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This is a bit of a strange post, and might arguably be in the wrong section. But it's a post I've thought to make for some time now. I have been a member of this website since before the big crash that happened all those years ago. I can't quite remember the exact time of the crash, I think it was around 2010 or onwards.

Regardless, I'm writing this post as a sort of farewell to this site. I doubt anyone will really care, but this at least gives me some closure in a sense. I joined Roleplayerguild fairly young, I must have been around 11 or 12 and had moved over from the roleplay section of a website called PlanetMinecraft. I can remember first joining Roleplayerguild, being less than an amateur writer I found myself in the "free" section, writing fairly cringy edgelord characters that I'd mostly plagiarised from media and celebrities I'd admired.

I eventually graduated from the free section onto casual, which is where I'd call my home for my time on this website. I am 21, going on 22 now and used this website consistently until I was about 18 or 19 and then sporadically from then until I was around 21. You might notice this account is fairly new, if I'm honest with you I've had more accounts than I can even remember. My first account though, was called Vault_boy I believe. I often changed accounts due to fear of people mocking my writing skill, or making fun of any of my characters. This was due in a large part because of a great deal of anxiety I dealt with during my teen years, and a huge lack of confidence in my writing. There were even points where I had multiple accounts in the same roleplay interacting with each other both OOC and IC as ridiculous as that sounds. I even pretended to be a member of the opposite gender, or just didn't disclose my gender and used non-gendered language in order to hide my "identity". Looking back, I realise how foolish it was to expect someone would do detective work on a teenagers roleplay account just to call them out for having multiple accounts. I can remember having such anxiety about worrying that I wasn't making my writing style different enough from another account and expecting someone to pick up on this and figure my scheme out.

I'll list all the accounts I can remember below. The funny thing is I actually wanted to make this post using what I'd consider to have been my primary account for most of my time on this website - Mr_pink, but upon trying to reset the password for this account I found the email I'd used was actually linked to yet another account that I'd made no posts with. Go figure. The last two are accounts I didn't even realise I'd created and found when resetting my password. I'd also wager that this isn't even a complete list, and that there are probably a few more accounts out there.


Regardless, the point of this post isn't just to give a biography of my time here. It's in essence a 'Thank You' to the website, it's users, and everyone who keeps it running. I'm sure many of you can relate to me when I say that I grew up as one of the weird kids. I never really fit in with everyone else around me, my home life was already different from a young age and I found myself becoming friends with the nerdier kids rather than anyone else. This website became like a second home for me when I was younger. Every day I'd come back from school excited to check the roleplays I was involved in and any new ones. Specifically, I really need to give a shoutout to the user [@Kid Lantern] who I believe now goes by @Omega Man. As silly as it sounds, even though I never talked to him in any sense outside of discussing roleplay and the odd Discord message here and there, KL was a huge part of my adolescent years. I was legitimately excited any time he posted a roleplay and used to rally my friends to join with me. If I were to crown anyone the undisputed king of the casual roleplay section, or at the very least superhero roleplays it would definitely be him.

Speaking of friends, this website gave me the opportunity to make friends I never would have without it. As I said, I wasn't the most popular kid growing up, I had maybe 4 or 5 actual friends as a teenager, but this website opened up a new world of people to talk to. I made 3 proper friends from this website. Unfortunately, growing up I was filled with a lot of hate and anger, and often lashed out at these friends under the safety of being an ocean apart. Thankfully I was able to apologise to these people recently and they were gracious enough to accept my apology.

It may also sound sadistic in a sense, but the drama I got involved in on this website is actually something I look back on fondly. I remember I used to have a sort of petty rivalry with another user, I think his name was Draco or something and we used to go at it like cat and dog. Looking back, I realise this was just teenagers fighting over fictional characters, but at the time it felt like a war, like the biggest thing I'd been involved in. I can also remember the feeble feeling of superiority I felt having moved up to casual. I felt like my writing skill was top notch, and that the free section was beneath me. Ironically enough, I never moved up to advanced and considered them elitists. In retrospect, it's obvious I had a bit of a napoleon complex that got out of hand.

I've rambled on now for a while, and I doubt anyone's read this far, but I think the best part of this website was how it developed my writing skill. Writing was always something I loved growing up and this website gave me the amazing opportunity to feel like I was apart of this wonderful writing community with hundreds of different writers who I could learn from and work with. I still write today, albeit on short stories rather than roleplay, and I definitely attribute this continued interest and a huge part of my skill to my time on this website.

