This is a bit of a strange post, and might arguably be in the wrong section. But it's a post I've thought to make for some time now. I have been a member of this website since before the big crash that happened all those years ago. I can't quite remember the exact time of the crash, I think it was around 2010 or onwards.
Regardless, I'm writing this post as a sort of farewell to this site. I doubt anyone will really care, but this at least gives me some closure in a sense. I joined Roleplayerguild fairly young, I must have been around 11 or 12 and had moved over from the roleplay section of a website called PlanetMinecraft. I can remember first joining Roleplayerguild, being less than an amateur writer I found myself in the "free" section, writing fairly cringy edgelord characters that I'd mostly plagiarised from media and celebrities I'd admired.
I eventually graduated from the free section onto casual, which is where I'd call my home for my time on this website. I am 21, going on 22 now and used this website consistently until I was about 18 or 19 and then sporadically from then until I was around 21. You might notice this account is fairly new, if I'm honest with you I've had more accounts than I can even remember. My first account though, was called Vault_boy I believe. I often changed accounts due to fear of people mocking my writing skill, or making fun of any of my characters. This was due in a large part because of a great deal of anxiety I dealt with during my teen years, and a huge lack of confidence in my writing. There were even points where I had multiple accounts in the same roleplay interacting with each other both OOC and IC as ridiculous as that sounds. I even pretended to be a member of the opposite gender, or just didn't disclose my gender and used non-gendered language in order to hide my "identity". Looking back, I realise how foolish it was to expect someone would do detective work on a teenagers roleplay account just to call them out for having multiple accounts. I can remember having such anxiety about worrying that I wasn't making my writing style different enough from another account and expecting someone to pick up on this and figure my scheme out.
I'll list all the accounts I can remember below. The funny thing is I actually wanted to make this post using what I'd consider to have been my primary account for most of my time on this website - Mr_pink, but upon trying to reset the password for this account I found the email I'd used was actually linked to yet another account that I'd made no posts with. Go figure. The last two are accounts I didn't even realise I'd created and found when resetting my password. I'd also wager that this isn't even a complete list, and that there are probably a few more accounts out there.
Regardless, the point of this post isn't just to give a biography of my time here. It's in essence a 'Thank You' to the website, it's users, and everyone who keeps it running. I'm sure many of you can relate to me when I say that I grew up as one of the weird kids. I never really fit in with everyone else around me, my home life was already different from a young age and I found myself becoming friends with the nerdier kids rather than anyone else. This website became like a second home for me when I was younger. Every day I'd come back from school excited to check the roleplays I was involved in and any new ones. Specifically, I really need to give a shoutout to the user [@Kid Lantern] who I believe now goes by @Omega Man. As silly as it sounds, even though I never talked to him in any sense outside of discussing roleplay and the odd Discord message here and there, KL was a huge part of my adolescent years. I was legitimately excited any time he posted a roleplay and used to rally my friends to join with me. If I were to crown anyone the undisputed king of the casual roleplay section, or at the very least superhero roleplays it would definitely be him.
Speaking of friends, this website gave me the opportunity to make friends I never would have without it. As I said, I wasn't the most popular kid growing up, I had maybe 4 or 5 actual friends as a teenager, but this website opened up a new world of people to talk to. I made 3 proper friends from this website. Unfortunately, growing up I was filled with a lot of hate and anger, and often lashed out at these friends under the safety of being an ocean apart. Thankfully I was able to apologise to these people recently and they were gracious enough to accept my apology.
It may also sound sadistic in a sense, but the drama I got involved in on this website is actually something I look back on fondly. I remember I used to have a sort of petty rivalry with another user, I think his name was Draco or something and we used to go at it like cat and dog. Looking back, I realise this was just teenagers fighting over fictional characters, but at the time it felt like a war, like the biggest thing I'd been involved in. I can also remember the feeble feeling of superiority I felt having moved up to casual. I felt like my writing skill was top notch, and that the free section was beneath me. Ironically enough, I never moved up to advanced and considered them elitists. In retrospect, it's obvious I had a bit of a napoleon complex that got out of hand.
I've rambled on now for a while, and I doubt anyone's read this far, but I think the best part of this website was how it developed my writing skill. Writing was always something I loved growing up and this website gave me the amazing opportunity to feel like I was apart of this wonderful writing community with hundreds of different writers who I could learn from and work with. I still write today, albeit on short stories rather than roleplay, and I definitely attribute this continued interest and a huge part of my skill to my time on this website.
