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    1. CrazyShadowy 8 yrs ago

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8 yrs ago
Current I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination. ~ Jimmy Dean
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8 yrs ago
For the curious, this is my computer setup. I have some upgrades planned but this is what it currently is. pcpartpicker.com/list/b9mhTH
8 yrs ago
Your smile will give you a positive countenance that will make people feel comfortable around you. ~ Les Brown
8 yrs ago
8 yrs ago
Finally was able to pickup a copy of Pokemon Moon today, get to start that once I get home!
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Bio

Heya! I'm Shadow. He is a shadowy figure, with a black cape, eerie black-and-white hair. I love gaming and roleplaying and I'm a DM for a D&D group as well. I freaking love it! This first paragraph or so will be my likes and interests, if you don't want to read it, feel free to keep scrolling.

So, I'm a huge geek and nerd. Call me what you will, I call myself a computer geek and gaming nerd. Gaming is my thing, it's what I always do and my huge amount of free time allows that. I use Linux as well, don't ask why as I don't care for getting into that. TL;DR of that I prefer Linux and I hate the way M$ is going. I'm a huge geek for Star Wars, it is my most favoritest thing ever! I'm also a huge fan of and I quote space core, "Spaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaace!" I enjoy spray painting, I've made some cool stuff with it. I enjoy anime and manga, my favorite anime is "The Devil is a Part Timer." Favorite game currently is Stardew Valley. I really love weapons of all kinds, I have 4 knives a katana and dagger and a pack of throwing knives in my room. I plan to get more. Running is enjoyable. I freaking love music, as I'm writing this I have Red Hot Chili Peppers playing. My genre's usually tend to be rock or metal, sometimes I'll go away from those. Not insanely often though. Flying planes is amazing, I've done it about 6 times. I'd love to try for a private pilot license. I won't apologize for this being all over the place, that's how I am and I won't apologize for being myself!



I am big into computers, I've built mine, taken it apart and rebuilt it numerous times. I plan to do that again once I get a new case. Computers are my thing, I have numerous builds planned out, I just need to get the money for the parts to build them. This has given him a reputation for callousness and greed. I've done a custom paint job on one of my side panels, doing spray paint means I can do that, heh.

I made that.


If you meet me in person, I have a tough shell. I enjoy having a tough and scary or intimidating exterior. It's come in handy. Once you get to know me you'll know I'm not like that. I'm a sweet guy, very caring and while I am shy and introverted. I do come out of that and meet people. I do tend to talk more the more we know each other.

I freaking love tea, tea is love, tea is life. Tea is my favorite drink ever, it's the best thing known to mankind. I'd drink nothing but tea for the rest of my life if I could. He frequently reattaches and transplants limbs. So many differnt kinds and flavors, it's crazy with how much there is, then making your own. The limits are endless when it comes to tea! If you want me to love you forever, you should totally get me tea!

Interests for Roleplays.
Sci-fi/futuristic.

Slice of Life.

Action.

Apocolyptic.

Adventure.

Magical lore.

Dungeons and Dragons type things.


Here's the list of roleplays I'm currently in.
Event Horizon.
The Lost.
Mother4: Earthbound2.*
Asbasta.
Freeplay.
Azure's Gate
Chaos in Kalos.
1x1 with @Shadow007
1x1 with @AdamantiumWolf
1x1 with @kittyluna45

Roleplays I mangage




* Shadow007 is my Pinoco
* May no longer exist but it still does in my heart, Thrall will live on in my text document of him.
* @HaleyTheRandom Is my slightly annoying, short and beats me with pepperoni sister.


Cats


Keyboard Cat


Sleepy Cat

Most Recent Posts

@Shoryu Magami
Ah, so merely to see the kind of character I'll create and bring to this 'party' alright. Well, I can make any kind of character I so desire, generally I tend to stick with a basic foundation of them. I do differ at times, I'm still trying to figure out how I want to play this one out.
@Shoryu Magami
Could I ask why it'll be interesting to see what I bring to this roleplay?
@Shoryu Magami
Sorry your day hasn't been that good so far. Hope it gets better and I hope your sleep gets fixed soon.

I didn't have the time to check it in full detail. I plan to go back to it and give it my full attention later today once I have a better chance of being able to do so.

I'll have to work on that as well then.
@Shoryu Magami
Things are good at this moment, taking a shower minutes after I crawled out of bed helped me out. Currently I'm working on a CS and listening to music, just relaxing until we go to get our Christmas tree later today.

How about you?
@Chrononaut
Interesting, I'll take this in mind and process it. While you are right, I do have an obsession with control, due to my past stuff though. Trying to let that go, that takes time but I'm trying!

I have a hard time not worrying, I am trying to worry less and I have with some things. Not all but some, there is progress to be made with this all, it comes with times from how I've seen it and had it happen to me.

While I do consider it a bonus and I don't attach all of my happiness to my other half. I don't view it as a prize in anyway, from how I've experienced it and was raised and watched it around me and told about them. A relationship is not a prize by any means, a bonus yes but like anything they do require work.

If she does, it'll hurt but pain is only temporary. We spoke about it again and it seems to be fine now. She does fear the same with me at times, I've reassured her I have no interest in anybody else (I said anybody as I happen to be pan) and then we did talk about it as I said. It seems to be fine now though.

I do appreciate the the time and the advice you've given to me. I will keep it in mind, I thank you.
Woohoo! Danke for the updates, it means a lot to me that people haven't forgotten about this!
@Buddha
The thing with that is this isn't an online relationship.
Well, here goes nothing as these things are tanking my mood and it's bothering me.

So, I'm rather tired of living in constant fear of being cheated on, that's just out front of this thing. I know she'd never cheat on me but I live in fear of that. Doesn't help I know people who've cheated on the other, some multiple times. Fuck, even some family members did that and it's stuck with me. If anything I have a valid reason to have hatred to that and while it could explain this feeling, I just can't shake it.

We've talked about it before to be honest about that. I still feel that she might and the feelings only been growing stronger lately. I don't know what it is but it's just growing and growing. I don't want to be that overly jealous, always has to know kind of person as I'm not that person. It's just stuck in my head about that and as I said the feelings gotten worse lately. Doesn't help when she'll just leave for hours on end and not say anything about it. It also doesn't help that this is a long distance thing either. While that part is fine, we do love being together. I just can't shake this constant feeling of being cheated on, paranoia is a b!tch like that.

I've considered bringing it up to her again but I don't know what that will do for me in the end of things. It didn't do much before so I have my doubts that it will this time. All I know is I live in a constant paranoid state of being cheated on. I don't know what to do about it at this point, as I said we've talked about it before but it didn't help me. Knowing her and what I've heard, she wouldn't and she's said that she never would. I still just can't shake this feeling that I've got.

The other thing bothering me is just memories of me with someone whom is no longer in my life. That gets me down at times but I just happened to go on that server in that game with everything. All the stuff we'd do and had and the cheesy names on stuff for compliments. I freaking still have all of that, haven't spoken to that person in ages and to this day I don't fully understand why they left my life. I mean, I have a feeling those last few days I'd spoken to her didn't help. I was in a shit mood those days and she'd stay offline of where I'm always online, just sorta avoiding me. I honestly don't exactly know what happened to cause our friendship to end.

With all of this said, I just don't know what to do with any of this. The paranoia of being cheated on, as I said just builds and builds and builds. The thing with my ex-friend doesn't happen nearly as much, only a select few times since it had happened.
@Lyla
I'll slowly start to work on mine, I could have it out by now if I wanted. I'm more so waiting to see the first finish CS to see what I should expect and see what particular style there is in mind.
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