<Snipped quote by Memory>
From what i figured ever since i was pulled from my original timeline and learned such deep wisdoms as the ones we've learned so far, the idea of directionless freedom is but merely an illusion, and really just two perspectives exist, either you exist to serve yourself or to help those ion need. I have chosen the latter and ever since then, even now, i still have something to live for, whereas before i was only self-serving. So yeah, maybe difficult, but once you learn this principle, is up to you whether you stay on its path or derail...
I would be open to learning new lessons if I were in your shoes. Here, order and chaos aren’t what rule. Nothing does. It’s every being for themselves.