Asking for Help

[Lyla]

♀ Lyla's Interest Check ♀

Hello fellow travelers. It's been a while since I've been around and have that all familiar pull to roleplay and create stories with others again. For this particular interest check, I am asking for help. Due to some of my unique hurdles (which I'll explain further down if you want to know), I have had limited success in GMing a successful roleplay while at the same time, I am having trouble finding a roleplay that I feel I would do well in. That's where you come in! If you decide to read everything and know of a roleplay that might suit me well or you're willing to GM a roleplay for me (or others if you want - I'm not against group roleplays in the least), please reply here or DM me if that's more comfortable. Thank you for taking the time to read my request.

❅ Preferences ❅

• Genres & Themes: I am currently seeking a roleplay where I can roleplay a character that helps me feel empowered. I personally tend to use roleplay as a sort of self therapy. So I will generally want a place where I can feel my character has some measure of power or control over what's going on while being supported.
  
  • Fantasy: Anything from the traditional fantasy with medium or high magic to steampunk-like worlds. I do adore airships.
  • Superhero: Especially in line with the empowerment I'm seeking, this is a great setting to pursue and I've always been a sucker for superhero shows and movies.
  • Sci-Fi: Less so than fantasy, but I do enjoy a good sci-fi story for sure - especially when I can explore things like a world-wide net, threatening the entire galaxy, or AIs.

❣ More Information ❣

For those wondering what may have sparked this strange request or want to know more about my unique challenges, this is where I'll speak about them and I'm okay being vulnerable about who I am. I am autistic and so one of my rather big disadvantages is that social norms don't make a lot of sense to me (such as, "perception is everything" has never made any sense to me) and I tend to use language a bit more literally than others so some metaphors are also lost on me. Mind you, I love who I am, but like everyone else I have my strengths and weaknesses. Another part is that I am diagnosed with PTSD, Generalized Anxiety, and Persistent Depressive Disorder and happen to be on disability because I need a caregiver to help me with certain tasks in my life. Roleplaying helps me work through and experience things I could not in my real life. If you have any questions, feel free to ask.

Otherwise, I hope to make some new friends. ^^

[Izurich]

@Lyla I'm full up on RPs at the moment, but I just want to respond to you as one autistic person to another; you are not alone, sister. I know how it feels to really struggle with metaphors, idioms, and all those things that non-autistic people just naturally 'get'. Three decades of life experience and I'm still clunky about it, the best I can do so far is having a mental list of sorts to recognize idioms and how to respond to it accordingly, but those are all a 'manual process' and not something I instinctively able to understand, as you may have felt yourself, it's mentally tiring to keep doing that, so I tend to be quite reclusive irl. Online, it's not so bad because there's more time to think about my responses (this is also the reason why I don't do voice chat).

Even with all these, I still fuck up often and unwittingly offend people, which always blindsides me when someone suddenly respond in anger or become upset, "What did I do...?? Wtf??" I feel that all too often.

I can't speak for your PTSD, Generalized Anxiety, and Persistent Depressive Disorder as I do not have them myself, but I do have minor symptoms relating to Compulsive Disorder such as always wanting certain things to be done a certain way and a strict adherence to routine, and I'll feel something's wrong if those routines aren't satisfied.

To summarize, stay strong and try to enjoy life as best as you can. I sincerely wish you'll find a partner that can appreciate you as who you are and you appreciate them as who they are.

[Lyla]

@Izurich - I appreciate the kind words. They made me smile. A lot of those things I've struggled with myself, of course ... so the empathy is most welcome. <3

[Izurich]

@Izurich - I appreciate the kind words. They made me smile. A lot of those things I've struggled with myself, of course ... so the empathy is most welcome. <3

@Lyla

The feeling is mutual, when I've been feeling like an alien that possessed a human body among my peers, it always feels good to see that I'm not alone.

Should I have a slot cleared up in the future, I'll keep you in mind as potential partners, maybe we can work something out by then.

[Lyla]

@Izurich - Sounds lovely! Feel free to PM me as well if you want - I'll admit my anxiety will probably keep me from doing it, but I'll always respond! I'll be around regardless.

[Lurking Shadow]

@Lyla

oh boy do i understand the incapability of understanding social cues most people take for granted. but I also have this cool attention deficit hyperactivity disorder to make sure i get distracted from paying attention to the things i should probably pay attention to.

I've had a few RP ideas I have been considering for a whilebut fuck if i can concentrate long enough to make something cohesive and thought out, outside of the ramblings in my head. Sometimes I can focus long enough to plot something out but I can easily get sidetracked.

I'm accustomed to doing group RPs and it sounds like you are preferring 1x1(?) but if you want I can DM you to throw some of the ideas out and see what sticks.

[Lyla]

@Lurking Shadow - Actually, I would not group roleplays either! Though I figure it might be easier to find a 1x1 roleplay, I do tend to like group roleplays quite a lot. ^^ Regardless of your preference or ideas, please feel free to PM me anything!