Garbage, burden, mistake
I go by many names
Worthless, selfish, waste
I go by many phrases
Useless, stupid, freak
They all get to me
My mother doesn’t love me
My father doesn’t care
At least that’s what my brain is telling me
I live in a world of despair
“You’re a burden”
“Die already”
That's what the thoughts think
That’s what they tell me, day after day
Even when I think I’m fine
Even when I think I’m happy
Maybe this is a sign?
A sign I’ll never be free
Free from this curse
Free from this feeling
Free from my thoughts
Free from myself
At this rate, I’ll end my day in a hearse
One mistake waiting to be made
One made with little forethought
But is that what I really want?
I want to be happy
I already am
I don’t want to die
I’m not going to
But at this rate, what I’m going through
The words and phrases in my mind
I can’t help but cry
But I’m not going to
I’m not going to let these feelings win
I’m not going to let the words sting
I’m not going to let the phrases in
I’m not going to kill myself over talk
Useless, stupid, freak
They won’t get to me
Worthless, selfish, waste
I can change
Garbage, burden, mistake
I can leave
I’ll live a life
So pure, so fine
That even my brain
Will change its mind