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7 yrs ago
Current Hey, all! I will be away on a week-long camping trip from 8/7 to 8/13 and won't be able to respond to RP during that time. I will send replies as soon as I return. Happy summer!
7 yrs ago
Sorry for my disappearance! Out of town for a couple days; thought I'd have internet but I thought wrong. Will post as soon as I can!
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7 yrs ago
That feel-good feeling when you catch up on RPs. For everyone currently writing with me; thank you for your patience. You're all wonderful :)
7 yrs ago
I finally put something in the bio section of this thing! I even made it pretty, ooooh!
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7 yrs ago
RP'd with me, been gone for a while, and wanting to start something up again? Don't be shy; I'm active!
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Why, Hello There!


Welcome to my nifty little hovel! *bows* Who you'll find here is an aspiring writer with over 15 years of various RP experience. I prefer plot-driven fantasy and/or supernatural RPs with a romantic twist. I write from the mid-casual to high-advanced levels and am fairly open-minded when it comes to mature content. I am always looking for new RP partners, so if any of this sounds interesting to you, don't be shy!

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What I Look For in an RP Partner


You must be *this tall* to write with me. Please be over 18.

One liners are the devil. Though I prefer literate quality over quantity (especially when it comes to dialogue), if you're the type that practically writes a novel per post, I'll love you forever. If you can only crank out a couple of paragraphs but they engage me, I'll be just as excited. All I ask is a touch of effort.

Get your chit chat on. I like to make friends with my RP partners, so if you're the type that loves OOC chat, by all means yammer away! I also LOVE discussing the RP, so please please please don't hesitate to speak your mind if you're bored, stuck, have an idea, or just want to be silly in OOC with your characters. I am remarkably flexible and would rather rewrite scenes and/or scrap weeks/months of RP for something new than watch one die due to lack of communication.

Leave you slice-of-life, fluff, and tavern RP at the door. I have nothing against these things--in fact I expect any and all of these things in my RP and then some because that's the stuff of developing character relationships. However, I need more--conflict, a purpose, a goal, some sort of basic storytelling device to keep the RP going. Essentially, I need direction through plot; I get lost and anxious if all our characters ever do is talk.

Own your flakiness. We've all done it--ditched an RP without a word. It happens. I understand. But please tell me if you're just not feeling it or if you need to take a break for any reason. I am incredibly patient and have picked RPs back up that have been under hiatus for months and even years. Thus, your absence would be just that--absence. If you are someone that has suddenly ditched without a word and want to return, hit me up! I promise I won't gripe or fuss; I'm just happy to RP.

Get it--got it--good! If I haven't scared you away by this point, please drop me a PM! Even if you don't have a specific idea in mind, I am more than happy to help you brainstorm something awesome.

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My Roleplays

Thread RP

Rising Winds and Shifting Sands (Active) with Nemaisare

Underneath (Active) with Nemaisare

The Lost Princess (Inactive) with Aelin

Crimson Moons (Inactive) with Love Dove

Vanish Into Light (Inactive) with El Taco Taco

The Empress of the Underground (Inactive) with mamagermany

A Journey for Peace (Inactive) with Arrayah

PM RP Partners

CoyoteLovely

Light the Dark

Burning Daisies

Hellish Hin

Jinny

NOTE: Avatar artwork is NOT mine (I wish it was)! It is Thorns by Candra. Used without permission.

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"Midnight" by Coldplay was the song that got me through Jeron's first flashback scene :)

Here's the lyrics:

In the darkness before the dawn
In the swirling of the storm
When I'm rolling with the punches and hope is gone
Leave a light a light on

Millions of miles from home
In the swirling swimming on
When I'm rolling with the thunder
But bleed from thorns
Leave a light a light on
Leave a light a light on

In the darkness before the dawn
In the darkness before the dawn
Leave a light a light on
Leave a light a light on
Jeron felt the cool, hard steel of the pliers against his fingers. He squeezed his eyes shut, bracing for the pain that was sure to come. Fear had paralyzed him; he knew this Zhentarim guard would not stop until he was maimed beyond repair. How was he to live without his fingers? That's right -- he would not live. He would die on this day, chained to a post, his life viciously delivered like a prize to a thirsty, vengeful crowd.

