IRL: I legitimately have no friends because everyone around me is in to everything that’s illegal, or they’re just genuinely awful people and I would much rather have loneliness than get in trouble, this is why I don’t have other social media’s, to make any form of loneliness tolerable. If someone meets me irl, I will know within the first 15 minutes whether I genuinely like you or not, if I don’t, you will never hear from me again, I don’t like being with people who are the “I need someone hanging out with me 24/7.” Type because I will grow exhausted and sleep longer than what’s healthy when I am alone again. In short IRL, I’m the biggest recluse ever and have it as a defense mechanism
Online: I try to make friends but....I feel like everyone who speaks to me OOC hates me so I don’t do a lot of ooc action, even on other platforms in the past I’ve felt that way because in other hobby forums I’d ask for help with something and get absolutely nothing like I wasn’t there so I’ve just become a phantom with my online presence, I’ll start PM threads but...unless I can feel like that person will be welcoming to my chatter, hyper fixated or not, I won’t say anything about anything ooc