have no time to think about it, all of them have concussions, but stable heart rates. As I worry about whether or not they wake, I decided to call in for help. Shortly after my call, medics arrive, I am questioned by the man in the scarf. He seems intrigued and worried at the same time. He leaves and I decide to follow along with the medics, giving my assistance when needed. They are all surprised about my skill and knowledge in medicine and welcome the help. Thankfully, the concussions weren't serious but they still haven't woken up even though 5 hours have passed. It's starting to get late, I need to sleep, but those words burn into my mind. Friends....

It's a new day today, sadly, those 3 boys still haven't woke up. Generally concussions don't last this long, I really hope they will be ok. I go through my daily morning routines, shower, get dressed, eat, look at school schedule. School hasn't started yet, it will tomorrow. I guess they want to give time to the injured to be able to recover. All the teams have returned, all of them passed, some just barely, others without a sweat. I thought about walking around outside for a bit to get some fresh air and out of the infirmary section but the sight and knowledge of that smelly man named Jon, looking for me... I decided to stay inside informing the nurses that we didn't want any visitors, and also to tell them that if a man named Jon asked for me, that I wish to not be disturbed. Most of the day passes in peace, never bothered by Jon, however a nurse did walk in with a Biohazard bag saying that the man named Jon dropped it off. I think I know what's inside, and against my best judgement, I decide to open it. Inside was one of his sweaty shirts. Why does he think that a sweaty smelly shirt is worth anything to anyone? My nose, (amplified as it is) was horribly defiled by that smell, and I immediately disposed of it on the Biohazard waste bin. more time passes, I have had a lot of time to think, being stuck in here. I look upon those 3 idiots, and consider whether or not they could be my friends.... I am not sure... what is a friend? I look at the definition, "A person whom you hold close, or dear, a confidant, someone you trust. Is it all or just 1 of those. Do I trust them? In a sense, but I am not sure where I stand...
Time passes, the same guy with the scarf walks in and asks me some more questions. He hoped that I had remembered more info, but I did not. That man, strange as he is, I can't help but feel a sense a respect for him. A few more hours pass, I can't take it anymore. I decide to brave going outside. Carefully, I pick my way out of the ship and across the clearing, avoiding Jon at every turn I see him. I make it into the trees and I breathe easier. The sounds surrounding me remind me of my home back in the woods. I feel a sense of peace being out here. As I quietly explore (avoiding trouble whenever it appeared), I feel a sense of peace come over me. Maybe it is because it reminds me of home. The only place I actually know, and yet, I am saddened as I cannot find which forest it was. I fear that I will never find my home ever again.... Night is coming, night means more peril. I quickly make it back to camp and stow myself back into the infirmary. I am saddened once again, as no one has woken up from their concussions. I fall asleep in a spare cot after getting ready for bed.

