Cyndyr

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Hello everyone. How are you today?

My attention to detail is one of those things that people mention a lot; honestly, nothing gets passed me. If there's the slightest difference between the feeling of two kinds of photocopy paper, I'll notice it (as an infant, I refused to draw on certain types of paper because I noticed it). If there's the tiniest contradiction or flaw - no matter small - in a person's argument or idea or plotline, I'll notice it. If there's the slightest hint that someone is lying or hiding something from me in their tone, body language, or behaviour, I'll notice it. I pretty much spoil stories for myself all the time because I pick up on the foreshadowing every single time, and notice little things most people usually won't think about. I read people to the point that I know why they're acting a certain way before they even realize why.

One of the reasons I can read people - to the point that I called 'psychic' all the bloody time - is that attention to detail. I'm an extreme perfectionist too, which is why I never miss details and why I deconstruct and reconstruct my own ideas constantly to make sure I'm not missing anything. Pretty much the only thing that I can't read into is all the stupid internet language people use online -- I'm really not a fan of that sort of thing. This is why most of my misunderstandings and arguments are generated from people using memes, slang, or emojis (the other times it's when they disrespect me or offend my principles).

As for what you said about having natural leadership qualities, I went into detail in our PM thread about how I've got those too, despite how weird it is. 'Charisma' and leadership are something that people constantly attribute to me despite the fact that I'm an introverted nutcase. When all is said and done though, I'm a leader and never a follower.

On the subject of martial arts, I've got an aptitude for it mostly due to the same attention to detail and perfectionism I mentioned earlier, but thanks to my physical conditions I'll never be able to optimize that gift or really realize any of my potential. The best way to think of it is this -- I can pretty much forcibly give myself adrenaline rushes that most people only get under dire stress or desperation, pretty much on command.

The problem? Due to my physical encumbrances (I won't go into the conditions -- too busy), I actually have to do that in order to do basic everyday things that other people do normally. The strain that does to my body is probably killing me. So unless I found a martial art that was very good for fluidity and easy on the strain (I'm sure it exists -- it's probably an Asian martial art like Tai-Chi), it wouldn't work for me, because I'd actually be severely hurting myself just training. Even doing small things like tying shoe-laces (there's a reason I wear Velcro shoes) or typing on a keyboard (like this) or playing a video game (ironic for someone who plays at such a high level) is extremely painful. So why am I typing all of this? Well, I guess I'm just soldiering the fuck on, aren't I? It's one of reasons I get pissed off when people don't appreciate the effort I put into giving them long replies though -- 'try walking in my shoes' is what I keep thinking.

As for the golf -- that's interesting. I don't actually have much experience with golf... Just a little bit of mini-golf here and there a couple of times. As for the swimming, I actually do a lot of my strengthening exercises underneath water. I'm not even joking -- I basically practical martial arts in the pool, and it works bloody wonders for me. One of my conditions that we think I have is fibromyalgia (fuck this is a nasty ailment) -- if you know what that is, it'll probably make more sense to you why those water exercises help me. I just wish I could get to the indoor pool more often, because I really hate sand and the beach doesn't work.

Am I a water sign? Scorpio here, and - yes - that's probably why I'm such an 'asshole' (who cares more about others than most people probably could imagine). Not that I actually follow astrology or anything, since I don't think I've ever read a horoscope that completely fit what was happening to me (I don't read them often anyway), but this webpage actually weirded me the hell out when I saw it about six years ago. Who the fuck was stalking me when they wrote that? I've looked over damn near every other date on that site now, and this is the only one that screamed 'me'. Is astrology irrational? Sure. Is astrology strange? Sure. Is that a coincidence? I don't really believe in coincidence, even though my idea of 'fate' is a bit unorthodox to say the least. Actually, I've mentioned I'm a Scorpio on my user bio. That link, by the way? I use it to decide my characters' birthdays, mostly because it fit me and @Ailyn Evensen so well. It's not a bizarre question -- I've been asked before when I mention I like water.

@Shoryu Magami

I'm stealing that link. Also, how you describe yourself both now and in the PMs sounds close to what other Scorpios I met, though I know people don't enjoy being compared to others, so, sorry about that! It's just something I noticed haha (sorry for not giving a longer response to your extremely detailed and well-thought out post, I'm exhausted at the moment, have a massive headache, and can't focus all too well).

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Pretty sure it's already started here.

@NekoMizu

oh yeah christmas gonna be in full swing friday at 12am 30 days worth of christmas carrolls

@vespy89

We might be able to outrun if we move fast enough!

<Insert Name; Will Edit Once Not Busy> {Hang-out Thread}

I just realized that we're only safe from Christmas music until the end of this week, guys.

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Private detective just works for someone with my analytical mind, ability to read people's psychology, and insane attention to details when it comes to pretty much anything that I'm interested in. As for the government/political position... I've had people tell me I'd make a very good leader, but my biggest problem is a genuinely hate bureaucratic shit (pardon the French -- I do swear a fair bit in person). I don't really like being tied down to anything. I'm the sort of person who believes that the laws/rules exist for people who're too stupid to do the right thing of their own volition, and that a lot of laws/rules don't even have anything to do with justice or righteousness (the opposite in some cases). With that said, you seem like a reasonable person - like myself - so I don't think you being in a position like that would be inherently a bad thing.

We had a misunderstanding -- I thought you said you didn't want me to send the PM, because I personally had no problem doing it (which is why I've done so now). From this point onward, I'll save discuss about my attitude towards that person - alongside the reasoning for not wanting in the Discord chat - for that PM thread.

