[OOC] Conspiracy-Closed

[dabombjk]

@king tai
yeawhat is Donovan doin again like some zen training thing?

[dabombjk]

@wick
hey hope your having fun! if you ever can post this week, I left eden a chance to jump in at anytime! if not we all understand and miss ya!

[King Tai]

@king tai
yeawhat is Donovan doin again like some zen training thing?

@dabombjk

lol something like that. He's basically studying under a martial arts master, Empath/ emotion manipulator. She's training him to not be too much of an asshole and discipline him mentally and physically. Basically to have more self control, have more understanding of others feelings around him, and to have a more adaptable use of his shadows and other skills than to always be so brutal

[dabombjk]

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lol something like that. He's basically studying under a martial arts master, Empath/ emotion manipulator. She's training him to not be too much of an asshole and discipline him mentally and physically. Basically to have more self control, have more understanding of others feelings around him, and to have a more adaptable use of his shadows and other skills than to always be so brutal

@King Tai

you can train the asshole out of someone? that will be interesting to see the result of for sure. what is his backstory anyways? I know when I first started this rp kyle called him a rapist?

[King Tai]

@dabombjk You'll have to read this. He explains what he went through.

Parts of his life that effected him he most

Kage-Freak / Shiver

Shiver's heart started racing and she jumped back against the wall. She was scared to death for a moment. Shiver was curious. "How can you do that to people? How can you think it's fun or funny. It's not a game!" Shiver reached over to slap him.

Raising an eyebrow and chuckling after getting slapped. "As amusing as it is, I've grown accustom to sneaking in places mostly because I was always 'not allow in' places. And it's my usual way of traveling and I didn't feel like getting your permission to come in...so...I helped myself. Not that I wanted to scare you, love."

Shiver stared at him. "Not your shadow traveling I mean how can you rape people? Don't you know how badly it hurts someone? And don't call me love you don't get to do that. In case you don't know. Even though you didn't do it you still do it to others. Don't you realize what you are doing to their minds? The physical pain heals but the mind....I'm scared all the time! I need to look ugly so that men won't notice me. I don't know whether or not I should just give them what they want so they won't hurt me or not." Shiver had no idea when the tears had started streaming down her face. "I'm not okay and I don't know how to fix me."

Donovan listened to her when she corrected him about what she was talking about. When mentioning and asking how he could rape people and asking him if he know what it does to people, the mental trauma, Donovan had looked away and gave a "hmph" when she said she didn't know how to be fixed. Donovan thought about something and sighed and that cocky smirk he had, went away "I know that pain all too well......and then some.....you're asking do I know how that feels and what it does to people? I know every detail of how it feels."

Shiver looked confused. "If you know then why do you do it to them?" She whispered this trying to figure out how a victim became the abuser. "Who hurt you?"

Donovan gave a little chuckle after what he said and the response Shiver gave "It's not that simple.....you have no idea what hell I've been through in my life....even if I told you, it wouldn't make a difference. I'm already fucked up and I don't think there's no reversing that." he said going around the question of who hurt him. "I was nothing but trash to them...and they were right..." he said looking down at the floor.

Shiver still felt really tense around him. "Look, I'm sorry I hit you. I shouldn't have." She sat down on the desk next to where he was standing. "I think you could be a good person. You don't have to be trash unless you want to be."

"Good person huh? If I could be or was ever a good person or had that potential, why was I mentally, physically, emotionally, and sexually abused by my parents since I was three. If I'm so good, why did I lose my virginity to my parents....both of them? Do you know...that they took turns abusing me and tormenting me sexually. I was beaten, raped, verbally abused, locked up, ignored, and basically treated like shit my whole life. I endured that until I was 15, when I had enough and killed them....and after that, I went to my next hell." he said looking her in the eyes "And your hit....I told you before I can't feel pain...."

Shiver looked at him in stunned silence for a moment. She didn't know what to say to that. Three years old for twelve years? Shiver stood up and as scared as she was she reached out and hugged him tightly. "I'm so sorry that you had bastards for parents. I can only imagine." She cried for him as she hugged him."Can you feel anything? Can you feel my arms around you or is it just pain that you can't feel?"

Donovan was wondering what she was about to do when she got up. The first thing that came to mind was her hitting him or trying to harm him like before but was a little surprised by the hug she gave him. What really got him was that she was crying for him which was something he's never experienced before. He didn't know how to react to the sympathy she was showing towards his pain. "It's fine....what happened in the past is in the past.....well...that's what I want to believe but I kept that hell in my heart for the longest. And.....yeah....I can feel your warmth. Pain is the only thing I can't feel. In fact....These powers I have, I was never born with them...they were given to me." he said not really hugging back but placed his hand on the top of her head gently.

"Given to you? Where did you get them? It's not like you can get bitten by a spider and poof climb the skyline like it's no biggie." Shiver realized her arms were still around him but at his waist now and she stepped back. "Why do I have a bad feeling about how you got these powers?"