Meeka's Journal
Day 4

Another day, and yet those 3 haven't awoken... I am really beginning to be worried now. After getting ready for the morning, I head back into the infirmary only to find that all of them have awoken to a degree. Very much relieved, I decide to just wait out in the common area on the transport craft, I don't want those 3 to think that I am attached to them. Many of the the students question me whether or not my teammate will be fine. I choose to remain silent and just nod my head in the affirmative. After all the curious students are done asking questions, I hear it. Hear them. Their whispers. I hear the students whispering about me saying that I must be a really good friend with my teammate if I this distraught. Idiots... If only they knew, if only they could understand how I actually feel. It seems they woke up in time because they started lift-off procedures shortly after. Coincidence? Maybe.... I am just glad we are leaving. I have heard from eavesdropping accidentally that we all get a dorm room with our team. Less people to deal with will make it easier for me to relax. The plane finally took off, and Jon is sitting at the other side. It was all going well, until Mishak came out of the infirmary. Immediately, he started picking a fight with Jon and having their usual barbaric contests and words. They finish for a
bit; Mishak walks to where I am. Jon once again calls him a homosexual and...... yea.... this time, Mishak proved that he wasn't a homosexual. He reached to the nearest girl behind me and grabbed her chest... Now he is a pervert. Which apparently is better? How? Anyways, that girl with the molested chest brandished her maul and well mauled Mishak and his face. Poor girl. I really don't feel bad about Mishak being flattened. However, I decided to go back to the infirmary with him to avoid all the attention directed towards the girl sitting behind me. In the infirmary, a nurse slaps Mishak, I hid my mirth well, it was weird however when Mishak pulled out his jaw. It made the same sound as that of metal being bent. The doctor said it was a metal jaw. Possible, but still, odd.... I wanted to ask Mishak why he told Jon to steal my spear, but he suddenly burst out saying that he was a pervert now, and well, that made me really uncomfortable.... I reflexively defended myself and scooted a bit further away from the unstable black man.
We eventually land back at the school, and I wait for everyone to leave the plane before I get off. Mishak runs out challenging Jon to a duel, and now... there is a scheduled duel between the two of them an hour from that point. As interested as I am, I don't do well in crowds, and well... I found a place in a nearby tree after I got a sandwich from the cafeteria. (BTW the lines are ridiculously long in the school's cafeteria) By the time I found a suitable tree, and logged into the school website, the match had started. It was really impressive, despite how unstable, stupid, and socially awkward the 2 were; (More awkward than me) it was a really impressive battle. It almost reminded me of 2 titans fighting to the death, it was so intense that the arena started to shake. I dropped my sandwich near the end when the match was decided. As sad as I was over my lost sandwich, I had a new found respect for those 2.... brawny individuals. Once again, Mishak is carried away on a stretcher. He is always going crazy and not thinking, he will die one of these days if he keeps going like this.
We are all herded into the the schools gargantuan auditorium, where that same man in the scarf begins to announce the teams and their leaders. I was called up along with 3 others; those 3 were the same individuals that were in the forest with me. Mishak, Jax, and Cole along with me. Meeka Gray. The team leader? Me?!.... But, but, how? Why? Of all people why me? I am now very aware of all the eyes staring at me, the thoughts of my teammates now questioning the same thing I am. It takes all of my strength to stay standing. Already I feel the overwhelming responsibility of this position coming to me as my team is already expecting me to know where to go and what to do. I want to hide, avoid this responsibility, run away, but I cannot. The one thing I can do, is use my Scroll to pull up a map of the school, find our dorms, and well... lead them there. I'm sure I took a few wrong turns, but we made it eventually. There was a note on the door that said this room was made because of Mishak.... The doors and walls look normal, but they are all solid plates of steel. The bathrooms are nice, and we each get our
own. I am really grateful for that, I was going to die if I had to share a bathroom with 3 guys.... ugh. All was going well, Cole fell asleep, Jax was excited like no other person about finally being in a dorm, and Mishak... was doing what Mishak does. Which is exercise at all times, and spar when he can. Myself, I was just putting my things away. My things.... In the room, there was my bed, and next to it, a bunch of suitcases, full of; clothes, school supplies, snacks, weapon repair/maintaining kit, etc. I was actually really creeped out. Not only were all the clothes in the cases exactly my size, they were varied in all the styles of clothes I like to wear. If it weren't for the fact that I needed clothes and bathroom essentials, I would have thrown all of this stuff out. I mean... that is just creepy! What type of person would provide this stuff? Could it have been that Man in Black? Possibly, but I don't know.
After I get everything put away, there is a knock on the door, I open it and see Jon. I immediately close the door and walk away. Jax however, being the nice guy he is, opens the door and allows Jon to come in. Jon came to give me flowers. Which actually... is nice of him. Weird. he actually did something good for once. Something I didn't revile about him. Did a girl or someone else give him advice? Either way, I really didn't want to accept them because Jon would think I actually like him. I wouldn't have accepted, except for the fact that my team pretty much coerced me into taking the flowers. Of course, Jon took that as an official acceptance of his status in dating me.... ugh. Sure he is super masculine and chivalrous to a fault, and if I didn't have these 'modifications' I may have been able to stand being near him, but that smell is just too much. Also, how would he react if he saw my 'differences'. I'm not sure, and honestly, I really am not interested in relationships right now. I need to find what happened to the last 4 years of my life. I can't have any closure or sense of security until that is made.
As I prepare for bed tonight, I finally get to take a shower. I can't even remember the last time I showered. literally, the last time I remember is almost 5 years ago...... Gross. I want to believe that I had regularly taken showers during that 4 year blank. It was weird, I have never showered with ears and a tail... it is quite the odd feeling. Also, what shampoo do you use for fur? Should I go buy dog shampoo? I honestly don't know.

Tomorrow can come when it wants, I really don't care. I just want to know what happened to me.

Its a new day, and the first day of classes. I'm not really interested in school, because I already know as much as I need in order to graduate. All of the information I learn today will just be a review I fear. I could be a Professor at this school teaching medicine if I wanted to. Also, getting dressed is another problem when you have a bushy wolf tail and ears. Interestingly, all the clothes I have, are specifically made for my ears and tail in mind. Seriously, this is way creepier than I thought it could get. It even came with instructions on how to hide my ears in plain sight using ribbons and such. Its soooooo creepy. Obviously, the one responsible for my change has to be the one who sent me these clothes and supplies. No one knows that I was forcibly changed into a Fuanus! Or was I? This thought unnerves me the most.