He could hear the crowd, could almost feel their energy. Kindness was lost to him, not to be trusted, for he knew that gentle mothers, smiling grandpas, kindly wives, and thoughtful men stood amongst those watching him. Every village had good people, but there was nothing wholesome about yearning for the death of someone else, someone they had never met, someone that had done nothing to them or their families. To Jeron, there was no such thing as a good person; he had seen the darkness in everyone he had met. Would his suffering satisfy them at least? Would it bring this crowd a sort of comfort to know that someone who fit the physical description of evil was dying before their very eyes? Somehow, he could not find solace in knowing that his violent end would bring peace to their hearts.

Memories always helped with the pain and the fear, at least this was what he had come to discover in past experiences. Perhaps, by drifting back and away from this place, the horror of what he was about to endure would not be so agonizing. So he thought of that night, years ago, when the full moon was so bright its light snuffed out the stars around it. The breeze had been refreshing relief to what was a hot summer day. The meadow was alive with the night -- of crickets serenading the breeze, of the distant call of a hound, of the wind whispering through the surrounding trees that were but large black shapes in the shadows...

Jeron had only been eight years old at that time. His body ached with the bruises his human mother inflicted on him, fresh ones slowly blossoming over fading ones. Whenever she got to drinking, which was almost every night, she would remind him quite thoroughly of how much he had ruined her life just by being born. Her being drunk was both a curse and a blessing, for it not only brought out her anguish but, after some time, it left her sleepy and delirious in the tiny shack in the woods they -- no, she -- called home. Jeron would make a habit of sneaking out of the house after these times; a great risk, for if he was discovered, he would surely be killed. For some reason, however, seeing his mother sleep on the floor by a puddle of her own vomit was almost worse than suffering through her beatings; he had to get away.

He could smell the natural sweetness in the air, the calming aroma of nightblossoms. They were small white flowers that resembled violets, holding true to their namesake of only blooming at night. Nightblossoms were a rare flower; few souls were lucky enough to see their pale beauty in the darkness. On this night, the entire meadow near Jeron's home was covered in them.

The meadow almost seemed to glow, the full moon illuminating every pale petal that yielded to the silvery light. Jeron walked slowly through the meadow, the tall-stemmed flowers brushing against his waist. His skin was as dark as the stems, his silver hair also glowing under the moonlight. He paused in the middle of the field, tilting his head up to the sky, and wondered what it would take to touch the moon. Could the moon pull him into its safe embrace if he reached it, away from his mother, from people, from the nearby village, from the beatings, the fear, and the constant hiding? Tentatively, he began to reach up towards the sky...

And he heard a little gasp a few yards in front of him.

Jeron, young as he was, snapped his arm back to his side and immediately crouched down, doing his best to hide among the flowers. Unfortunately, he had already been spotted. A young human girl, approximately his age, slowly sat up from the ground. Wisps of frizzy blonde hair, loosened from beneath the scarf she wore around her head, waved gently in the breeze around her face. She stared wide-eyed at him with round, blue eyes that were shiny from crying; her freckled cheeks were stained with tears.

At that point in his life, before his mother's death, the loneliness, and the unpleasant encounters with people, Jeron had thought her the most terrifying creature he had ever seen... and the most captivating.

Maura would change his life forever. Oh, how he missed her...


The pain did not come.

Surely Jeron hadn't immersed himself in the memory that deeply, though he wished he had. He could no longer feel the pliers against his skin, and he wondered what the delay was. He dared to crack open one eye, seeing the crowd below him in utter chaos.

Both eyes snapped open. Jeron watched with shock as villagers pushed and bumped against each other, everyone in a panic to get away. Many were retching, some seemed so disoriented they could barely keep on their feet. It was as though a sickness had swept across the crowd in one fell swoop. He had never seen anything like this before, so he could only suspect that magic was at work.

He strained against his bonds once more, worried that whatever spell had been inflicted on these people would reach him, too. He knew enough of magic to do small, simple things, like summon a flame of light at his fingertips. However, his current state of weakness and his inexperience with magic was enough that he could not muster the strength to reach into the Weave to summon the power to set himself free.

