[IC] [MATURE] The Vampire RP

[Aisling]

@CountDracula
((I am back. My daughter is home and has the baby. Let's RP!))

[CountDracula]

@Aisling (Great :) )

[Aisling]

@CountDracula

"I think that the first thing is not to get upset over talking about it. Specialists are not the ones that can see things and to understand how others feel. All of them go to school and use bookcases. Bookcases didn't help my friend because the so called doctors couldn't see outside of the bookcases. I helped a friend with my method and she is much better with her PTSD and her Epilepsy. She does much better now. If you want me to help you, I will. But not if you get upset over me saying something.'

[CountDracula]

@Aisling Dracula had calmed down a bit. "I've studied psychiology and psychiatry. I'm one of those specialists... and I can tell you that most of us can think outside their books. For what other reason does it take us ten hours at least to just find a diagnosis? If we can get it all from books? Most of us know that humans are complex, and that those books can be helpful, but they are everything but perfect. - Psychology and psychiatry are both very young sciences. They have only emerged in the late 19th century. And imagine you had just invented the cabinet for spices: In the beginning, you have two drawers: One for 'sweet' and one for 'not sweet'. It is only over the years that you'll find out that you can differentiate the tastes of spices even more... and it's the same with psychology and psychiatry. In the beginning, we had 'not mentally ill' and 'mentally ill'... by the way, it is a symptom of PTSD that you get upset easily."

[Aisling]

@CountDracula
"That is very true but what good has getting upset? It makes you more ill. It messes with your brain more. Raises your blood pressure and make those around you uncomfortable. Is any of that do any good for anyone?" Mystique asked simply.

[CountDracula]

@Aisling "It is much, much better than suppressing my emotions. What good does suppressing your emotions have?" Dracula asked. "That might help you for a short time, but on the long run, it will make your disorders much worse. By the way, vampires don't have blood pressure... our hearts aren't beating."

[Aisling]

@CountDracula
"Oh..I didn't realize that vampires didn't have Blood Pressures. What you need to do when you are getting upset is to put that energy into something productive. Start out with writing down what you are upset about and what you can do to change it. Then next time it happens you take a deep breath and think about what you can do about it.
Give me an example about what makes you upset and I'll help you change your thinking about it."

[CountDracula]

@Aisling "You know what?" Dracula asked. "That is e-xact-ly the same things that the specialists who can't think outside of their bookcases tell you to do... it's the things that I've been trying for years. I've been living with this for 568 years. Thanks, but this won't help me. In fact, all this 'have you tried [put in well-known method that every therapist will tell you to try here]' can get a bit annoying over the years... I know that you're trying to help me. But you should know that I've tried a lot. Really a lot. As I've said, I've seen 17 different specialists and been to mental hospitals for over ten years in total... the nazis actually wanted to kill me because of this. There are tons and tons of methods I've tried... especially when they are as common as writing things down."

[Aisling]

@CountDracula
"Your specialists must be better than those in the US. I am sorry to trouble you, Count Dracula." Mystique went back to her drawing and not speaking.

[CountDracula]

@Aisling "I doubt that those in the US are as bad as what people say of them... at least, the DSM - the book that is used by therapists all around the world to diagnose illnesses - is being written by the American Assosiation of Psychologists, and it is one of the best books out there," Dracula explained. "You don't have to be sorry... I'm like a time bomb. I can explode at any time... it's a reason why they classify me as 'psychologically disabled'."

[Aisling]

@CountDracula
"That's ok." Mystique spoke softly as she continue to draw. She pulled out her colored pencils to fill in the picture with.

[CountDracula]

@Aisling "The hardest part is when you have to hold a speech of encouragement... when you really want to hide in a corner and cry." Dracula put on a CD. "This perfectly describes my feelings."

The song

[Aisling]

@CountDracula

Mystique listened but she was unmoved for she was near to tears herself but they would not shed. Not here or anywhere else where they could be seen.
"That is an interesting song, Count Dracula. I guess that you have to make do with what you can do...... Perhaps you should.... forget it...."

[CountDracula]

@Aisling Dracula shook his head. "For that, I'd have to repress it, but repressing it isn't good at all for your soul... some day, the thoughts will come back, and then, they'll be stronger than ever before. Believe me. I've tried this as well..."

[CountDracula]

@Aisling Dracula noticed that Mystique was not feeling good. "You don't have to hide your tears here... none of us will hurt you, I promise."

[Aisling]

@CountDracula

"I am fine actually. I just can't cry in front of people. I am what is called a silent cryer." she spoke softly as she continued to color.

[CountDracula]

@Aisling "You've got nothing to lose if you cry in public," Dracula said. "I have to fear being assassinated all the time... when I cry in public, I give assassins a hint to my weaknesses."

[Aisling]

@CountDracula
"I know that but the tears won't come. I have my own weaknesses and not being able to cry is just one of them.' Mystique looked up at Count Dracula. Her eyes were full of tears that refuse to fall.
"That is just the way I am made."

[CountDracula]

@Aisling "I feel sorry for that..." Dracula looked at the sketchbook. "But I see you've found another way of dealing with it."

[Aisling]

@CountDracula
"Yes I have while I am in public view." she spoke softly as she went to the window.
"I must have things to keep my mind and hands occupied at times like this."