I've never been good at ending things, but I'd like to say a huge heartfelt thank you to this website and everyone on it. For around 10 years it was such a big part of my life and it brought me such joy growing up.

Thanks.


3 months ago



The small damp garage was lit only by the sparks fizzling into the dark air in the middle of the room. Anna looked more rat than bat as she crouched over her magnum opus, her welding tools filling the room with the noise of creation. Sadly that's all the noise the room was filled with, the small bungalow half paid for by her parents back in Germany used to be filled with the sounds of music, but after that old crone next door called the cops for a 'noise disturbance' Anna was condemned to work in silence.

She stood up, reaching her full height even if it was only 5 foot 4, admiring her creation with an undercurrent of anxiety. She sighed, walking over to the wall and placing her hand on the power switch, tracing her eyes along the wire that connected it to her creation.
"It's gotta work this time..." She whispered to herself, pulling the lever down.

A low whirr filled the room and for a minute nothing happened. Then suddenly two lights shot out of the metal man's eyes and a metallic groan paired the movement of his head to face Anna. If there was ever a time to make a frankenstein 'it's alive' joke it was now, but Anna was too awestruck to notice. For a moment she was filled with hope, for a moment the robot seemed to move. But that was only for a moment, just as he tried to push himself up he fell back down and the room returned to the quiet, anxious atmosphere from before.

Anna sighed, passive aggressively tossing her welding equipment on the floor and storming through to the living room, placing a pair of headphones on her ears and angrily scrolling through social media.

After a while she calmed down - resigned to the fact she'd either have to keep trying or give up. She felt her stomach grumble, it had been a long night, she deserved comfort food if anything. Lazily moving through to the kitchen she didn't even bother to look up from her phone. She reached her arm out for the fridge, but rather than gripping a handle she felt herself grab leather. Her eyes shot up words in confusion before switching to awe as she watched her 'failed' creation ramble through her food. She removed her hand from the giant oversized jacket on the robot and tore off her headphones with a smile of disbelief.

Next door old lady Abernathy picked up the phone. That kraut next door was making a racket again and Abernathy had her knitting circle in the morning.



Present day


Interacting with @Shard @Omega Man
Anna finished the last touch on her dorm room. What originally resembled a high class hotel suite was now plastered in posters and fairy lights. In the corner of her room sat a small record player, because we're all allowed to be a little pretentious every now and then. A childhood photo of Anna and her parents sat on her desk. America was fun, and she loved all of the new experiences she had, but she still missed her parents and her hometown dearly. Anna looked over to Robostein and with a flick of her head he followed her out of the room, crouching and turning sideways to fit through the door.

She headed to the kitchen, that kid should've hopefully finished his baking by now the past few attempts smelled good, even if they were burnt. What was that kids name again? Nigel? Nero? Nathanial? Neoh? That was it. Anna made a mental note to just pair him with Keanu Reeves so as not to forget again.

"Hey fellas, how are we?" She asked, entering the kitchen. That other guy, Judah was in the room, they'd exchanged words once or twice, but only sparingly she put it down to him being just as awestruck by the whole concept of a superhero team as she was for the first while. Before she could really strike up a conversation Arrowcaster entered the room, wanting people to test his droids. That peaked Anna's interest, not the fighting, but the droids. She'd need to ask Arrowcaster later for a look at them.

She had to admit, Neoh was nothing if not a thespian. His 'no thanks' was like a Shakespearean soliloquy, it was like being in the room with Laurence Olivier himself.
"Yeah I'm afraid I might not be the best help there, and the big guy might do a bit more breaking than testing" She said, pointing with her thumb to Robostein as she spoke. "Plus, I'm eager to see if Oscar Wilde over here has mastered bakery yet" She joked, taking a seat on the kitchen worktop next to the oven. After Arrowcaster and company had left for the training room she took her opportunity to learn about her teammate.
"So, Neoh. What's your story bro?"
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@Omega Man I understand, but at this present moment I'd much rather play Tim. I feel he's the most thought out of the characters I've written and the one I'd be able to play the most. If it's really much better to play Fate I will, but I'd rather keep him as a secondary.
Posting to keep the list consistent! Pending acceptance as my switched primary instead of Cyborg.
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