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7 yrs ago
Current Take time out of your life to find something to laugh about and smile at least once a day.
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7 yrs ago
Netflix is to blame for the sudden resurgence of my animu phase. >:c It was supposed to be background noise, but then I went and got invested... twice in a row.
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7 yrs ago
What techniques do you use to open these "pickle jars"? Or is it just raw pickle jar opening strength? (not to be confused with regular strength)
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I feel honored to be Miss Capn's Valentine! (/ε\*)
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What a sick, masochistic lion.
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Location: Morning Jog ⤃ Jones Estate ⤃ Sidewalk in Front of a House
Interactions: His Feet, Like an Idiot




"I am now quite cured of seeking pleasure in society, be it country or town. A sensible man ought to find sufficient company in himself."





"Gloria Patri, et Filio, et Spiritui Sancto, Sicut erat in principio, et nunc, et semper, et in saecula saeculorum. Amen."


A small hum settled in the bottom of his throat, bouncing with the continued pound of his feet against the pavement. Mornings, from Sunday to Sunday, were sacred; they started the day and set the tone. And though James wavered in his ideals, teachings, thoughts, every morning was devoted to time spent in his too large backyard, on his parents' patio, quietly muttering a soft prayer. Faith fled him quite a long time ago, but routine felt more sacred than the church he'd stepped foot from.

Ironic.

If asked, he could recite a number of prayers given and taught to him by the Catholic church, yet, despite being committed to memory, their meanings fled him. And not their basic meaning, the entirety in which is etched into every prayer so blatantly in its offering to God or Mary, or some hallowed saint. What they mean to him, not when he'd speak them, but when he truly listened to the words whispered between his lips. To deaf ears, his guilt continued to remind him.

To measure a man through his faith alone seemed counterproductive. Quite simple to measure for a man devoted to doctrine in how many rules he followed that day or how many 'Hail Mary's' he didn't have to recite. Lose that perspective to gain a new one and faith seemed unimaginable - like measuring love. Usually, it's as simple as measuring sacrifice, and then countering it with a devotion to live. Tumultuous. Confusing.

James often bites his cheek after too much introspective thought. Philosophical questions of religion and faith stirring up emotions he'd rather leave bare and stripped of meaning. Leaving himself to a dull existence felt so desperately easier than succumbing to the vulnerabilities of forming opinions or attachments. Yet, reminders of better feelings pushed him back and forth between two existences.

Despite the sanctity he placed with the rising dawn and the twittering calls of birds rising with it, James almost always falls through a continuous loop of anxious thought. Noise pounded against bone and sinew, covering his mind in a blaring trill that distracted more than usual. The heaving breaths squeezing his chest and lungs burned a constant beat that ran through his veins and left in the blackened pavement he bore down on. It did nothing but add to the din, a constant thrumming that shot electricity behind the battering against his ribs. Time dilated in the pounding steps that escalated further and further into a high, piercing whine that drowned out the music sweeping through stark white earbuds. It stopped James in the midst of his run, veered him onto the sidewalk where he shook until his legs gave and he let himself fall against the cracked pavement.

His hands ripped the cords from his ears, let them drop onto his chest to hang from the clip that anchored them. Panic attack. He was - James breathed, heavy - he was having a panic attack in the middle of a soon to be busy morning. James blinked, let the sweat cool against his reddened, heated skin, and then he closed his eyes and breathed. After a moment of continuous focus, a constant, 'Inhale. 2. 3. 4. 5. Exhale. 2. 3. 4. 5,' James let his mind slowly wander. The few passages to the book he'd bought earlier - for the club - ran through his head, what he remembered and could recall. What he'd be having for breakfast. The inevitable sound of water running through a faucet, then the shower head, and the rustle of fabric - a nice sweater, maybe.

