This post is rated D for drunk. I spent this evening with Jig's Extraordinarily Easily-Amused Partner and Lysistrata, also known as Dick Jokes, The Classical Play, and I needed wine to get through it.
I would be, but...but.
Lots of buts.
Perhaps not, because I can barely keep up with the one RP I have right now, but I just realised. God I forgot we were a murder mystery manor. That means our characters will die.
And I got so damn attached to everyone being around too and ;;
One little part of me wants to make it so nobody has to die (unless they have to leave, etc.)
Tragic, I know. One of the key issues with Wolf was that I didn't wanna kill y'all, even though Jonas in particular was DYING to, well, be killed.
I guess I'll upgrade from "wouldn't mind" to "will unless someone else is extremely interested in GMing".
#MakeWolfManorGreatAgain #TM992016 #ThatIsntTheYear992016 #ThatIsALongTimeFromNow
P.S.: Why did I start doing these hashtags, exactly? I certainly don't know.
My influence.
Where I'm at:I don't wanna just throw this at somebody else - especially having essentially bailed on something you trusted me on. Hopefully y'all see why it was a nightmare, but, still, I said I can make it work, and couldn't, which is really fuckin' devastating - especially when you see what delicious creepiness I had planned.
But equally, (as though it's up to me), I don't want somebody to feel 'burdened' with this, or though they're 'willing' to do it. We're only here because we want to be, and if a GM gives the impression that they're 'putting up with' this, my instinct is they're probably not the GM. I think I'd rate my own GM potential for whatever comes next at a 6.5/10. I have the kernel of an idea, and I want to see where it goes (in my own head) before I commit anything, but there
is a kernel of an idea here, which may or may not blossom into something good or bad. If it wasn't good, I like to think you know I wouldn't submit it for you to play.
The 3.5 points I
don't have out of 10 are based on my own GMing record on this: I couldn't sustain the energy in the face of rocking the boat and general bleurgishness. While I'd love nothing more than one of you to wholeheartedly take on a similar project, I would rather try again myself with what I currently have than for one of you to take it on anything less than whole-heartedly. We're a really great group that can pursue really great projects together, and
stick with it - doing it 'for the sake of it', in my opinion, does a disservice to the really amazing precedents that Wolf and Woll have laid out for us.
I don't know what to suggest. At this stage, the only person unaccounted for is Cops, and hopefully he won't mind me assuming that perhaps he doesn't have the time to GM. So, broadly speaking, we know who is
prepared to GM, and I think we largely want to have another go (if you don't, now is a
fabulous time to say you don't want to / can't / won't - without being judged (at least by me)) at being murdered. If anybody
does officially want to have a go, but they're too polite or not confident to put their name to it, now is absolutely the time to say. As I say, I don't remotely think I've 'nailed' this genre (though at one point I thought I perhaps had), and would be fucking
ecstatic to see what one of you could do with it with a different approach: the drippy drunk part of me is pretty convinced we're in almost completely uncharted territory here and what we're doing is basically seminal in the (admittedly specific) school of murder-mystery RP's and I'm certain that this is the best group I've stuck with. What I really want is to be a player in your twisted imaginations, but I can offer 6-7/10 that my twisted imagination is worth another spin.
What I'm gonna suggest is that any GM, or combination of Co-GM's, puts their stake forth in terms of what they have to offer, out of 10. Kirah has nominated herself as a potential GM, while I reckon Ging, Flavs and TM99, though they've been reserved, have an imagination as twisted as Kirah's to put something really great out there if they have the time and the self-confidence. There's no great way to choose (last time I think it was me and Ging 'competing' very amicably for GMship) and no great way to suggest that you suspend whatever British ancestry you have and put your meat where your mouth is, but now is totally the time to do so.
I'm gonna suggest it come straight down to whoever says they have the confidence out of 10 to drive this thing. If you fail, no big whup (at least from me) - I couldn't get us to the end, and nor could Bliss - the main thing is everybody involved had fun (if not, I'd suggest you absent yourself at this late stage - thank you for persevering with us). What I can say is that, if my 6.5/10 somehow wins the day, I will not be recruiting from outside this group, and therefore if enough of you don't wish to take part (which will be no shade on you, and I can't emphasise this enough), I will not run the game. My running for GM is conditional on at least most of your participations, or an
extremely confident direct recommendation from one, or, ideally, more of you. I have time for very few things in my life right now, and, although I'm considering re-allocating time to GMing Woof Manor, that offer does not extend to new players who don't have anything less than an excellent reference from one of you.
Jig's Confidence: 6.5/10
Please don't pitch confidence in the hopes you won't get it. I think we all trust each other here, so be honest about your confidence. If you fail, I will not judge you, and I'm probably the most judgemental person here. If you would prefer to stake your confidence/10 to me privately via PM, I'm happy to play receptionist on this occasion - if you 'win', I'll announce it.I hope I'm not pressuring anybody here, but I've spent enough time around people being cagey and reserved when they're sitting on goldmines of brilliance to know that it's worth asking people to remove their respective lights from bushels before simply stampeding forth with whatever nonsense I have planned. Be
bold. If you think you have a great idea, this is absolutely the group to try it out on, because we trust each other - correct me if I'm wrong.
@Kirah @TheMaster99 @AuntFlavia @MyCatGinger @CallTheCops @CorneredBlisstagged for importance
god, I feel like a monster. I trust that you get
what I mean by this without feeling pressured or scared off. blame my Britishness