Aussir's eyes traveled to her wings when she moved them, they appeared to be like other ones he has seen, muscular. From this quick observation, he figured she was able to use them for flight, a slight pang of jealousy could be felt. His wings, while unique, were useless for flying. However, they also gave him an edge over other Dragonkin in terms of intimidation; those wings were the sole reason why he chose to name himself Aussir Denthanus. The name itself, once translated from Draconic to Common, meant White Terror. He turned his eyes from her wings, back to her. When she ordered her drink, he was impressed with how quickly she had switched between dialects, not many Dragonkin could do it as easily as she had. She is an interesting one, nothing like the others I've met. Then again, those I've met have only ever been an opponent in the arena for me. he thought. He nodded politely when she gave her name, though it was likely he would probably mess it up if he had to speak it.
He noticed she was looking over his shoulder for a moment after she had spoken, "Yeah, I am. Well, I'm looking for any sort of work actually. Not too picky. Can't be when you're a mercenary, you know?" he replied. He looked at the patrons, his nostrils flaring a little, "Though the chances of me finding any work among them seems to be nigh impossible tonight." he told her. It was here her earlier words clicked, had she just...no, he was imagining things. And even if she had flirted with him, he really had no interest. That wasn't to say he didn't find her attractive, he just didn't see the point in flirting, harmless or not. Returning from his thoughts, he realized he was staring at the vial again. He quickly turned his gaze from her, becoming a little flustered by this point; he hoped she hadn't noticed his staring. He decided now was an opportune time to depart, before she'd slap him or something, or he made things even more awkward. "It was nice meeting you, I think I will be departing for the night. Hopefully I will have better luck in the morning." he said, standing.
He was in such a hurry to get out of there, his wings had wound up unfolding a bit and hit a few patrons, who luckily either didn't care or gave him a dirty look. Once outside, Aussir began to untie Destiny from the pole, though his focus was off. He stopped and looked at his hands, What the hell was that Aussir?! Get a grip on yourself! he thought, bringing his hands to his snout and lightly smacking it. It's alright, it's over and in the past now. You're good. Let's untie Destiny, make camp, and try again tomorrow. Forget about whatshername, you'll likely never see her again. I mean, how many Dragonkin are there here? The chances of me running into her again are astronomical. So everything's good. Put tonight out of your mind and lets go. he thought as he finally was calm enough to untie the horse. He led it through the city, following the various weaving paths until he had found his usual spot, starting to set up his tent. For the most part, Aussir ignored those around him, though he kept an eye on Destiny. He knew if she became spooked for any reason, she'd bolt, and he'd have nothing.
He finished setting up camp and stretched, looking up at the sky, Are you there mother? Have you always been there? Do you watch everything I do? I wonder if you're happy up there? Or maybe you aren't. Maybe I've disappointed you by not following your path, maybe you're ashamed of me now. Even if you are, I'm still going to take this path I've chosen. Don't worry about me, I'm not lonely...not really. I have Destiny, though she can't talk back, she makes for great company... he stopped his thought. He let out a sigh, who was he kidding? What Dragonkin wasn't lonely? He lowered his head, removing his sword and placing it back in the pack where it belonged before entering his tent. He wondered if he'd get any sleep this night, or if the nightmare would come again. The nightmare. It was always the same, he was younger, in the arena stands with his father. They were watching two Gladiators in the arena going through their scripted fight as part of the celebration being held; things were going perfectly, until it happened. The moment that changed Aussir's life forever. He watched in horror with his father as his mother slipped and fell forward, the battle-axe connecting with her head and cleanly removing it. Ever since that moment, Aussir has had that nightmare, and tonight was no different.
It was hours later and Aussir sat up, breathing heavily, tears flowing down the side of his face. One night! That's all I ask! Just one night of peace! Is that too much to ask for?! he mentally called out to whatever higher being would listen to him. He stood from his bedroll and exited the tent, his eyes glowing brightly, while smoke flowed out from either side of his maw. He was beyond pissed, and he had every right to be. He grabbed his sword and made his way outside of town, though not going very far, stopping at a familiar tree. The tree had evidence of previous slashes along its bark, it was clear Aussir used it to relieve his anger. Tonight was different though, his anger was intensified, yet he didn't know why that was. He looked at the tree for a few moments before stabbing the blade into the dirt, letting his instincts take hold instead. The next moment, he had unleashed all his anger and rage in one long breath of flames, the tree burning until it became nothing more than ash. Aussir's anger was less than before, but he felt like he had to do more. Then it happened, the one thing he held onto so much, the hatred that burned so deep within him, sprang forth. "I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU FOR ABANDONING ME! HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO ME?! I WAS A CHILD! I NEEDED YOU, AND YOU ABANDONED ME! I HATE YOU SO MUCH!" he roared.
He took several breaths, his chest rising and falling rapidly, "I hate you so much, father..." he said to himself quietly. He finally calmed down and looked at the sword, "Why? Why did you leave after mother died? Didn't you love her? Didn't you love me...?" he asked. He drew the blade out and made his way back to his tent, returning the weapon to it's sheathe inside the saddlebag. He wasn't likely going to be getting any sleep now, not after that episode. He decided to pack up camp before starting to wander aimlessly through the town, his mood having changed from anger, to somewhat depressed. He was alone in the world, he always knew that; but tonight, he knew that and felt it more than ever before. He had already resigned himself to being alone, but that didn't stop the feelings of wanting to be loved again, to be needed by another. A natural occurrence in his kin, though he would never admit it, even if he ever did find that someone who needed him. He was a loner, and he decided he would stay that way. Nothing and no one could change his mind.