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Kyuki said It's the craziest thing... what people can hide behind a fake smile. And only drawing on the positives of school. Which was basically just academics. Although I did almost fail one class because of them. (Three of them were in the class with me so when I did go I had to listen to their whispers about me)I

While being surprised about this happening was stated, the main point I'm trying to get across is that overall you did not deserve any of that and that none of this was your fault. Is sickens me that they did all this to you but it sickens me more that you blamed yourself in any areas of it when it wasn't your fault. You're a nice and kind person and you didn't deserve that at all. You saying you want to kill yourself means you gave up and they win but you're strong Kyuki, you've proven it before and I think you're still in danger even if you keep silent so the best thing you could do is never walk alone again (Be with more family if you can) and fight back against these people and fight hard, else you'll be substance to further abuse from them.

We all care about you Kyuki and this makes all your friends here both sad, sick and pissed off. We want you to talk to someone and be safe and currently the choice to be silent isn't safe for you or anyone at all.

You have all of our hopes and prayers. I wish you the best luck that anyone could ever possibly have Kyuki. *Hugz*

Kyuki said
Hey! So this is actually really hard to do. Partly because I know sometimes Spam can be the worst place to come to in your darkest times. But, with that said. It can also be one of the best places to come to.

Anyway, there is a lot people here don't know about me. But this particular thing I am so tired of holding it in. I just want to scream about it constantly... I am constantly feeling angry and I have no one to talk to about it for the most part. Because it is either too hard for my family to talk about or the fact that I am being forced to keep it somewhat a secret... So I'm telling you guys this because I am not okay right now.

Here goes....

Basically to finish this up quick... I started at another university and not two weeks into the year they found me. Then just the other night (All seven of them) proceeded to assault me until I was bleeding on the ground with no way to get help for myself. (Public safety discovered me on one of their "rounds") So I've decided to withdraw from school. And just today after waking up screaming for the millionth time from nightmares this morning I broke down. I called my mom and told her goodbye. Sent a text message out to several people and was almost 95% sure I was going to die today.. And honestly I think the only reason I didn't was because my mom somehow found me... So I know none of you probably care but I am coming here because I have nowhere else to vent. My family is angry with me and I have no friends because my only "friend" has decided she is better off being friends with the man who raped me. I don't know what I want out of posting this. Or if I even want anything... Nothing really matters to me that much right now.

I see that some members are able to help you and give you some advice and closure... but I personally don't know what to say Kyuki. All this time I heard only how great things were and perfect your life was and even kinda got jealous of you for some of it. Though hearing this gets me pissed off, you out of all people did not deserve that. You are a nice person and did nice things for others and now that is getting ruined because of assholes. You are the nicest person I know and this was fucked up and shocks me they they are getting away with it so easily.

More so I'm pissed off that you are giving up and that your family isn't really helping you... that nobody is helping you in RL, where it matters! You are better than this and a hell of a lot better than what the other's done and gave you. DON'T FUCKING KILL YOURSELF! You and me both know that you're too awesome to do that lame shit and that you have a full life to live. This is just a really, really, REALLY shitty bump in your way but I know you're strong enough to get by it. You are strong Kyuki, you always were.

Now for my suggestions.
First off Kyuki is talk to someone, maybe even a psychiatrist and get some closure over what's happening. I suggest those links that MDK posted up for you since they seem to be great sites that'd be able to help you more than anyone here can. talking to some one that can help is better than talking to no one
Second, you need to press charges Kyuki. This creep will continue to harass you and other women if you don't do this. You even said there is a written confession about it, take that as your advantage. These people will not stop, as you well said, and they will continue and continue until you're dead but if you don't fight back you're only allowing them to continue this more. Fight back and fight hard.
Third is that you lost a shit ton of self respect and self confidence Kyuki. That is not you at all and you breaking out of your character and losing those two traits sickens me. You're a hell of a lot better than what you're claiming to be and if I was there right now I'd slap some sense into you. You're a wonderful girl that has accomplished a lot and will be able to continue doing these great things. This will be key to your success over this Kyuki. You CAN fight hard, I know it from experience and that's what I want you to do. Your self confidence in your ability to fight will always help you win in the end.
Fourth you need new friends and to slap some sense into your family. You got hurt and this ruins their 'reputation' more if they do nothing and help you fight. They need to support you and if they do that great things are to come. As for your friends they all sound like shit friends and trash. You're fucking "Princess Kyuki", Kyuki! Princesses do NOT 'hang out' with filthy, disgusting trashy peasants! Find people that are actually worth your time and don't tolerate anyone's BS.
Fifth, your life is in danger, you said this. It doesn't matter if you press charges or not, these people are out to kill you. Since your mom is most supportive talk to her about getting guns and a lot of pepper spray. Carry something like a Taser or something with you at all times and look in the weapon carrying laws in your area. You're getting targeted when being attacked now and you can't afford this happening a second time, cause next time you might not make it out alive. Any personal protection is better than no protection.

Finally, this is not your fault kyuki... you are strong and I am so sorry that all this has happened to you. I know you're scared and that you have so many questions and "what ifs" that may or may not bring different results in the past events. I really only partly know what you're going through but it needs to be said that all this is completely unacceptable. Just never feel like it's all your fault, cause it's far from it.

With that said Kyuki, I hope things get well for you soon but as I clearly stated I'm sure this fight of yours is far from over. Take care and be extra safe now and I hope all of this ends soon.

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