The trembling thud of a body hitting the floorboards brought Jeron's attention to his captor... and the being that felled him. Seeing her stand on the platform with a guard at her feet reminded him of another night in his past, of when he was twelve, bound to a post in a similar fashion, captured for the very first time. It was Maura who had felled that guard, a man who was a father to a classmate of hers that she had grown up with. Magic crackled at her fingertips. She had looked just as frightened then as she did the very first time she and Jeron had met, but never, not even then, had Jeron been the source of that fear.

But this wasn't Maura. This was someone else entirely, someone with a dagger and unknown intentions. Jeron tugged, squirmed, and strained against his bonds anew as she approached, wondering if she was a villager fed up with the guard's theatrics who had decided to take advantage of this strange situation to kill him herself.

His struggling ceased when she applied the dagger instead to the ropes binding him. He watched in shock as the ropes frayed and parted before settling his gaze on her, almost seeing Maura's determined look in this woman's eyes. Maura, too, had struggled desperately to free him all those years ago.

The woman's whispered words left him bewildered. Here he was thinking she was about to kill him and she was worried about him killing her?! There was no time to think, however, only act when the last rope was cut. Living his entire life in hiding and on the run, Jeron never passed up an opportunity for escape. Thus, as soon as he felt his limbs loosen from his bonds, he ignored his savior completely and took off in a dead run... or at least tried to. He was badly injured and weak, so he had only managed a few steps before he staggered, fell, and tumbled off the platform.

It was a wonder he didn't accidentally stab himself with the dagger he was barely aware of holding. The pain of falling was intense, but adrenaline was a powerful thing. It numbed him from his body's pain and fueled him to stagger forward as quickly as he was capable of...

...except he did not run along the road that lead him out of town. No, instead he ran straight towards the jail cell. He was not leaving without his knapsack. It was not the artifact he had stolen that had him concerned, but a very precious journal he had kept since he was young. It was the only thing left in this world that he cared about, and he would rather die than leave without it.

Those guards that weren't sick or distracted by the villagers were after the person that had killed their comrade. Essentially, he couldn't have chosen a more perfect time to find his things and sneak out of Shadowdale, except he knew exactly what happened to the last person that tried to rescue him. He had low expectations for his savior's survival.

Besides, the villagers were beginning to calm down and the remaining Zhentarim guards were beginning to come to their senses. Even with her distraction, it would be difficult to leave here. Jeron would need some help getting his things.

So he ignored the jail cell, instead running along an alley parallel to the woman's path. He had no idea what he would do once he had gotten her attention; no one had ever taught him to fight and Maura had never managed to teach him defensive magic. Still, she had saved him, which was something no one ever did, and he would not let her kindness result in her death.

Frantically, Jeron scrambled over several crates and barrels stacked against a bakery to access the roof. It was painful; his breath ran ragged from the agony, but it did not stop him from letting out a sharp whistle.

As soon as he heard the piercing noise, he regretted his decision. He never called attention to himself, so surely he had gone mad, but it worked. Half of the guards chasing the woman stopped to look up. Jeron immediately flattened himself on his stomach; an arrow whizzed by his head. Hopefully his stupid stunt gave his savior the chance to safely escape. Now he had to figure out how to do the same. At least he was on the roof; he felt safer in high places. The arrows wouldn't reach him so long as he didn't stand up, and the other Zhents would have to climb up the roof to get to him, essentially creating a bottleneck. Still, without an escape plan, his prospects of leaving this rooftop alive were slim. Grimly, he clutched at his dagger and waited for the first guard...
Magic Magnum,

Yeah, when it comes to storytelling I'm not very good at thinking on my feet at all, so that could be a big reason why I'm so nervous around in-game RP. When I'm writing on my own, it typically takes me forever (a couple hours) to write a few good pages simply because I'm constantly pausing to re-read my work and to ponder different scenarios. In-game RP can be fast-paced to the point of being stressful, especially when there are several people involved. Not only do I have to worry about what my character should say on the fly but I also have to worry about what that character will also do, which can be madness in the chaos of tells and emotes.

