KiraVanhelsing

Silvermoon Pier Alliance: SPA.

Jax watched him promise her relatively everything she asked but she noted that he ignored the part about falling in love with her or developing feelings. She should be getting off of him and demanding he repeat the words but, to be honest, she was too tired to fight and she couldn't control how he felt. Perhaps the rules were more for her than him anyway. She would have to be the strong one for the relationship, she supposed. The level-headed one. She was on a tangent when he asked her to get off of him so he could eat. She pulled her head back slightly, her eyes widening as he issued a challenge that he would have to move her. She smirked, about to respond when Roxas interrupted them. She let out a sigh, sitting up to look at Roxas with annoyance, "I can't speak for him, but I think I am going to take a break from drinking for a while. Thanks for getting me home."

She turned to look at Morthos wanting to say something but she decided against it before she got off him and grabbed her food. She finished it quickly moving to sit in a spare chair before placing the empty plate back on the coffee table. She wiped her mouth then pushed some of her hair back her hands moving to rest on her knees, "Well we haven't necessarily had a conversation about being a team but I assume we probably have all been thinking about it. Especially since we have gone up a level. I feel like my sister and I feel the same way about separating. It's not going to happen. I can also assume Ophelia will not join a team without Roxas so that makes him in as well." She turned to Morthos with a small smirk, "I assume you would also want to join into a team seeming as we have gotten fairly...'close.'"

After his response, she called to Ophelia to come over so they were in a tighter group. She eyed her sister closely noting that she seemed slightly off, and made a promise to herself to ask her about it later. When everyone seemed as though they were paying attention Jax spoke evenly, her voice carrying a trace of authority to enhance the seriousness of her tone, "I would be honored to be on a team with each of you, but you have to know what you are signing up for. I have always had a dream to be the strongest soldier of the SPA and I will stop at nothing to fight my way to the top. I love this guild. I built my memories here, made friends and found out who I was and what I wanted to be here. It would be an honor and a privilege to be a leader within its walls. I don't know why each of you joined SPA or if you even give a shit about being the best in the school but if we are going to be a team, or better yet if you are going to join me, then you have to know that the road I'm walking will not be easy."

She stood looking at each of them individually, "Being a team is like being part of a family. We struggle and survive together, we fight together and we help each other when we are weak. We are loyal to our guild and our mission but overall we need to be loyal to each other or this is not going to work. We will fail if we aren't committed to each other 100 percent. So.." She held out her fist looking at them, with a fierce strength behind her eyes, "are you with me?"

Silvermoon Pier Alliance: SPA.

Jax burst into laughter at Morthos' awkward word fumble. He blushed and he heart warmed enjoying the fact she was making him off kilter. She kept her spot sitting on him, her expression turning pensive when he asked her about the parameters of their 'relationship.' She thought for a minute before pulling back slightly, "Okay. The name of the game here Sparky is no intimacy. No sex. It is too messy and it almost always brings up feelings.
Kissing and heavy petting I am for..but you can't do it as a sign of affection. Don't kiss me when I'm sad..just when you want to be flirty. This thing is not a relationship. We are friends who are having fun with each other. The rule that matters the most is this. No falling in love. No bonding. We can leave this at any time and still be friends. Got it? "

She leaned down again, getting very close to him, so that their chests were touching. She got comfortable leaning over to kiss him on the neck very lightly, her fingers lightly moving up his side's to rest on his shoulder, "This a purely physical agreement. No deep emotion." She pulled back nipping him lightly, so she could stare down at him, "Can you handle what I'm offering?"

Silvermoon Pier Alliance: SPA.

Jax let out a large breath and a small laugh, "Oh..I'm fabulous." She moved over to sit down on the floor beside the couch leaning back to rest her head against his leg, "After tackling my friend Uma to the ground and performing a dramatic monologue about you breaking my heart I hid in a dumpster from Roxas. Oh, wait for it, no that wasn't a dumpster it was the bedroom of a homeless goblin. I think I have never ever been so embarrassed then I am this morning."

She twisted to the side, "Look I'm sorry about yesterday. I know it is way, way, way too early to have this discussion but I'm going to be thinking about it all day until I get this out so bear with me. I am not going be comfortable watching you date other girls. It is going to irk me and make me jealous, and I am alarmingly aware that this situation is hypocritical when I have clearly set boundaries between us. So. What to do. I can't date you Morthos. I am too fucked up when it comes to boys or being in an intimate relationship.. but..."