It is possible, but the way I am now, would I have truly chosen that path? Will I ever accept that fact or will I hide this transformation for the rest of my life. I don't know. I do know however, that after I had finished preparing for the day, my team had 5 minutes to get to our first class. Surprisingly, Mishak was able to support all 4 of us on his hoverboard and we made it to our class in record time. The teacher was a green haired caffeine doping man that couldn't stand still. The way he spoke was ridiculously fast too, however, I sense a kindred spirit in him. A common agreement that with knowledge of the past, we can avoid repeating past mistakes. He is incredibly knowledgeable on all subjects history, and his class was quite enjoyable. I think I actually learned a few things I didn't know beforehand. I really should talk with him later to see if I can get my hands on some of the books he studies. Near the end of class however, he imparted his own wisdom on the class and then proceeded to have me and Mishak to demonstrate his wisdom. "Team work is key to survival in these years at the academy." He wanted us to do a team attack to take down a Grimm he had brought to class. Using my semblance, I looked into the future to guess what would happen. Using that knowledge, I imparted it to Mishak and well, he obliterated that poor Grimm when it charged straight at us. Impressed with our effectiveness, the professor congratulated us and that was the end of class. I asked Mishak if he could keep Jon from
getting to close to me, in return he wanted me to hang out with a girl named Nora. Why? Not sure. But if it keeps Jon away, I don't think i'll mind hanging out with another girl.
Once class was over, that was it. Our next class wasn't until tomorrow. So what to do with the entire rest of the day? Once again.... the whole group (except for ever sleeping Cole) looked to me on what to do. I immediately threw an option for lunch, and we all agreed on eating Chinese food. Our group made our way to the tram system to head to Vale for food. The ride was longer than I expected. During it, I looked at our upcoming schedule and various missions we could take. We finally make it to Vale and using the handy GPS App on the Scroll, I was able to find the restaurant. Upon entering the restaurant, we find that Cole had gone missing from the group. I naturally thought Mishak was just oblivious to the fact that he had dropped the sleeping Cole, but we all decided on trying to find him. I decided to use my nose as a wolf would to track a scent of their prey. Surprisingly, I was able to pick up his scent and follow it all the way through the city. Of course any normal person near me would wonder why I was constantly sniffing the air, but my team? Yea they asked, but brushed it aside thinking my nose was runny... Wow.... It looks like it will be a lot easier to hide these changes from my team than I thought. After almost an hour of searching the city, we came across the scene of a fleeing vigilante just finishing up some business with a local robber. The police referred to him as the "Collider". Apparently this vigilante is really popular around town here and actually thought of him as a Hero as well.
Either way, it just so happened that we found a sleeping Cole shortly after the vigilante disappeared. His scent was written all over that scene. Could it be? Not sure, more evidence is needed. Either way, we made it back to the restaurant and ordered our food.
Shortly after we finish our food. Another team walks in, among them is a Faunus, she has large tall rabbit ears. I immediately look away trying to not garner attention from her. Mishak of course immediately tries to challenge them to a fight. Thankfully, the very fashionable CoCo declined his offer in a very... forceful yet feminine way? Not sure how to explain the tone. Aside from that, I left the store to get away from the tense situation not wanting to get involved with if a fight started. The Faunus, (I believe her name was Velvet) came out to talk with me. Apparently, other Faunus can tell when they see another Faunus even if that person (me) is hiding it really well. If that is the case... why can't I tell when I see another Faunus? I feel this fact further increases the evidence that I wasn't a Faunus to begin with. Or have I just not ran into a Faunus in hiding? Not sure, more evidence needed. Velvet questioned why I was hiding my Faunus looks. I simply told her the truth. I told her I wasn't a Faunus. Either way, Velvet didn't believe me, (of course she didn't) heck... I wouldn't even believe it myself if I heard it told to me. I explained that I wasn't a Faunus and that I was human at first, and that statement.... only confused the poor bunny even more... I don't blame her though. I'm thoroughly confused and I’m living with it! How? Why? I can’t explain enough of my frustration of my missing past.
Our group made it back to the tram and headed off towards the school again. During the ride, my team and I selected a mission involving medicine. Great. At least I'll know what is going on for once in my life. But, before we head on our mission, I decide to head back to the dorm and create a 'Wake the Dead Potion' in order to keep Cole awake. Result.... Inconceivable. Not only did it not wake him up like it should, he said that it smelled good. It's not called 'Wake the Dead' for no reason. My mother swears that she actually disturbed a passing by spirit with the smell of this potion. I then asked him to drink it. (You should never do that. Ingesting this potion is essentially ingesting deadly poison) and once again, he said it tasted good and went back to SLEEP! HE WENT TO SLEEP AFTER DRINKING DEADLY POISON! HOW! What is he? More data is needed before I make a conclusion. As for Mishak, he wasn't in the room when this all happened, he went to go train in the coliseum. He hasn't returned yet. I wonder what is happening with him?

Well… Mishak came back, more moody than usual, words were fired, he threatened to murder some of us. Blamed me for being a terrible leader. Said he was leaving school and Jax started to celebrate when he heard that. Things got worse, security was involved. Thankfully we didn’t lose our door this time… I am however very worried.