Your response was very enlightening; thanks :)
Pachamac,

Thanks for your response! A lot of in-game RP I've experienced involves a bunch of folks sitting/standing around at a tavern/bar/pub/public place and having a conversation, but sometimes someone will throw an event in which more action happens. I agree, it is an interesting concept, and I wish I was better at it than I am. I have a hard time immersing myself in my character enough in-game to flawlessly "mingle", yet it's easier with text-based roleplays. Sometimes my shyness feels like a true curse, haha!
I love playing MMORPGs. I’ve been bouncing around various games for years. As I play, I conjure up intricate backstories for my characters and I’m always eager to share those ideas with others.

However, I just can’t get into the groove of in-game RP.

Am I the only one that feels this way?

I’ve tried in-game RP a few times via a friend and I get so nervous every time. I feel like the shy kid stepping into a huge party: I’m so desperate to fit in but I lack the skills and confidence to do so. Lately I get so nervous thinking about it that I make up excuses not to RP in-game at all. Sometimes my in-game RP turns out great and I’m always so elated to have successfully managed “social roleplay.” More often than not, however, I’m so nervous that my character ends up saying the wrong thing, performing the wrong action, I cannot keep up with the conversation at hand, or I feel so small and lost that anything my character does is drowned out by the actions and dialogue of more interesting characters. I’m typically and understandably never invited back to RP again.

However, when it comes to forum/IM/email RP, I flourish. I am an aspiring writer, so I love being descriptive. In this format, I am in my element, so roleplaying with multiple people through written text isn’t nearly so daunting. I can weave my characters’ backstories in an interesting plot without worrying about messing up, and if I do write something incorrectly I’m not so mortified/embarrassed. All of my best RP moments have been through AIM or through email. I feel less restricted in this format. With in-game RP, I don’t feel like I’m writing at all, which makes it difficult for me to get into it.

Am I the only MMO player/roleplayer who feels this way? I have a few gamer RP friends who are fantastic writers, but they (understandably) prefer to roleplay in-game. Successful in-game RP can be a wonderful experience, so I envy those that can work with it so comfortably. I just feel like there’s something wrong with me or my RP skills that I can’t bring my forum RP creativity into the virtual world like my friends can or that I get so nervous about the whole thing when they’re nothing but excited. I simply don't like in-game RP. I understand that my friends and I simply have different RP styles – they prefer in-game RP, I prefer forum/IM RP, and I should find like-minded individuals to roleplay with. I just want to know if I’m the only gamer that loves RP but doesn’t like doing it in-game…

I guess I need reassurance that I’m not too much of an oddball in this regard *laughs*

Thank you so much for reading this!

*bows*
"This, my fine citizens, is what happens when anyone tries to steal from the Zhentarim."

The guard stepped around his captive in the Shadowdale town square, taking slow, deliberate steps like a cat circling his prey just before striking. A small cluster of men, women, and children gathered around on that bright late-summer afternoon as they watched the scene unfold. Every face wore a grim expression, tension held in every body, some children cringing into the embraces of their parents. Whether the crowd was forced to watch or were spellbound by some morbid curiosity, it was difficult to tell. The only certainty was in the action and the message it conveyed.

Tied to a post was a Drow elf... or was he a half-drow? His pointed ears and silvery-white hair were unmistakably Drow. His skin was a smoky grey instead of the typical black pitch. He seemed taller than an average Drow, though his position on his knees with his hands bound above his head to the post made that assessment difficult to gauge. If anyone had bothered to approach him, to push back the strands of hair dampened from sweat and blood from his face, they would encounter startlingly-human brown eyes instead of the unsettling red of a typical Drow as well as the shadow of facial hair beginning to grow on his slender face.

Jeron Mel'velen, however, kept his head bowed, tried his best to turn his face away from the crowd. The knowledge of all of those eyes on him, looking at him, was almost as bad as the injuries he had sustained since being foolishly caught by the Zhentarim in the area. He had been raised to believe he was a monster, that if anyone looked at him, he would die. The older scars that marked his body were indication that such a notion was reinforced; this was not the first time he had been captured, though this was probably the first time he had been for a reason other than his appearance.