Another moment passed before James could finally stand, wipe a hand over his face and then gingerly on his shorts. His brows pinched and he took a quick glance at his surroundings until his eyes fell on a floral sundress, wrinkled in a way that matched the taught, aged skin of the woman wearing it. James coughed, gave a nervous wave of his hand, a smile, and a quick, "Hello! N-nice morning," before regaining composure and restarting his jog with a sprint - best to leave immediately.

Sweeping through the neighborhood, James took his usual turn down his parents' long driveway and went about a dull, monotonous routine, until he reemerged an hour later with floppy, still wet hair, and burnt toast crumbs clinging to the corner of his mouth. James swiped at them one last time before setting a slow pace toward his mailbox. The usual had been stuffed inside that morning: things he needed to take care of, something he'd rather not pay attention to, and an invitation to the art auction which he felt he should attend, yet didn't quite have the yearning to. He frowned and immediately tossed everything to the wayside the moment he stepped back into his home.

"Hmm," James hummed, staring down at the marbled counter until his eyes caught the gold corner of the card he'd tossed. A thought occurred, only momentarily before it passed. It continued that way throughout the morning, even through to gathering some of his things and making a round to the Whistle Shop for a cup of coffee and a tiny muffin to snack on while he lounged. Even if following a healthy breakfast and morning run with caffeine and pastries seemed counterproductive. At least the walk to and from would count for something. Unwittingly, though, he'd ordered two in his complete lack of attention, paid for it and walked away all in the span of a few minutes. It made no sense, but regardless of the misstep, his diet (which he often forwent) wouldn't allow the extra calories. One would have to go to waste.

"Mmm, or..." he thought aloud, his feet carrying him through the morning blazed neighborhood. A sigh interrupted, and James stopped his trek almost completely. His walk was leading him almost directly to Hadrian's home, someone he'd become... friends wasn't the right word? James scratched his head, perplexed at the thought of having practically only one friend in the entire community. He frowned at the implication, but couldn't think of anything to refute it. Of course, that wasn't bad - at least he knew and talked to somebody. But, the idea that he did it constantly made him rethink his current plans. Plans to which he had no idea about until now, stock still in the middle of the sidewalk with a brown baggie in hand, with coffee steaming in the other, and the most perplexed look of anguish twisting his expression.

James opened his mouth, closed it, opened it again, and then promptly frowned at his feet in complete consternation.
@McHaggis

*whispers* i require your assistance
@Apokalipse@Undine@banjoanjo@Hunter of Dreams@McHaggis@Roosan@Morose@MiddleEarthRoze@Sailorsadie@tanderbolt@fluorescent@FantasyChic

i do hope that is everyone pls yell at me if it isn't

OKAY

SORRY FOR THE HEAVY DELAY IN THE PLOT POST.

It's not much, but it's moving us forward. I apologize for not getting a sheet up for a character that was kind of important in a sense that he'll be used in accordance with Lucy (and likely Aravis), but, um, right now Peter's an NPC that's only under my control. Just as an excuse. A flimsy one. A very flimsy one. ;3; I've just been so busy, I'm sorry about that (and lazy, but that last one is less excusable than "I've been working and schooling all month!" *cough*)
fae's bar and diner
jess, pls @MiddleEarthRoze








Suddenly I'm not half the man I used to be.
There's a shadow hanging over me.
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.





The implications behind his association with Jessamine would certainly imply Phillip's lack of concern over his past dealings with the fae. Like any course of life, Jess proved an exception to his rule. Though the tone of voice she often used when directly conversing with him denoted pity, Phillip disregarded it for her usefulness. That and her general kindness; it was rude to disrespect someone had the wherewithal not to take any shit, if she saw fit.

"I'm a man of routine," Phillip lied, waving a dismissive hand, "I take comfort in what I know. Yeah, the usual." He mulled over the last bit, let it chew in his head. Would this simply be another false alarm? Something that tripped up the paranoid goers in their little refuge. Maybe Lucy, the only lucid one, had succumbed to the fear that gnawed at their minds. But, Phillip pondered, the chill that sunk its claws into his bones and dragged along his spine certainly felt real. The atmosphere changed substantially throughout the small part of town he crawled through. A fog not only hung over himself and the others around him, but also clung to the grimy streets of Mystvale.