Donovan stared into Shiver's eyes for a moment and then gave a large grin. "Since you asked, you'll have to endure it too. I got my powers surgically. After killing my fucking parents I was sent to a juvenile detention center. But....the place was nothing more than a front for a terrorist group. The so-called counselor, he was a doctor who specialized in meta experimentations. He was trying to turn humans into meta-humans he can control and make weapons out of. I was his favorite. I endured excruciating tests and surgeries. day in and day out spliced and cut open. He surgically made me to where I could no longer feel pain so that I wouldn't let pain hinder me. I lived in a damn kennel as nothing but a number...a test subject. I was even given the power to use shadows." Donovan explained. "I was put against my friends that were test subjects like me and forced to kill them to test my powers. and ritually, I went through mental programming so they could control me. I was nothing but an animal."

Shiver was praying that he was lying to her but somehow she knew he wasn't. "How...I..." In typical Shiver fashion when she couldn't express herself in words she let her emotions tell him. She reached up and kissed him softly on the lips and put her arms around him. "I don't understand humans as much as I thought that I did. I would never have guessed that they could be so cruel. No one deserves what you have gone through." She looked him in the eyes.

Taking the surprising kiss, Donovan averted his eyes "Well....you experienced how cruel they were the other night....I know...I do some real fucked up stuff but after what I've been through, I promised myself that I'd never let anyone have that much power over me ever again. I don't mind being a hero but...at times, I don't like authority.........." he thought for a moment "Never shared that shit with anyone before.....don't go telling me story to people...don't need a fucking pity party from everyone."

Shiver nodded. "I won't tell everyone don't worry. I do want to help you though. Could you do something for me? Could you stop raping people? And I don't mean just let your shadow doppelganger do it. I mean completely stop. Please? Think about what it did to you and don't pass it on."

She could hear Enyo coming and she knew how well that would go. "Hurry, go before Enyo finds us talking. She will think you were bothering or upsetting me because of what you do."
Shiver let go of him and smiled."I'll talk to you later ok?"

Donovan stared for a moment and her request was a difficult one. He sighed "You know what you're asking of me?.....shit....don't get mad if I have a relapse. pussy is not easy to give up taking...And yeah...guess I'll see ya then...kinda wanted to say hey to that sexy Enyo gal too....anywho, see ya....babes" he said using his shadow to leave once again with a joker grin. After leaving and headed to his room, he came back out of his shadow, leaning on his wall Don......what the fuck??? he said to himself about what just transpired.

[dabombjk]

@king tai
well ok then. how do you think kyle and Donovan would react seeing eatchother again? like would a fight start? trash talk?

[King Tai]

@dabombjk

I don't know, we will just have to find out. Donovan is unpredictable. He still will be after his training :P

[dabombjk]

@dabombjk

I don't know, we will just have to find out. Donovan is unpredictable. He still will be after his training :P

@King Tai

I vote Kyle will be sassy as shit, if eden is there she will calm him down, if not Kieran will take over and teleport them somewhere to fight

[King Tai]

@dabombjk

He may kind of weird you out the next time they meet.

[dabombjk]

@dabombjk

He may kind of weird you out the next time they meet.

@King Tai

cant wait brotha

[dabombjk]

@dabombjk

He may kind of weird you out the next time they meet.

@King Tai

I just think its kool wick was able to post tonight

[King Tai]

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I just think its kool wick was able to post tonight

@dabombjk

But that's how Wick rolls. She can make shit happen.

[BlackPanther]

Anubis hides in bushes because he's creepy like that

Also phone typing still sucks no matter how long I've been doing it >.<

[dabombjk]

Anubis hides in bushes because he's creepy like that

Also phone typing still sucks no matter how long I've been doing it >.<

@BlackPanther

Oh god! The dreaded edema! Did you misspell Eden or is there a character called edema? Because that sounds like a terribly powerful enemies
Also slightly gross

[BlackPanther]

@dabombjk
.....that would be autocorrect and me being tired

[dabombjk]

I don't believe you @blackpanther I believe you just made a new character. You are a goddess. Poseidon quivers before you!!!

[BlackPanther]

@dabombjk
....
I'd be concerned but I can't keep my eyes open and some people on Facebook poked my pet peeve button.
..so now off to bed

[dabombjk]

That moment when all you want to do after a hard day is relax, but crippling anxiety and fear of having to talk to people keep you from calming down
@wick@blackpanther

[Wick]

@dabombjk

OKay, are you aright?

[dabombjk]

@dabombjk

OKay, are you aright?

@Wick

Yea I just don't wanna work tomorrow cause people I work with tomorrow piss me off and they are gonna catch these hands if they piss me off, which then makes me think what would happen if I lost my job, which makes me think about what I would do if I was homeless. I would prob do favors for food........