Jeron was stripped away to nothing but his dark trousers; never had his body been so exposed to anyone. He could hear the frightened, confused whispers around him, each sound a catalyst to his death sentence. His back throbbed and stung from the lashes he had received just moments ago, the weight of his back pressed against the post a prolonged agony. Every muscle ached from the beating he had suffered, and every intake of breath was a reminder, sharp like a knife, of his broken rib. How was he going to get out of this one?

In the past, in another land, his captors had been so quick to kill him that one of them didn't realize he was close enough for Jeron to grab the dagger strapped to his belt. The time before, in yet a different place, the ropes that bound him weren't quite tight enough. And the time before, in another town still, he had been young enough to have unwittingly caught the eye of a guard with a desire of a certain type of young flesh, and those terrifying, painful, and humiliating moments had also presented a chance for a breakaway opportunity...

Jeron was a nomad, never staying in one place for more than a day. He found it a necessary survival skill. Had he known that the Dalelands were overtaken by the Zhentarim, he would have stayed clear of these lands. Perhaps the signs were there and he had been too distracted, too foolish, by the possibility of the treasures he would find at Elminster's dwelling. Whatever the case, he had been spotted, was unable to evade the Zhentarim, had not found the chance to slip from their clutches. Now he firmly believed that he would die this day.

How strange to be so hated yet still have such a strong desire to live...

"This... creature," the guard said, gesturing with an extended arm to Jeron as he engaged his audience, "thought he could enter your lands, our lands, and take something from us. The public beating he received, the lashings... any one of you will receive the same fate if you ever dare such a thing. But I am compassionate; I have given you all a chance to see first-hand what disrespecting Bane and the Zhentarim will do. However, we now have a bigger issue in our hands."

The guard -- messy brown hair and a cruel sneer -- turned to face Jeron. "This creature is Drow. I'm sure you've all heard of their terrifying reputation. Such creatures are like ants -- emerging from the ground, swarming around their prey, leaving nothing behind in their terrifying wake. Where there is one, there are many nearby."

Jeron shuddered. This, at least, was familiar. Trying to explain that he was only half-drow, that he had been raised on the surface, that he had never seen a true Drow elf was a futile experience he had gone through many times in the past. He had long ago determined that humans were incapable of listening to reason when faced with irrational fear. Still, he hated being associated with the likes of beings that had done terrible things he would never have the courage to do. He hated suffering over this misconception. And now it seemed that he would die over it.

"Today, you will witness an execution," the Zhentarim guard said almost mirthfully. "But this Drow won't die right away, not when we can extract some information from the monster. The whereabouts of other nearby Drow, perhaps? Or how about the location of an entrance to the Underdark? Even killing him for the sake of killing him is deserving for the likes of him. Now..."

The guard held out a hand as another approached holding a large, heavy set of metal pincers. The first guard took the tool, his gaze slowly assessing Jeron like one would eye a puzzle. The half-drow glanced up, his expression grim but his eyes showing full fear.

"Perhaps, if we pinch off bits of this Drow, finger by finger, toe by toe, we could gain some information."

There were several gasps in the crowd, a restless stirring rippling through the growing throng of people. It was one thing to watch a Drow die; it was another to see him slowly tortured.

Jeron began to squirm despite his body's protests with pain. Though he was on his knees, his ankles were firmly tied to the post in such a way that would leave him unable to even climb to his feet. The best he could do was sway and buck against the post, tearing up his already-shredded back in the process. What he wouldn't give to know enough magic to somehow break free from these bonds, to fly away... Or, better yet, how sweet revenge must feel to cast flames upon the wretched man with the pliers...

The half-drow's futile struggling to break free only seemed to encourage the guard. He stepped forward, reaching up to hold still one of Jeron's fingers with one hand as he positioned the pincers with the other. "It's not too late to confess what you know about your comrades," he drawled.