I've never been good at ending things, but I'd like to say a huge heartfelt thank you to this website and everyone on it. For around 10 years it was such a big part of my life and it brought me such joy growing up.
Thanks.
Regardless, I'm writing this post as a sort of farewell to this site. I doubt anyone will really care, but this at least gives me some closure in a sense. I joined Roleplayerguild fairly young, I must have been around 11 or 12 and had moved over from the roleplay section of a website called PlanetMinecraft. I can remember first joining Roleplayerguild, being less than an amateur writer I found myself in the "free" section, writing fairly cringy edgelord characters that I'd mostly plagiarised from media and celebrities I'd admired.
I eventually graduated from the free section onto casual, which is where I'd call my home for my time on this website. I am 21, going on 22 now and used this website consistently until I was about 18 or 19 and then sporadically from then until I was around 21. You might notice this account is fairly new, if I'm honest with you I've had more accounts than I can even remember. My first account though, was called Vault_boy I believe. I often changed accounts due to fear of people mocking my writing skill, or making fun of any of my characters. This was due in a large part because of a great deal of anxiety I dealt with during my teen years, and a huge lack of confidence in my writing. There were even points where I had multiple accounts in the same roleplay interacting with each other both OOC and IC as ridiculous as that sounds. I even pretended to be a member of the opposite gender, or just didn't disclose my gender and used non-gendered language in order to hide my "identity". Looking back, I realise how foolish it was to expect someone would do detective work on a teenagers roleplay account just to call them out for having multiple accounts. I can remember having such anxiety about worrying that I wasn't making my writing style different enough from another account and expecting someone to pick up on this and figure my scheme out.
I'll list all the accounts I can remember below. The funny thing is I actually wanted to make this post using what I'd consider to have been my primary account for most of my time on this website - Mr_pink, but upon trying to reset the password for this account I found the email I'd used was actually linked to yet another account that I'd made no posts with. Go figure. The last two are accounts I didn't even realise I'd created and found when resetting my password. I'd also wager that this isn't even a complete list, and that there are probably a few more accounts out there.
Regardless, the point of this post isn't just to give a biography of my time here. It's in essence a 'Thank You' to the website, it's users, and everyone who keeps it running. I'm sure many of you can relate to me when I say that I grew up as one of the weird kids. I never really fit in with everyone else around me, my home life was already different from a young age and I found myself becoming friends with the nerdier kids rather than anyone else. This website became like a second home for me when I was younger. Every day I'd come back from school excited to check the roleplays I was involved in and any new ones. Specifically, I really need to give a shoutout to the user [@Kid Lantern] who I believe now goes by @Omega Man. As silly as it sounds, even though I never talked to him in any sense outside of discussing roleplay and the odd Discord message here and there, KL was a huge part of my adolescent years. I was legitimately excited any time he posted a roleplay and used to rally my friends to join with me. If I were to crown anyone the undisputed king of the casual roleplay section, or at the very least superhero roleplays it would definitely be him.
Speaking of friends, this website gave me the opportunity to make friends I never would have without it. As I said, I wasn't the most popular kid growing up, I had maybe 4 or 5 actual friends as a teenager, but this website opened up a new world of people to talk to. I made 3 proper friends from this website. Unfortunately, growing up I was filled with a lot of hate and anger, and often lashed out at these friends under the safety of being an ocean apart. Thankfully I was able to apologise to these people recently and they were gracious enough to accept my apology.
It may also sound sadistic in a sense, but the drama I got involved in on this website is actually something I look back on fondly. I remember I used to have a sort of petty rivalry with another user, I think his name was Draco or something and we used to go at it like cat and dog. Looking back, I realise this was just teenagers fighting over fictional characters, but at the time it felt like a war, like the biggest thing I'd been involved in. I can also remember the feeble feeling of superiority I felt having moved up to casual. I felt like my writing skill was top notch, and that the free section was beneath me. Ironically enough, I never moved up to advanced and considered them elitists. In retrospect, it's obvious I had a bit of a napoleon complex that got out of hand.
I've rambled on now for a while, and I doubt anyone's read this far, but I think the best part of this website was how it developed my writing skill. Writing was always something I loved growing up and this website gave me the amazing opportunity to feel like I was apart of this wonderful writing community with hundreds of different writers who I could learn from and work with. I still write today, albeit on short stories rather than roleplay, and I definitely attribute this continued interest and a huge part of my skill to my time on this website.
I've never been good at ending things, but I'd like to say a huge heartfelt thank you to this website and everyone on it. For around 10 years it was such a big part of my life and it brought me such joy growing up.
Thanks.
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