It was too early to say sorry, Sodalite knew that. It was the first time that they had seen each other in just over a month, and the blue gem assured herself that Eve's hate for Sodalite only festered and increased with passing time. It wasn't going to be easy, another fact that Sodalite knew well, but her work on regaining Evenkite's trust and possible friendship was going to be slow, steady, and meticulous. Her eyes, dull and hollow, and her voice the same way, Sodalite was very well aware of Evenkite's disposition towards her at the moment. She didn't ask the blue gem.
She watched as Her former friend flipped through the pages of her book. For the smallest second, just at the beginning, she thought where was a little more promise than she had originally planned, but as she moved faster and faster, she realized that there was actually far less. She watched as she looked at the cover again. Their eyes met, the book dropped, and Evenkite walked away.
She stood there, not moving an inch. She couldn't go after Evenkite. After she was sure that Evenkite had left, she took a step forward and picked up the book. Her thumb ran across the name on the cover. She took several steps back and leaned against the door, sliding down and reaching the floor. Her knees were brought to her chest. Slowly, she took off the sack on her shoulders and proceeded to empty it out before her. All of the books and journals set out in a specific order. The furthest away from her, above all the others was Aquamarine's. She hadn't even told her plan to the leader of the Crystal Gems before leaving with Bloodstone. Everything had to be perfect and absolutely natural for Bloodstone to believe her shifting of factions. Below Aquamarine's book were the others, much in a family tree-like fashion. She had even wrote books for the humans as well, though they weren't as filled as the others.
Her eyes flickered towards the other bag, the one with her new weapons. She glared at hit, wishing to burn a hole into it to melt them all. She reached over to them, grabbing the back. With a rather loud grunt, she threw the weapons as far as she could, wanting not to see them ever again. A tear escaped her eye. She wept quietly. The Crystal Gems might now have the advantage in the war, but Sodalite was fighting against both factions for as far as she could see.