I'm not inherently 'bad' at martial arts, and there's very few things that actually intimidate me, but due to my physical condition I'm in severe amounts of pain pretty much... well always, to put it bluntly... and this more or less means that any sort of exertion on my part will feel like severe overexertion does for a 'normal' person. I've been like an old person pretty much from the moment I was born. That's only one of my health problems though, and I don't feel like going into them all right now (because I'm too dizzy, not because I don't want you to know). Swimming is probably the best exercise for me -- I've got a really big water affinity, so I take a lot of showers when I can't go to the indoor pool.

@Shoryu Magami

I just want to be a Private Investigator as I've had a knack and interest in solving mysteries and I share that analytical mind and the ability to read people. Attention to detail? Alright, maybe not so much which is a huge flaw for someone interested in that field, but at the end of the day, I'll take what I can get. As for the Government/Politics job, I'm interested in the system and have natural leadership qualities, so I'd be more than happy to fill the spot.

And fair enough for the Discord comments. I'll only bring it up in the PM thread, then!

Swimming is probably my other favorite sport (next to golf) since it's so relaxing. Bizarre question, but I'm quite rather interested in astrological signs (they're irrational and strange, I know), but would you happen to be a water sign (Pisces, Cancer or Scorpio)? Just curious because of your comment regarding a natural affinity for water, haha.

OH MY GAWAD SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

...I was about a year away from my black belt in tae-kwon-do, then I had to move. But I did attend some Jiu Jitsu classes. cool stuff. a shame I couldn't continue, as my tae-kwon-do instructor said I was a gifted grappler.

I may need to check out your discord.

May.

@BrokenPromise

I love Jiu Jitsu, but I never see myself becoming anything higher than a blue belt. Congratulations on your almost black belt, though!

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@Cynder
Hi Hiii

@Pudding

Hello there, I don't think we've met! It's nice to meet you and how are you doing today?

@Cynder
hallo mate. How's it going?

@NekoMizu

Hello again. I was. . busy all of a sudden. I got home from practice and then my uncle wanted to bathe the dogs since we're having guests for Thanksgiving (they're really soft now), then my friends cried about not doing their Physics homework and I had to help with that and so I had to vanish before I could respond.

I'm good now though! And you?

And hiya @Cynder!

@Ailyn Evensen

Hello again! :O

Given the way my mind works, a private detective is probably one of my ideal jobs. I'm all for justice myself; in fact, people often think I'm really 'self-righteous' due to it, but I think I'm quite reasonable. Anyway, I guess you could say I just don't have too much faith in the law -- the guilty frequently go free and the innocent can be punished, so I'm probably a little too cynical towards the justice system to work completely inside of it. On the other hand, having more justice-minded people like you involved in it would do some good. I won't bother sending the name over PM in that case, but they were admittedly responsible for my decision not to give the Discord chat a look.

I would've gotten involved in martial arts myself, long ago, had it not been for how severely poor my health has been throughout my life.

@Shoryu Magami

Not even kidding, the job I want to pursue is Private Investigator. I'd also take a government or political position as I've always felt connected to that line of work for. . some reason. . I swear I'm not a scummy person, I've just always wanted to work in more public fields.

And that's fine, about not wanting to PM their name, I don't want to pressure you into sending that or into joining the server either. As I said, it's more or less a reaction to what really gets under my skin and it's how people treat each other like crap. I was met with some serious hostility on the CBox and that's why I went and made the Discord in the first place, so it'd be hypocritical of me to ignore it.

Sorry to hear about your health. Now that I've been doing Jiu Jitsu, I can't imagine stopping, though I'm quite terrible at it due to the fact that some moves do scare me and I'll freeze up or slow down due to the fact that I have a low processing speed and have no ability to follow verbal instructions, apparently. Are there any sports you even with your health?

Hunger Games: Happy Holidays Edition

I volunteer as tribute.

<Insert Name; Will Edit Once Not Busy> {Hang-out Thread}

Back from practice. Hello, friends!

World of the West | Western RP

[Slams hand on table.]

Even if I don't join, I want to say that this Roleplay looks incredible. If I do decide to join, I'll try to have a character sheet soon (unsure if I want to give this Roleplay a shot since I have a lame schedule, but this Roleplay looks amazing so I at least have to consider).

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@Cynder
Anyway, in a worst case scenario I could simplify things and send the name of the member to you over PM if you like.

By the way... are you feeling any better?

@Shoryu Magami

Oh, it's no worry. I just hate the idea of people potentially being mistreated or scared off of the Discord. I'm more or less a justice-minded person and that's probably why it's fitting that I'm considering majoring in Criminal Justice. And I'm feeling much better, thank you for asking! I've been devouring glasses of orange juice (my sick person panacea) and getting rest.

The cold has almost cleared up and I have yet to take anything for it. I also have Jiu Jitsu in a few hours and exercise does wonders for a sick body.

@Cynder
Doing fine, had cheese earlier.

@NekoMizu

What kind of cheese? WAS IT AMAZING CHEESE?

<Insert Name; Will Edit Once Not Busy> {Hang-out Thread}

How's it going mate

@NekoMizu

It's going alright! How about with you?

As I said, my mother thought I was bipolar and I thought I was well, as said before. It didn't make me aggresive or things like that, can't remember if it made me suicidal, drove me insane though. It was really messed up.

@CrazyShadowy

Zoloft sucks and should permanently be taken away from the mental health field. Every person I know who was on it absolutely hated it and said it made them worse and not better.