[OOC] We Are the Crystal Gems

[Akayaofthemoon]

SOOOOOOOOO since it has been so quiet, how is everyone?

[21308]

Eh, not great but I've been worse. I spoke with my mom about the fact that I think I'm dealing with depression, she wants me to talk with a doctor but I'm not particularly interested in that. I feel pathetic saying it but I've been overwhelmed with my coursework. Even though I'm taking significantly less credit hours than last semester, for some reason I'm struggling a lot more with this one. I'm as low as I've been in a while in terms of energy and motivation, and I have like a month's worth of material to read for my A&P class because I started so late, but I think I'll get through it.

[Akayaofthemoon]

@21308

I'm sorry you seem to be struggling and having a rough time. You probably should talk to someone if you think you are dealing with depression unless you think it will pass once everything has calmed down. Know I am here for you

[21308]

@Akayaofthemoon Thank you, I'm glad to know that I've got friends to talk to here. My mom really wants me to see a professional but I've learned not to trust them after past experiences plus my bouts of depression tend to go away on their own.

[Akayaofthemoon]

@21308

If you know they pass than there is no point. We will all be here to support you.

[21308]

@Akayaofthemoon Yeah... I hope my mom doesn't force the issue. I think maybe it could be helpful if I came clean to my professors about it but I dunno.

[Akayaofthemoon]

@21308

Do what you feel is right or better for you and let all the other negatives go. It isn't worth psyching yourself out

[Loony]

@21308 Don't feel pathetic saying so. Depression is a bitch to deal with and not a lot of people realize it's a lot more than feeling blue. I'd get a mode and mean of four hours of sleep before I got my first meds and couldn't focus or do any work and at one point I didn't even feel overwhelmed. Just tired. Oh so tired. I sort of just accepted defeat and stopped trying.

Awful.

Little me would never do this. By thunder have I changed, and not in a good way. I like to think I'm doing better now, and I'm pretty sure I was, but I feel like I'm lapsing back...

But enough about me. Anyways, I've only been in high school so take what I say with a grain of salt, but I find most teachers here and pretty understanding. I'd say 3/4 on a general basis, and 3/4 of that 1/4 still accept it rather than act out. I did feel much better coming clean except for one teacher; ironically, my psychology teacher. But even so, it just...I don't know, it did feel better. Go with your gut instinct. If you think they'll accept or understand, tell them. And if you feel like they'd react badly, perhaps keep it in.

Wish you the best, man.

[21308]

@Loony That's exactly what's been happening for me. Like for some reason my sleep schedule has been totally out of whack since this semester started, getting more than maybe 5 hours of sleep is almost impossible for me, which leads to me getting nothing productive done in class and feeling like crap about myself all day. It really kills my motivation and now I feel buried under all the stuff I have to do, but I'm still going to keep trying.

[Loony]

@21308 That's a very common symptom of depression (or oversleeping, it's usually one or the other) that most folk don't know about or acknowledge, and honestly for me it's the most difficult to have dealt with because it just feeds into all of the other symptoms and makes you feel awful. I get it completely, and it really, really sucks. Maybe our experiences aren't the same but I can empathize and sympathize. I really hope that you fight through this soon. No, not hope. I'm sure you will soon. You're a lot stronger than I am. *Hugs*

[21308]

@Loony Aw thanks little loon *hug* Yeah the sleep issues and constant exhaustion are what's really been hurting me lately, for the reasons you stated. I'll definitely keep fighting this as much as I can, for my family and for all of you if not for myself. And I think you're underestimating yourself, you're very strong.

[Loony]

@21308 I'm sure you'll be able to fight it. ' v '

And honestly? I'm the weakest Kurd I know.

[21308]

@Loony Well, other Kurds must be near superhuman because you're one of the strongest people I know.

[Loony]

@21308 They probably are. I think my mother and father and sister all are. I'm disappointingly weak.

[21308]

@Loony I know my opinion probably isn't worth much since I haven't met you in person but from what I've seen you really don't seem weak. You have a life-ruining medical condition and are still managing to pull through, and from the sound of things you're doing a lot better than I was at your age. There's a very good chance you're selling yourself short.

[Akayaofthemoon]

@Loony

You are selling yourself short my friend. I haven't seen a stronger person

[21308]

Hey I have a question. Are the earpieces two-way or can our characters only hear from them?

[Akayaofthemoon]

@21308

I never asked Kronshi but I am assuming they can be both ways

[Akayaofthemoon]

I read this on my Facebook and it made me cheer up a bit since I haven't been doing good and it also reminded me a lot of what we all have been talking about here

[21308]

@Akayaofthemoon I've seen that before but it's always very nice to hear. I'm definitely doing to keep putting the past behind me and moving forward, no matter how many times I've failed. Today I have the only class that I'm actually confident about, everything should go well.