[IC] Myriad Reality

[Stabby]

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Shinji:
Eh, I don't know about that one. Pretty sure Techi wants me dead, at this point.

@souleaterfan320

I didn't say you wouldn't piss them off.

Realistically, people can get angry because they care in some capacity about whatever it is, either on a personal level, an emotional one, a psychological one, or so on and so forth.

It's not the case every time, but I believe it applies in that instance.

[souleaterfan320]

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I didn't say you wouldn't piss them off.

Realistically, people can get angry because they care in some capacity about whatever it is, either on a personal level, an emotional one, a psychological one, or so on and so forth.

It's not the case every time, but I believe it applies in that instance.

@Stabby

Shinji:

Fair enough, I suppose...

*looks to you*

.. to be completely honest with you.... I don't really want to die. Not alone, at least. I want to mean something to someone, not just metaphorically. I... I want purpose again..... thats why I felt that I needed to die. Becuase I have no purpose left to serve....

[souleaterfan320]

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*Snaps, and the portals move toward each other and merge together before warping around our group in a sphere; the portal sphere grows outward and everything that it touches is warped outside the edge of Existence*

@Techspert

*becomes static, and thus intangible, and attempts to pass through the portal without actually being tramsported anywhere*

[souleaterfan320]

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Don't do anything you'll regret! I think we can take these guys!

@Valiance

Mierno: just do it, trust me! When I tell you two when, I need you to find a way to protect the base.... things are gonna get rocky.

[Fractured]

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*becomes static, and thus intangible, and attempts to pass through the portal without actually being tramsported anywhere*

@souleaterfan320

*You are transported outside the edge of Existence*

[souleaterfan320]

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*You are transported outside the edge of Existence*

@Fractured

*within seconds,amarathine encapsulates me, and I dissapear*

*I walk out from within the amaranthine sphere around the base's planet, but on the inside, facing the base*

.... hmph.

*watches the battle closely, my arms crossed*

[Legend Begins]

Magic Steve, nice play. Looks like that'll be an effective way of dealing with these things.
*Thumbs up*

[System]

Magic Steve, nice play. Looks like that'll be an effective way of dealing with these things.
*Thumbs up*

@Legend Begins

Yeah, that was really cool! I didn't even know they could be spheres!

[Techspert]

Magic Steve, nice play. Looks like that'll be an effective way of dealing with these things.
*Thumbs up*

@Legend Begins

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Yeah, that was really cool! I didn't even know they could be spheres!

@System

*Bows*
All of the sake of the show. Now, if you'll excuse me! I must bid you adieu.
*Disappears from the feet-up*

[Source]

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*within seconds,amarathine encapsulates me, and I dissapear*

*I walk out from within the amaranthine sphere around the base's planet, but on the inside, facing the base*

.... hmph.

*watches the battle closely, my arms crossed*

@souleaterfan320

I know, it's pretty wild, isn't it?
*Watches as well*

[souleaterfan320]

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I know, it's pretty wild, isn't it?
*Watches as well*

@Source

*glances over at you, looks you up and down, then raises an eybrow at you*

and whom are you?

[Source]

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*glances over at you, looks you up and down, then raises an eybrow at you*

and whom are you?

@souleaterfan320

The name's Fairy Yellow, and I'm stuck here. I take it you're in the same boat?

[Stabby]

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Shinji:

Fair enough, I suppose...

*looks to you*

.. to be completely honest with you.... I don't really want to die. Not alone, at least. I want to mean something to someone, not just metaphorically. I... I want purpose again..... thats why I felt that I needed to die. Becuase I have no purpose left to serve....

@souleaterfan320

*Sits down on the floor.*

Not gonna lie, I've been there... sort of. Part of me is so bitter and worn down that to just go to sleep and never wake up would be half a blessing. But I don't want to go out with a whimper, I want to go out with a bang.
*Makes a finger gun and shoots it in time with my last word.*

And so I've just flat out refused to die or off myself up to this point, because even if life hurts, I've still got my fighting spirt and a desire to at least make something of this mess.

But the tricky part that follows is probably what you're struggling with, albeit in the opposite direction. Finding purpose. To keep living without direction is hard, and to find your own is even harder.

