Izzy let out a slow breath that was quitter than the gentle vibration of her phone. She placed it back in her pocket.
Casting a last, long look at the sad lump of Cerasus laying on the floor, she turned from the classroom and headed to the basement. She could not stay inside. The outdoors always helped her think.
As quickly as she could, she went to the basement. She paused, contemplating putting the heart inside the bag as well, but thought against it. If she decided to not return his limbs, and he found the duffel bag with everything in it, it would not matter. That, she decided, she would keep separate. No one except for her and Riley knew it was missing, not even Cerasus.
She placed the heart down and hid the duffel bag between a couple old, rusted water heaters. At first, she thought the bag might not fit, but she managed to drop it into place among other odd bits of garbage long since abandoned there. She stepped back, making sure it would not be easy to spot, then hurried back upstairs and crept into the classroom. Concealing the heart as well as she could in case he stirred, Izzy carefully and quietly grabbed her walking staff and her jacket-turned-vest.
She shrugged into the camouflage garment as she made her way to the front door, and carefully placed the heart in one of the front pockets. It thumped once at the change in pressure, making a shudder step down Izzy’s spine.
At the exit, she looked up, checking that the clouds still hung thickly in the sky, then stepped out into the rain.
Though she did not dare stray too far from the school in case the cloud cover let up, she walked around the building, avoiding looking at the school and keeping a careful eye on the sky. Though she did not need its aid, she used her walking staff, its familiar presence comforting. She went deliberately slow. When she rounded to the back, the rain, which had grown slightly heavier, already drenching her, she ventured into the overgrown schoolyard, stepping around a couple bits of what remained of the equipment that had once been well-loved by children.
She slowed at the edge of the area, then stopped, staring out at the flat plains studded with weeds and trees.
She placed the rubber tip of her staff against the ground in front of her, and rested her hands just beneath the gnarled top with the owl carved into it. She took a deep breath as she stared unseeingly out at the landscape. She needed to figure out which path she was going to take.
Option One: Both she and Cerasus got what they wanted, and went on their own separate ways. She could spend time with Trevor. Go to college. See the world, and not be bound by the sun or being discovered. There would be no hunters to worry about, no concerns about having her limbs ripped off because someone like Riley felt like “evening the playing field.” But then, she would still not be completely rid of the aberrations. She would be weak against any she encountered, unless she decided to devote herself to learning the skills to fighting them. And then there was Cerasus. If she let him get back to full power, there was no telling what he would do, what she would unleash back into the world. She knew next to nothing about him, the King of Aberrations. A pure-blood vampire, someone who had never been a human, if what Cutter had said indicated that as she thought.
Option Two: Betrayal. Keep him from getting his legs and heart. Cerasus would remain in his weakened state, and his reign would come to an end. She would have the strength and abilities to defend herself from aberrations, and could blaze her own trail, leave him to fend for himself. However, all her work would have been for nothing. Cerasus could easily be a good guy, albeit callous, someone who took down his own kind for more than just his own well-being. She could be eliminating an important factor in this side of the world. Then, she would be on her own, left to find things out by trial and error. She would be a vampire for eternity... or at least until she made a single mistake or a missing piece of information brought about her death. Her promise to Trevor would be broken, and she could never see him again. Her life as a human would be nothing more than a bittersweet memory.
Option Three: Nix the betrayal, but stay a vampire. Cerasus would have his powers back, and she would be capable of defending herself. Even keep an eye on Cerasus, get an understanding of his ways, learn the ropes of being a vampire. If he was a bane to the world, she could do everything in her power to bring him down. But then, she would still be a vampire, and had no idea what implications were involved in being the thrall--just the thought made her scowl--to a restored vampire of his reputation, let alone if she could even someday overpower him.
Izzy took a deep breath, then exhaled with a conflicted growl. There had to be another option. She stood there in the rain, a statue against the horizon, until finally, a fourth came to her.
Option Four: Give him the legs, but not the heart. Cerasus would not return to full power, at least until she could figure out whether he did more good or harm in the human world. If he was a blight on humankind, she had a chance of bringing him down. If he did more good, she could return it to him, make some sort of excuse, maybe even still return to being human. If she could pull it off and keep it hidden for that long. If she failed, she would have to face his ire. But at least she would not have been the cause of the downfall of someone potentially helpful in protecting the line between humans and aberrations. She could still learn from him, if he ever bothered to teach her what she needed to know. But she would still be leaving behind her humanity. She would be leaving Trevor.
She closed her eyes. Option one was out. As much as she wanted it, wanted to sleep in her own bed, to see her parents again, to spend time with Trevor and get to know him, her first friend in what felt an eternity, not only would she still be in danger, but she would be a danger to anyone else around her when an aberration found her. And if Trevor also attracted them now, it would only mean that much more trouble. The second was risky, and likely ended in her death after a few months, if she was lucky, and the third held little appeal. The fourth was still not without its peril, but at least she had a chance. Though she would be giving up what she had fought for so ardently, she could do more good for others that way, not just, hopefully, herself.
Izzy swallowed hard as the darkness of the setting sun crept over the world in gray shadows, the beginnings of night brought on prematurely by the clouds. She looked up, and her chin jutted out and her expression steeled as she made her decision. She gripped her staff slightly tighter, careful to not splinter the wood.
With a shaking hand, she reached into her pocket for her phone. Again using her body to shield the electronic and leaning the staff against her shoulder, she typed out her last message to Trevor, to the only person she felt she would truly regret leaving behind:
I’m sorry, Trevor. I can’t. I don’t have time to explain. Just be safe. Watch out. Monsters are more likely to find you now.
She sent it, then quickly started a second.
Thanks for everything. Your friendship’s meant more to me than you’ll ever know. Take care of yourself, and don’t go looking for anymore vampires, okay?
She made sure the message sent, then, eyes closed and vision watery, powered the phone down. She swallowed against a lump in her throat, then took a couple deep breaths, in through the nose and out quaveringly through the mouth.
Cerasus would be waking up soon, and a heart-sized bulge in her jacket pocket would be suspicious.
She hurried back into the school and retrieved the duffel bag from its hiding place, before hurrying to the classroom where she hoped Cerasus still slept so she could slip it in among the other few clothing items crowding her pack.