Have you ever sat and thought about what motivation and desire really mean?
Hey. You can call me anything you'd like, but I respond to Fen, Ego or Atom best. Writing has been a life long hobby, and motivation has been a life long struggle. I've been roleplaying in the expected fashion for over a decade now between PbP TTRPGs and casual roleplays. But over the last couple of years I've taken some impacts that have really knocked the wind out of my sails, and I've had a hard time finding a partner whom I've really jived with.
That said, I'm looking for new people to try things out with. If there was one thing I'd like to be very clear, it's this: All forays are experimental in nature, never guaranteed to stick or take off. But I will always be honest and communicative with you. It's not in my nature to leave someone in the dark, as I know what it feels like to have a connection ripped out of your heart without warning.
But I need your help too. Whoever you are who may be reading this for one reason or another. I need you to love what we're making together. I need you to push when I push so that our ideas blend together instead of just sitting in layers on top of one another.
So if you want a fine worldbuilding smoothie instead of slush and juice, I'm your man. If you don't mind poking an occasionally lazy person to make sure a post gets out every day, I'm also unfortunately your man. But, I promise you, if we're both engaged and loving what we're making together, you'll never need to poke me. I want to write; I just don't want to write alone.
Not that I don't, I have a pet project. And if someone was really interested, I'd be happy to gush about my baby for as long as they're willing to listen. But even then, the main goal is sharing that with you, not actually making anything substantial outside of a book full of "what if" notes. I'm probably looking for someone real special to actually get into that with.
So what am I interested in then? Mostly I'm a Sci-fi kind of person. Frank Herbert, Robert Heinlein, Liu Cixin, Harlan Ellison, H.P. Lovecraft; I guess that's probably the standard list for most edgy fellas who fancy themselves as broody moody dudes. But I'm tainted.
I grew up in a household that got together to watch the new Dragon Ball Z episode air every week. I have vivid memories of watching my mother playing Devil May Cry and my father painting Gunpla into the wee hours of the morning. One of my favorite pieces of media to exist on this planet is Hellsing.
I'm in love with the power fantasy. I want to write things that tell grand stories about the universe on massive scales. Individuals who can move stars and systems, massive armies clashing over spans of distance that you couldn't travel in a hundred lifetimes. Mortals earning their place among a pantheon so far removed from the true power of Godhood that a life's entire effort is revealed as only a small stepping stone on the path toward ultimate strength.
To me, this kind of stuff is best. It's fun and occasionally difficult to roleplay.
I want to make sure we're both clear about the fact that I'm not looking for a contest or some sort of arena roleplay. I'm very much the "Lets talk about what will happen in this combat scene and what the outcome will be before we write it" kind of person. Its not an ego trip. I want us to both get the satisfaction of what I'm talking about. Victory and defeat for our characters as necessary to the overall narrative we're trying to go for.
This may be running long (I'm not sure.) so I'll wrap up with some logistics. I'm in EST/EDT, but also work overnights. Ergo, I'm a vampire and occasional daywalker. My sleep schedule is probably screwed up, so realistically you can expect me around at any random time.
As I said earlier, I'm into Power Fantasy; that applies not only to Sci-fi as a generality, but also modern settings involving superhumans, supernatural elements, or if you're into it even boots on ground firearm combat settings (John Wick, The Raid, The Equalizer).
I hope to get comfy and find some people I can share my desire for fun with. See you then!
Hey. You can call me anything you'd like, but I respond to Fen, Ego or Atom best. Writing has been a life long hobby, and motivation has been a life long struggle. I've been roleplaying in the expected fashion for over a decade now between PbP TTRPGs and casual roleplays. But over the last couple of years I've taken some impacts that have really knocked the wind out of my sails, and I've had a hard time finding a partner whom I've really jived with.
That said, I'm looking for new people to try things out with. If there was one thing I'd like to be very clear, it's this: All forays are experimental in nature, never guaranteed to stick or take off. But I will always be honest and communicative with you. It's not in my nature to leave someone in the dark, as I know what it feels like to have a connection ripped out of your heart without warning.
But I need your help too. Whoever you are who may be reading this for one reason or another. I need you to love what we're making together. I need you to push when I push so that our ideas blend together instead of just sitting in layers on top of one another.
So if you want a fine worldbuilding smoothie instead of slush and juice, I'm your man. If you don't mind poking an occasionally lazy person to make sure a post gets out every day, I'm also unfortunately your man. But, I promise you, if we're both engaged and loving what we're making together, you'll never need to poke me. I want to write; I just don't want to write alone.
Not that I don't, I have a pet project. And if someone was really interested, I'd be happy to gush about my baby for as long as they're willing to listen. But even then, the main goal is sharing that with you, not actually making anything substantial outside of a book full of "what if" notes. I'm probably looking for someone real special to actually get into that with.
So what am I interested in then? Mostly I'm a Sci-fi kind of person. Frank Herbert, Robert Heinlein, Liu Cixin, Harlan Ellison, H.P. Lovecraft; I guess that's probably the standard list for most edgy fellas who fancy themselves as broody moody dudes. But I'm tainted.
I grew up in a household that got together to watch the new Dragon Ball Z episode air every week. I have vivid memories of watching my mother playing Devil May Cry and my father painting Gunpla into the wee hours of the morning. One of my favorite pieces of media to exist on this planet is Hellsing.
I'm in love with the power fantasy. I want to write things that tell grand stories about the universe on massive scales. Individuals who can move stars and systems, massive armies clashing over spans of distance that you couldn't travel in a hundred lifetimes. Mortals earning their place among a pantheon so far removed from the true power of Godhood that a life's entire effort is revealed as only a small stepping stone on the path toward ultimate strength.
To me, this kind of stuff is best. It's fun and occasionally difficult to roleplay.
I want to make sure we're both clear about the fact that I'm not looking for a contest or some sort of arena roleplay. I'm very much the "Lets talk about what will happen in this combat scene and what the outcome will be before we write it" kind of person. Its not an ego trip. I want us to both get the satisfaction of what I'm talking about. Victory and defeat for our characters as necessary to the overall narrative we're trying to go for.
This may be running long (I'm not sure.) so I'll wrap up with some logistics. I'm in EST/EDT, but also work overnights. Ergo, I'm a vampire and occasional daywalker. My sleep schedule is probably screwed up, so realistically you can expect me around at any random time.
As I said earlier, I'm into Power Fantasy; that applies not only to Sci-fi as a generality, but also modern settings involving superhumans, supernatural elements, or if you're into it even boots on ground firearm combat settings (John Wick, The Raid, The Equalizer).
I hope to get comfy and find some people I can share my desire for fun with. See you then!