So far, the only solution I've found is to stand on some part of yourself, some key part of your identity, so that you can keep your footing until you find purpose.

*Chuckles and looks into the distance.*

Of course, everyone is different, so what works for me might not work for others. And so this process, inner world and all, is ment to help you find your own solution, one that does work for you.

[souleaterfan320]

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*Sits down on the floor.*

Not gonna lie, I've been there... sort of. Part of me is so bitter and worn down that to just go to sleep and never wake up would be half a blessing. But I don't want to go out with a whimper, I want to go out with a bang.
*Makes a finger gun and shoots it in time with my last word.*

And so I've just flat out refused to die or off myself up to this point, because even if life hurts, I've still got my fighting spirt and a desire to at least make something of this mess.

But the tricky part that follows is probably what you're struggling with, albeit in the opposite direction. Finding purpose. To keep living without direction is hard, and to find your own is even harder.

So far, the only solution I've found is to stand on some part of yourself, some key part of your identity, so that you can keep your footing until you find purpose.

*Chuckles and looks into the distance.*

Of course, everyone is different, so what works for me might not work for others. And so this process, inner world and all, is ment to help you find your own solution, one that does work for you.

@Stabby

shinji:

what if...

*looks up*

..nevermind.... I've already tried living for others. It doesnt work... I need to live for myself. But how.... thats the question....

*looks to you, then looks to the ground*

When you've fucked up as much as I have, and as severely as I have, its hard to go back. And with every issue I have.... I could be jn here forever.... the only thing keeping me sane is you, and to be truthful, sometimes i often wonder if I just made you up.

[souleaterfan320]

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The name's Fairy Yellow, and I'm stuck here. I take it you're in the same boat?

@Source

I'm the reason you're stuck here. Albeit you weren't the intended target.

[Source]

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I'm the reason you're stuck here. Albeit you weren't the intended target.

@souleaterfan320

Really? Can I, you know, leave?

[Stabby]

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shinji:

what if...

*looks up*

..nevermind.... I've already tried living for others. It doesnt work... I need to live for myself. But how.... thats the question....

*looks to you, then looks to the ground*

When you've fucked up as much as I have, and as severely as I have, its hard to go back. And with every issue I have.... I could be jn here forever.... the only thing keeping me sane is you, and to be truthful, sometimes i often wonder if I just made you up.

@souleaterfan320

Dude, if going back in any form was an option, for either those broken by an experience or those worn down to their wits, you'd see a lot less people searching for therapists.

*Sighs.*
But reality is, you can only go from stable to worse and back again if fractured is the farthest you go. Once you cross over into broken, the best you'll ever return to is cracked.

...

For reference, that was an analogy comparing a concrete foundation to ones mental heath, not descriptors of sanity.
Minor tangent aside, it would be pretty stupid to keep you here until you solved each of your issues. Would take waaaaaay too damn long, since it's practically a lifelong journey without a definitive end. I can't exactly quantify with words what I'm looking for, but it will likely help you stay on your mental feet regardless, even when you want to wallow in misery

...
Also, do you really think you could imagine half the words that have poured from my mouth?

[Source]

*Watches the conflict outside the base*

[souleaterfan320]

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Dude, if going back in any form was an option, for either those broken by an experience or those worn down to their wits, you'd see a lot less people searching for therapists.

*Sighs.*
But reality is, you can only go from stable to worse and back again if fractured is the farthest you go. Once you cross over into broken, the best you'll ever return to is cracked.

...

For reference, that was an analogy comparing a concrete foundation to ones mental heath, not descriptors of sanity.
Minor tangent aside, it would be pretty stupid to keep you here until you solved each of your issues. Would take waaaaaay too damn long, since it's practically a lifelong journey without a definitive end. I can't exactly quantify with words what I'm looking for, but it will likely help you stay on your mental feet regardless, even when you want to wallow in misery

...
Also, do you really think you could imagine half the words that have poured from my mouth?

@Stabby

shinji:
I mean, its possible. I do have 12 doctorate degrees.

[souleaterfan320]

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Really? Can I, you know, leave?

@Source

Not now, no. not till I've accomplished my intended goal.

*waits for a moment but then looks over to you*

hey, do you know anyone at this base?