Why is the rum gone?

[MordecaiThe 1st]

Tic, tock, punch that clock. Make sure you can buy that estate block
With a white picket fence of the finest stock
Be good and complacent, your perception needs to stay faded, Find your place in line with the rest of the flock
Climb and fall and tumble down, just look happy, don't dare frown
"take it easy, it aint a race"
But it is, i'm rushing. Struggling. I dont wander enough so I'm lusting
Craving, thirsting, and to slate my thirst im crushing
All that I can, and things that I shouldn't
Tried to stay steady on my own but i couldn't
The tremors start to throw me off, my balance is a joke
The life I live is too much to swallow, I'm starving but with each bite taken I can't help but choke
Home is non-existant, The ones closest to me feel so distant
I miss the feeling, but some ambiguous force has gone heart-stealing, and mines in a freezer somewhere gone, like a testament that its best left off my sleeve
I ain't bitchin, just now listenin to the things that I've touted, but didn't live by, I'm a walking lie
Fuck this rhyme scheme, I want to live in my old day dreams
Sleep was once an escape, but now it escapes me
Dreams once sweet have turned to ash, as everything I touch seems to do
Its the common theme
my existance is intangible, caught in gnashing mandibles of some grotesque sphinx
Is this shit all it eats? Cause its breath stinks.

[Redward]

I would like to, if you are willing to allow, write some poetry alongside you in this thread. I hope that's not a strange question!

[MordecaiThe 1st]

That would be great! Just don't put me to shame too terribly! :)

[MordecaiThe 1st]

You didn't hear me, I'll say it louder
Impatient, I'll say it fouler
I've always got something poor to say because I'm too proud to admit that I was wrong today
Feeling unwell
I know I'm sick
I'm thinking too fast
I take the hit
To slow me down
I hear the drip
Of the last shot from the bottle
The brake that'll take my foot off the throttle
It's Gasoline
Make believe
This isn't me
Its just a dream
Heavy air
On a dare
I'll say that I don't care
And for once, I'll believe it.

[LordofthePies]

Just wanted to say that you're pretty good and what you do. Keep it up c:

@MordecaiThe 1st

[MordecaiThe 1st]

@LordofthePies Hey, thanks! I really appreciate it.

[MordecaiThe 1st]

I've traversed a galaxy without ever leaving home
And I've believed in fallacy. Within the truth, I seldom roam
My ears are muffled, yet newly keen. And all along, all along the song of my soul was a scream
These contradictions are my solace, walking both sides of the line thriving in chaos without veering too far from the most beaten path
Wrath
In the stillness
Silence
In the fanfare
Noise
While in sleep, and fear within these dreams
There's something pure within the nightmare, unlikely as that seems
Rack my mind a million times, try to sort out and understand all these things
Forget it.
There's more innocence in torment than peace.

[MordecaiThe 1st]

Never been one to overtly complain
But I'll take just a moment to convey the disdain
That I feel for the state of affairs in my brain
As I write this, I feel only shame
I constantly battle, there's always a fight
And these rooms still seem dark when I turn on the lights
Flying blinded
Its as though I'm starving for life, but I've not had a bite.
I'm my own worst enemy
And no, I don't want your sympathy
So please save your pity cause that comes too easily.
Need someone to hear me, and take this to heart
Just because I play strong doesn't mean that i don't fall apart
I glide through existence, I feel like the ghost
Of a boy that just wanted his manhood the most
Now all he's become is this sad creature's host
Is anyone listening?
I'm desperately pleading
I hate this damned feeling
It feels like you're leaving
Fists are clenched, palms are bleeding
Soul is loud when its screaming
I try to make up for it
To carry alone
This cross that I bare, born from lack of a home
So I speak to my loved ones with a gentler tone
Though I stay quiet, and they'd never know
It feels like I've said these things over and over
Though they've told me to talk and to cry on their shoulders
Surrounded by love, but I feel all alone
I'm just a misguided child that keeps growing older