Sickle-Cell/Donovan
The pair head toward the train station, streets painted beneath the glow of a blood-stained sunset.
“I have no intention of sacrificing my well being, just because you insisted to spin the wheel and it turned up red.” Sickle-Cell sneered, distaste etched across his face.
“This time it’s something as trivial as roulette, but leaving situations of life and death to chance isn’t an acceptable option. I refuse to be dragged through the fire if we don’t have a plan where the outcome will be in our favour. Why someone like you would leave any part of their life undecided amazes me.”
“Because you can’t plan around good fortune and chance. The people who reach the highs in life - the worthwhile places in life - are the same ones who rode the lows at least as many times. Otherwise you’re just stuck with mediocrity, and believe you me, I’d rather take my chances.”
Sickle-Cell snorted abruptly - as though mediocrity was even a possibility worth considering. “Even assuming that were true, I’d still rather control over a mediocre life than one like yours that is rife with uncertainties. In a world where a stray bullet, or small slip can kill you, and me by extension, risks are not something I can allow.
“What part of my life makes you concerned over that?”
“Every moment is a battle for your life, Gambler, especially the way you choose to live it. My whole existence revolves around cancelling that hold chance, luck and fate have over me. Yet you would leave that down to the flip of a coin?” Now, steadily losing his temper.
“Life is a coin-flip - the only thing anyone can do is exploit the good fortune they’re offered. Or are you too scared to accept that?”
“Scared? No. Worried your tendencies will get us into trouble we won’t walk away from? Yes. I do actually intend to see everything this world hides, if you don’t get us both killed by then. I wish you’d actually listen to me.”
“No, you listen,” Donovan growled, unconcerned by the flash of anger in Sickle-Cell’s eyes. “I refuse to live in fear of chance, whatever paranoid delusions you allow to shackle you. I’ve built my life out of opportunities, rolling the dice and biting the bullet - that’s how I take control of my life. Without luck or chance, I wouldn’t have any more chance of seeing the world than you seem to feel you would when you’re burdened by it.”
Inhaling deeply, he continued. “Sometimes you win and you make it big, sometimes you lose and go bust. Life happens. You spend half your existence zig-zagging wildly between the two, never knowing what your next roll of the dice will throw you, but knowing that every passing moment offers you a chance to go big. Does it always happen? Hell no. But you play it smart, plan around what the possibilities and make your own fortune. I’ve never taken a single wager that I couldn’t afford to lose and I didn’t sincerely believe that I could win.”
A wave of disbelief washed over Sickle-Cell. “You would stake your life on those shams of a belief?”
Donovan looked him dead in the eye. “I’ve been doing that every day of my life.”
The two walked in silence for several minutes, Donovan’s words still ringing in Sickle-Cell’s ears. Finally, as the train station loomed into view, Sickle-Cell spoke.
“I can’t really vouch for your methods, Gambler. But I can understand what makes you such a fool.” Despite himself, Sickle-Cell heard a tinge of respect creeping into his voice.
Donovan grinned. “Did I hear a compliment somewhere in that?”
“No,” he said, grinning back. “It was more of a condolence.”