Phillip grumbled, pushing himself forward and applying pressure on his arms. "I don't know what to make of it," he said, finally, avoiding Jess' gaze, "With no power, I likely am unable to attend work - if I had the intention of doing so, anyways. It wouldn't hurt to find time for the meeting; we'll see how it goes. I'm still not convinced."

After a moment, he looked toward the window he'd seated himself by. "With surety, at least: Dorothy's dead and gone."



4:00 P.M. on the dot.
To the library
For those who time forgot

@Everyone, basically, but in particular Lucy Pevensie, @McHaggis









Honey you're familiar like my mirror years ago
Idealism sits in prison, chivalry fell on its sword
Innocence died screaming, honey, ask me I should know
I slithered here from Eden just to sit outside your door




prior last evening...

Nights consisted of scribbling notes under moonlight; a simple collection of words in a journal as he stared at the moon and the stars surrounding. It ached him as it did coming forth, back into this world they'd fled from, not to see the sky that Narnia painted for him. Broad strokes and whisks of light that dotting the oily backdrop of a celestial nether they'd no idea of. Here, they had a semblance of what it entailed: a vast nothingness, in which their insignificance somehow stumbled upon the luck of life.

It gnawed at Peter, drove wedges into the joints of his bones and forced him to lie on the grass in a petulance reserved for children. Still, this night, he sit cross legged upon a hill overlooking their sleepy town. A sleepy town, by any name - just a nowhere that people hardly saw on a dotted map, filled with pines and old, splintering buildings with enough light to scorn the stars hanging above him.

His hands found page again, scrawling words that he pieced together into stanzas and stanzas that he bled the white pages with. It never intrigued him to journal, nor write any form of words in an English unlike the dull tedium of boarding school essays. Not like Lucy did, in her fancy penmanship and proper English. Yet, pen still found paper and words flowed together, neither proofread and altogether haphazard. Much like the pieces of his heart that he bled out in blackish ink.

Like the stars he so missed, Peter dove off into the already dew soaked grass, letting the quiet musings of grasshoppers lull him to sleep.



the stars carried a heavy weight -
their burden cannot be unshared and the weight of worlds rest on a simple set of shoulders.
they fall from their perch in drops of silvery twine.
cast down, unraveling a universe string by string.
they settle in globs of black snow that layer the grass in soot and tar.
peter's heart thuds against his rib cage - rhythm carrying timber in the blackening curtain befalling his home.
what he worked for coming to shambles in mottled shadows that dance and race against the covered pines.

his crown breaks
and his throne cracks
and those barely lucid cast their blame
Peter Pevensie - long live the magnificent

buzzing trills in his ears




around 5:00 AM that morning...

Electric shoved through Peter's veins, vibrating his skin and crawling through his bones. "Shit," his hissed, jolting up from the grass, wet and soaked through. His phone continued its long trill of constant beeps, vibrating a beat into his leg. Claws ran through his chest with every breath he sucked in, heavy breathing dissolving into fits of coughing. The phone went silent for a moment, then another, until Peter was certain it'd stopped completely.

A frown creased his lips, stringing down the lines of his jowls, his eyes squinting through the crust and the light of a dawning, curtained sun. Another deep breath burned his lungs before Peter finally shoved himself up. The phone found its way into his hands, along with the pen and journal. A few pats and he'd found the keys to the beat down vehicle he called a truck. The frown never left and his eyes eventually found themselves along the fog clouding Mystvale, a shroud not even mottled with the dim glow of morning lights. His brows furrowed as he made his way to his car.

The thud of his car door felt eerily final - accepting his fate. Peter dug the heel of his palm into his eye, listening to the morning bumble and buzz around him. The soft pattering of rain caught him, and a sudden realization that he'd slept through it. A sigh left his lips, and his eyes trailed the wetness of his clothes beading onto the leather seats. He'd worry later, not necessarily worried at the moment with sleep still clouding his vision.