She paused as Ophelia came in with food. She thanked her and took the glass of water with a smile. The smell of the eggs making her a bit nauseous. She gulped the rest of it down before speaking to Ophelia,"Thanks. I'll come find you in a bit."

Once Ophelia was heading back upstairs with a bit of a tired motion that Jax couldn't help noticing she stood up moving to straddle Morthos' lap so his full focus was on her, "But...I won't see any other boys right now. No sleeping around, kissing, touching anyone else." She leaned forward placing her arms on either side of his head as her green eyes bored into his, "I can also be a very very flirty friend." She leaned even closer shifting slightly on his lap, her expression growing more honest, "I understand if that is not enough, but it's what I can offer you. It is also a lot more then I have offered anyone. So? Is that going to be enough for now?"

Silvermoon Pier Alliance: SPA.

Jax woke up with a headache that could split wood. She shifted on the bed, her arms covered in light goosebumps as light from the nearby shutters fell across her skin. She sat up groaning, her muscles shifting beneath her. She moved to the bathroom, relieving herself before she came out and grabbed her phone. Angry text messages from both Maise and Uma filled her inbox. She groaned dialing Uma's number first. After two very long and very pitiful conversations about her embarrassing display, she felt that she was on good terms with the girls. She stood up chucking the cell onto the bed and moved to the window. She could write off being drunk with the girls but Morthos was a different story. He wouldn't forget last night and he wouldn't let her get away with the 'I'm drunk' excuse either. She was very very tempted to sneak out the window but she figured cowardly acts like that would only deter the dream of being a hero.

So she pulled up her grownup panties and headed downstairs noting that Morthos was still sleeping on the couch. She moved over to a blanket covering him before she headed into the kitchen grabbing a cup of water. She downed it quickly thinking about the front door and how she could just leave and disappear into the day. Go hide in the church. She put the glass in the sink and then walked back into the living room planning to head back upstairs when she saw that Morthos had woken up. She turned giving a small sympathetic smile. She looked at her feet then back up at him, "Hi."

Silvermoon Pier Alliance: SPA.

Jax took the water bottle greedily and downed it hastily the water leaving clean lines down her cheeks. After her brief confusion on where she was going, she followed Roxas to his house. She walked inside noticing Morthos passed out on the couch. She winced still feeling like an asshole as Roxas showed her the rest of his house including the guest room. It came equipped with its own bathroom which she used promptly after Roxas left. Once she was fully clean she dried herself off the best she could and moved to the bed. She didn't have any new clothes so she snooped in some drawers finding a plain white shirt she could pull over her underwear.

Her head was really hurting now, and when she was finally ready she fell on the bed not even pulling over the covers before her brain turned off and she fell into sweet oblivion. Thoughts of love and darkness no longer burdening her for the time being.

Silvermoon Pier Alliance: SPA.

Jax listened quietly, her sniffles filling the air as she wiped her eyes. She watched him evenly and once he was finished she took his hand and stood up, "I appreciate your words Roxas..and your friendship. I just.. I am not ready. I'm not ready for him and I'm not ready to take that risk. When I am though..I might take you up on that help."

She looked at him then leaned over giving him a quick hug. She felt awkward immediately and pulled back brushing her hair out of her face, "Ugh. I am so ready to go. Can we leave. I am really just wanting this night to be over." She pulled the celery stalk out of her hair and headed out onto the sidewalk with Roxas in tow, "Ugh and I probably worried Ophelia too. You know you are really catching me in the middle of chaos because I am never this strung out with boys... or with my sister...or with school."

She stopped mid step and pulled off one of her boots than the other and began to walk barefoot, "Ugh..now Morthos is going to think I'm such an asshole."

Silvermoon Pier Alliance: SPA.

Jax stopped dancing, wincing as he spoke but knowing he was right. She was being selfish to her friends and cruel to Morthos and Uma. She looked at him with a look of defeat, shivering slightly as the cold air hit her. She looked at him closely. She didn't really know him. Hell, she just truly met him a night ago. How could she trust him so soon? She spoke evenly the booze probably helping her as she spoke evenly, "I use boys I don't care about because it's safer. No feelings. No problem."

