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...I hope so....
*Gently pats your back in the embrace*
It's all going to be okay. I'm here now. I won't ever do anything to hurt you.
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*Gently pats your back in the embrace*
It's all going to be okay. I'm here now. I won't ever do anything to hurt you.
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*holds onto tightly, sobbing into your shoulder, clinging to you as if my life depended on it*
It'll be okay...
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You want to know everything? Ok, fine lets start with the whole reason why I'm screwed up. From the very beginning.
*goes into detailed about the issues iwth his childhood first, his dad slaughtering his whole family, him coming ot ifnd out it was out of self defense, them rekindling, the nobility war and its affects on him, Mordric aka Kirina in disguise, his whole relationship with kirina, the torture and r**e he experienced from being captured, every single detial from first to last. His face looked extremely pained through it all, and eventually, ears run down his face from being forced ot relive every traumatic event in his life via this argument*
*Hugs you and holds you close*
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... you cant ask for me to be honest and say you want to be a part of my life and get mad when the truth isnt something you want to hear.
Shinji, you need to understand that I'm mad because everything has snowballed. You need to be upfront with me and tell me what's going on. Ever since... ever since I almost lost you, I haven't been able to think of anything other than "I wasn't there."
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... you know that'll bring you pain and hurt, just like it has so far. You get bit by reality and get mad when it hurts. I am a person with problems. Most of them are only ones I alone can solve, and a few are ones I created myself... you asked me to be honest with you, so i did. Then you began to argue with me about it.... I dont know anymore. You sayyou want a thing and then get mad when I give you it. Do you really want to be a part of my life? Or is every aspect of it going to infuriate you?
What infuriates me is being removed from your life. Every single time, it was when you pushed me away, or kept something from me. I've never once complained about your life being hard.
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... I just want to exist as I am without causing you pain. It seems its all I do is hurt you just by being me...
The truth is... every time youve asked to help, youve only gotten hurt. Wether it be a shocking truth, someone trying to kill the both of us, people trying to drive a wedge in between us... i want better for you.
*Takes your hands in mine*
Then open up to me. Walk with me. Weave me into your life instead of its border.
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You say I'm not thinking you? Blue, I'm the whole reason you got a fresh start. I've been keeping the entirety of the Tier Five off your back and risking loosing everyone close to me because I got close to you. A select few of them want you dead, permanently. and they would be the ones with the means to do it. A majority of my friends hate me now because i sided with you over them. Ive bought you a TON of gifts. I took you on several trips. I always do my best to text you and I havent missed a good morning text in over a year, disregarding the maybe month that I wasi n a coma and under your care, and you know I was right there with tou that entire time. When I woke up, my first thought was you. I think of you every day.
Then let me walk your life with you, darling! You mean too much to me for me to end up on the sidelines when you're hit with so much pain every day!
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Weve talked about immortality a total of three times, and my stance on it hasnt changed. What you want is me to side with you on it and give up. Everything else, like the kids situation and me lying? Completely understandable why you'd be angry, rightfully so. Getting mad at me becuase I don't want to live forever? That just feels shallow. I feel set up in this situation to where no matter what, I won't be able to make you happy. I don't like fighting. I don't liek arguments. What I want to do is come home and see the one person in this entire damn existence who loves me. I wanna do the dishes after we eat a well cooked meal together that we both enjoyed. I want to fold fresh towels from the dryer after we cleaned our home together. I wanna see your beautiful smile in the sunlight as we hike outside on our favorite trail. What your asking is beyond a relationship. That kind of power comes iwth responsibility to use it wisely. I dont want that.
I'm not even asking for it! I'm just asking you to finally think of me for once instead of yourself!
*Pauses*
One thing after another, it's been Shinji the president, Shinji the hero, Shinji the broken, Shinji the rescuer, Shinji the mortal. And I would support you in all of those things! But I always manage to find out after there's nothing I can do to help you anymore!
*Sobs*
I just feel... so excluded from your life.
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That has nothing to do with what I just said. Now you're just yelling at me.
I'm going to get mad at you for not even talking about this kind of stuff with me.
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And yet when I do, you're gonna get mad at me for not choosing it after the hell you had to experience with it yourself?
Your kind of immortals are only half-baked anyway. It's not a real commitment!
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