With the backdrop of pattering rain, Peter pressed the phone to his ear, cursing the first few, ruined pages of his journal as the messaged chimed. He didn't want this. He didn't want this. "I don't want this," he whispered. Lucy knew just what a damnable deadbeat he'd become; it made no sense that she begged he attend for the sake of Mystvale's future.

And that word she'd used. The one that hissed in his ears. Contemptible.

Cataclysm.

The truck's engine roared to life, peeling out of the gravel pavement and onto black asphalt.



approaching 4:00 PM...

Wiling the day away had been the hardest to do; nearly twelve hours of absolutely nothing to pass the time. Peter doodled in the margins of his notebook, sitting pressed against the wall in the library. He'd taken ten or so cat naps prior to driving here, around noon then, and took a number more in his fortress in the corner. Scheherazade didn't seem to mind, last he checked. Of course, all of that would pile up the assumptions Peter made on a daily basis, but he could care less. Lucy needed him here and to get him to arrive on time, four hours early seemed appropriate. At least, appropriate to the ever gnawing need to get up and go - the simple waiting didn't do any good and the anticipation rose with every moment spent idle. Peter didn't need the action, but the inevitability had its way of driving needles into his back until he finally went.

After another moment of scribbling, Peter tossed his journal to the wayside and stepped into the foray of the library's lobby. He had yet to spot Scheherazade since his entrance hours earlier, bringing a crease to his lips and brows. Peter had no notion to complain, and simply shoved what chairs, tables, and whatever else lay in his path to the side, leaving the space near the library's main desk free of clutter - she could scold him later. He adjusted everything to fit correctly, chairs and tables facing the middle, where Lucy would likely sit, Merlin and Lancelot sturdy presences beside her. Maybe she'd drag him in the mix. Peter scowled at the idea.

Now he simply wait the allotted measure for everyone to pile in. He'd likely get the high energy, paranoid, schizophrenic citizens first (he used schizophrenic only mildly lightly; he wasn't a doctor, so he could prescribe, but he was fairly certain a few denizens fit the bill) and then the lethargic, slightly skeptical individuals afterwards. Peter merely sighed and pushed himself onto the desk, balking at having left his journal and pen, then making due with the yellow notepad and (dollar store) pen beside him as he jotted down notes, drew doodles, and simply awaited Lucy.
@banjoanjo

Everything looks good! You can throw her in the CS tab whenever you're ready. Same for the IC. Whenever you're ready!
@SouffleGirl123@HaleyTheRandom@Neno 1445

I definitely apologize for not being here a lot sooner. I've been a bit busy both with school and procrastination.

Despite requesting less hours at work, they seem to like giving me the maximum amount of hours for the weekend (24 'cause I only work 3 days). So, I really am unable to take on this roleplay for the time being. However, that being said, if you lose any male character in the near future, Wilhelm's still there to fill in that spot. Just contact me and I'll see if I can't slip in as seamlessly as I can.

Really sorry, again, for how late this was, but I'm guessing it was easy to assume such. *cough* I know I have 4 weeks left for my lone 1 credit hour class (all the rest are 16 weeks, I think, and end in December), so by then I'll definitely have a good chunk of my time free to get to my RPG responsibilities. ;o
@Universorum @Silent Observer

HERE'S UM. TWO BOYS. UM. MAYBE I GET CARRIED AWAY? I THINK... NO THESE ARE DEFINITELY MY LAST CHARACTERS







Just noticed that there's a Discord server for this. Can someone put up a new invite link?


Sorry, we've been a bit busy lately! We'll have a look over your CS sometime tomorrow! ;o Or today, depending... on where you live. *cough*

But, here's the Discord server if you wanna throw yourself in there.
Here have a selfie.



me_irl

much aesthetic. definite A+
since all my friendos have decided to be butts and post their pictures on here, i'll go ahead and throw a few









forgive me for not shaving.
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