She pulled away from him looking him dead in the face anger filling her features, "At the end of the day no one is ever...EVER GOING TO HURT ME AGAIN ROXAS! NOT SOME STUPID BOY. NOT SOME DEMON. I WILL NEVER EVER LET ANYONE TOUCH ME LIKE THAT AGAIN. DO YOU HEAR ME! I WILL NEVER LET SOMEONE DO ANYTHING LIKE THAT AGAIN!"

She stopped her eyes widening as she looked at him, "Don't tell Ophelia. PLEASE ROXAS KEEP THAT INFORMATION TO YOURSELF OR I WILL NEVER EVER TALK TO YOU AGAIN DO YOU HEAR ME."

She rubbed her face, tears rolling down her cheeks, "Oh god. I shouldn't have told you that. I can't believe I just said that. I don't even know you."

Silvermoon Pier Alliance: SPA.

Jax gave a squeak as the lid was flung open. She stared up at Roxas with puppy dog eyes, "I just wanted to have a fun time." She stood up slowly a piece of floppy celery tangled in her hair, "I didn't want to ruin the night...or turn crazy. HEY QUIT THAT!"

She turned to the goblin who was using a stick to push at her dress, "I will unleash hell on you little man." She was about to kick him when she felt Roxas pulling her out of the garbage. Once her feet hit the ground she kicked at the tin the lid falling down onto the can leaving the goblin in the dark. She then turned to Roxas, still obviously very drunk, "Can we just pretend I didn't make a complete fool of myself and skip the lecture. I'm drunk!"

She did a small dance, trying to charm Roxas into just taking her home but she could see by his expression that he wasn't buying it.

Silvermoon Pier Alliance: SPA.

Jax remained silent, biting her lip to hold back her words as he was speaking. When he finally turned to go back to the club she lifted her arm to grab his hand, but then she pulled it away, calling out to him instead, "Morthos!" She gave him a small smile sobering up slightly, "I'll think about it...honestly. Just don't wait too long. I'm not worth it."

She looked towards the street wondering how the hell she was going to get home when she suddenly saw Roxas come out with an angry annoyed glare on his face. She panicked, running over to a garbage can and jumped onto the edge. She slipped falling head in, her boots kicking out awkwardly as she tried to re-adjust herself. She stood up and looked at Roxas before grabbing the lid and lowering it over her head, "Jax isn't here right now. Leave a message after the beep. Beep!"

She sat quietly in the dark, noting a homeless goblin was giving her a look at the other end of the can. She blinked at him for a few minutes, before waving at him with a smile.

Silvermoon Pier Alliance: SPA.

Jax lay in the garbage laughing when suddenly Morthos' voice broke through her hysterics. She tried to slow down her laughter, her howls turning into light giggles to nothing within a few seconds. She took in a breath and looked up at him, a banana peel rolling down onto her hair. She paused shutting her eyes before she rolled onto the pavement. She took a few moments getting to her feet then turned to look at Morthos, her eyes slightly glazed and her walk slightly awkward. She let out a breath before speaking. Her voice was slightly slurred, as she looked up at him, "I'm a mess..and a hypocrite. I can't believe I just did that. You probably are confused. As you should be. I'm confused. I don't do this. BOYS DON'T DO THIS TO ME! I DO THIS TO BOYS!"

She looked at the ground, her thoughts running away from her, "Did you kiss her? NO! NO! DON'T ANSWER THAT! YOU SHOULD HAVE. GO BACK IN THERE AND KISS HER! NO WAIT! UGH!" She put her hands in her hair in exasperation as she tried not to pass out. She took a step forward and leaned against him, whispering, "Why is it so different with you?"

She lifted her head up her green eyes looking up at him with pure confusion. She leaned forward whispering very very quietly, "If you don't stop me. I'm going to break your heart...and your gonna break mine." She shut her eyes resting her forehead against his. The moment to kiss him was there. She felt the pull, the tension. She craved it. Needed it. She just had to lean forward... She paused, then rolled her face aside leaning into his neck, "Can we say that this is just drunken gibberish and go back to before I lost my shit?"