Ella stood in her place after Marken left to go back to his room, completely shocked. Damn it, why'd he have to go and kiss her like that? And hug her so close to him? Marken treasured her so much, and in such a short time. How could she betray him now? But she had to.
Steeling herself, Ella climbed into bed and waited for a long time before she decided it would be best to go back to Marken's room; the clock in the drawing room stuck 2am and she sat up in bed, sliding out of her sheets. Deciding she didn't want to cause needless fighting & pain, Ella left her dagger under her pillow and clutched the vial of poison in her hand. She would make things swift and painless, and feed Marken the poison in his sleep. With luck, he would just pass away while he was still unconscious.
Gritting her teeth, Ella slowly opened the conjoining door and snuck into Marken's room as he slept. She tip-toed over to his bed in the dark, only able to see due to being trained how to see in dark situations. She imagined wearing glass shoes as always, her movements swift, but quiet.
Ella was unprepared to see Marken as she got to his bedside, her heart pounding wildly in her chest. He was so defenseless , it hurt to look at him. Lying flat on his back, the man slept with slow, even breaths and rested with half of his covers kicked off. He looked so calm and peaceful, and still wrapped around his neck was the cord of her father's amulet. He wore it, even right now? Ella felt her eyes welling up before she closed the poison vial and stuffed it into the pocket of her nightgown and quickly made her way back to her own room.
Her door let out a pretty loud thud as she re-shut it, but with luck, Marken would just assume Ella went go to use the bathroom. With tears now sliding from her eyes, Ella walked over to her bed and fell into it face-first. Damn it, she'd try again tomorrow. She just couldn't bear the thought of him dying right now. it had to be because his mother was still ill, right? Maybe Ella could finish her assignment once Marken was without regrets. Yes, that had to be it.
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By sunrise, Ella hadn't gotten any sleep. Rather than letting herself dwell on it, Ella presumed that it was divine punishment for betraying both Marken and her king with her indecision and secrets. With a sigh, she climbed out of bed. Before that pushy governess came back, Ella was going to give Marken more happy memories. She owed him that, at least.
It was selfish of her, Ella knew it, but she wanted to be close to her until she took Marken’s life. She wanted him to be happy, and to not have any doubts about her feelings. She wanted things to be perfect for him when he crossed over. At this point, she’d already realized that she wouldn't be killing Marken just to go home. The attempt on the Rhal queen was proof that Marken and she would be in constant danger if she betrayed George. She couldn't just throw that on Marken and force him to look over his shoulder for the rest of his life.
Sneaking back into Marken’s room, Ella slowly climbed into the prince’s bed and slid closer to him . The old woman would be furious later, but Ella just wanted to be close to her fiancé at the moment. Being around Marken helped Ella forget that she was such a terrible person.
Moving closer until she shared the same pillow and faced Marken, Ella pulled up the covers to her ears and finally fell asleep, her hand reaching out in her sleep to gently grasp his. As she predicted, she was able to relax, and none of her reoccurring nightmares paid a visit to the resting woman.