Jeron pulled with all of his might against his bonds, the lean muscles of his body straining. "I told you," he gasped. "I don't know--"
"Wrong answer..."
((Test...))
Taco,

I've replied via PM :)
Hi, everyone :)

My name is Alfbie; I am an aspiring writer and and an experienced role-player of many years. I'm seeking a special someone or two to build a compelling story with, someone(s) who can inspire me and flesh out my own writing, as I hope to do in return for my partner(s).

If this sounds like you, please read on.

-- I'm not a grammar Nazi, and though I do hope your post lengths match mine (I can get VERY descriptive), it's not required. However, I do ask that you put your best effort in each of your posts. I want to feel inspired when I RP with you; I want to improve my writing technique through collaborative writing. I hope that my RP partners also gain the same experience from me. Let's learn and build off of each other together!

-- I work full-time and take college classes, so I don't have oodles of time on my hands. As such, I eventually tend to bore the piss out of those who wish to RP with me simply because they are bored or because they have nothing else really to do. There's nothing really wrong with that -- I wish I could spend all of my time engrossed in great RP! -- it's just impossible for me to do. If you want long, quality posts from me, you're going to have to wait a few days for a reply (however, if I disappear for more than a week, do nudge me). I can promise you that my posts will almost always be worth the wait :)

-- Email is my preferred method because I can check it from anywhere without hassle and I can better organize our posts. I can also post from forums (it doesn't even have to be this forum). I would prefer not to RP over PM. I don't mind RP with Google docs (or something similar) under certain conditions. If you have other suggestions as to where to carry the RP, let me know.

-- I will play almost any genre so long as there's some sort of supernatural/mystic/sci-fi/not-normal element to it. As such, high-fantasy is my favorite, but it is certainly not required with me. Kudos to those who can turn something interesting out of a slice-of-life/realism story, but I'm afraid I'd simply bore you with my sad attempts at those types of RPs. I also like romance with my RP, though I prefer it with conflict. It does not need to be the main focus of the story.

That said, I have no limitations as long as it is within good taste and it fits with the story line of the RP. This means that 18+ partners are required, just in case. If you have boundaries, I need you to be VERY, VERY clear as to what those boundaries are and how I can recognize them. So, clear communication between us before and during the RP is an absolute must. You having no limitations of your own is easier, but this is not required; I can be accommodating :)

I am a woman who tends to play male characters, though I can work with characters of my own gender as well. I am very, very fond of character development, which places me in the habit of playing multiple characters. Please don't leave me to be the only one playing multiple characters! It's quite draining and uninspiring for me to do so, leaving you with less-than-stellar posts from me. (NOTE: If you don't like to double, that's fine, so long as you contribute to side characters.) Also, please don't leave me to be the only one pushing the story along! The whole point of this RP venture is to improve writing skills WITH SOMEONE ELSE. That simply can't happen if your character is filler for whatever I devise in my strange little mind of mine. I don't mind being surprised in an RP, but if you're not sure where to take a scene, feel free to ask :)

Now, for the good stuff!

Instead of boring you with a long list of plots, I am going to post song lyrics to two songs by the immensely talented Loreena McKennitt. Listening to and/or liking the songs is not at all important or required. Reading the lyrics IS. If any of these lyrics sparks RP ideas, tell me what comes to mind! It doesn't have to be lengthy (even just a few words is fine), it doesn't have to be detailed, and it doesn't have to be spot-on with the lyrics (in fact, I prefer your ideas NOT to be spot-on). I just want to see the creative juices flowing in hopes that it will plant the seeds for really creative RP. I've been told by several people that I'm a damn good plotter, so send me a little spark of something, and we'll grow out the details together :)

If the below song lyrics do not catch your fancy but you still wish to RP with me, send me your ideas. Something, anything; we'll make it work to our tastes. I also have more specific ideas for game fandoms such as Wildstar (Tresayne Toria, anyone?), World of Warcraft (in which a retconned NPC gets the limelight), Rift, and something loosely based from the Forgotten Realms/Neverwinter universe. Again, I can be a good plotter, so let me know...





Finally, here is a writing sample of mine so that you know what you're getting into. This is an actual post I wrote for an email RP:



Thank you so much if you've read all the way through! Reply to this post or PM me for comments, questions, or input; I look forward to hearing from you :)
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