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That feel when its ur birthday but u have no friends to do birthday things with and last year ur family forgot it was ur birthday ... wew huuraaayyy
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My claim to fame is starting the "dicks in clocks" discussion on the status bar ... and shitposting in general.

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The Dinner Prt 1.
Collab Post, Grey, Spud & Silent




All things in life time devours,
More precious than silver or gold,
It can be bought by the hour,
But it can never truly be sold.

If only there was more time in a day. Squeezed out or stretched, just a moment longer. A minute more to hold your beloved and tell him or her ‘I love you.” Was it so much to ask? Was it so much to do? Or was circumstance the cruel interloper who the time we have so limited? All dolled up, a world of relief, whisked away by the magic of a face mask. The years peeled back and lifted, oh if only time was truly so easy. In truth she was still old, beautiful but old. Soon her children will grow up, and like Leith leave her to live their own lives. For now however, it fell upon Meredith to hold this family together. Four o’clock, where did the time go? “Thanks May, for everything. I should drop you back at home, are you finished today? And go pick up Bailey and Taron.”

“It’s quite alright” May replied, she seemed oddly chirpy, more so than usual, it seemed bonding with her sister over a face mask had done her some good as well. “Actually …” she trailed off, “I may or may not be going out myself tonight” she flirted with the idea. She’d been hanging out with other single friends her age, getting back out there, but, also not getting back out there, just being together with like-minded individuals who’d loved and lost or who’d loved and just … fell out of love. Sometimes they went on random trips out, sometimes they pulled, sometimes they didn’t. May didn’t pull, but it seemed her grief was waning slowly and surely. Perhaps tonight someone might catch her eye. Either way, she was happy to let Meredith have some quality time with the kids- or … At least two of the kids. She didn’t want to impose.

“Oh come on May, I need you there if Rick tries anything with in front of the kids. But if you really can’t make it..” Well it was wiser to bring her along.After all, without May, Meredith was rather worried about trusting Rick with the kids.

“Are you sure? … I didn’t want to impose” May’s brows furrowed, she didn’t want to impede too much on the family space, then again … if it was what Meredith wanted, May couldn’t exactly deny her sister, she adored her and Meredith effectively put a roof over her head!

“I’m sure, plus I’d hate to have Rick order a dinner for two or something like that and split it with me romantically. The kids will probably order something they think they’ll like, and I can opt for a dinner for three with you there. I need a third wheel to make sure this evening is more about our family than him.”

May smile-frowned … Smiled because it was nice to be included in the family picture, to be appreciated by Meredith as she was, but frowning because of Meri’s concerns … Her man might make the night about him, she wanted things to be about the family. It went without saying, May had to attend, the kids meant so much to Meredith. “Alright, I won’t say no to a free meal. He is paying right?”

“Do you think we’ll let him not?” A slight chuckle from Meredith as the buildings came into view. Four twenty six, on time to pick Bailey and Taron up, with four minutes to spare. The car’s engine running as Meredith waited for the kids to emerge from school gates, her heart happy to be able to be there for her kids. This time at least.

“Bailey, Sweetie How was your day, was choir fun? Where’s your brother, I was sure he’d be done by now…”

Bailey shrugged, “Yeah, it was alright I guess” she answered, non-committal as always, her answers usually came with little “oomph” in them. May had put it down to regular old teenage angst and apathy.

“Not as fun as you thought it was? Or were the songs just too easy for you honey?” There was a hint of concern in her voice, although a mother’s voice often was far too steeped with concern. Especially in these days, when teabags are left too long in their pots, resulting in a disturbingly bitter brew. And though the tea looked invitingly dark, and felt soothingly hot, only the tongue could taste how vile it was.

“It was fine” Bailey shrugged, “Same as it usually is. Alice got the solos, she's the best in the group” Bailey said, her venom very well concealed, buried deep under layer upon layer of bullying and fear. Alice was always Queen Bee.

“Oh I think you are the best Bailey. When’s your next concert or performance? We can all go and watch.” A look at May practically said ‘they grow up so fast’ times like these were precious memories. Memories which would hopefully never dull against the sharp blade of time and dementia. She would always remember her kids, Bailey, Taron, Leith, if only she could remember a time they were all happy. Or at least didn’t know any better in the case of toddler Taron and baby Bailey…

“I don’t know” Bailey replied, maybe in time they’d forget about “choir”, or she’d claim she grew bored of it and find some other excuse to cover her tracks. Either way, Bailey knew there would be no performances, they wouldn’t see, they weren’t allowed.
“Well maybe you’ll hear soon, schools always organise all sorts of events” May said in a conciliatory tone.

The boy in question was on the other side of the road, leaning against the solid stone wall that made up the first level of his high school. One arm was wrapped around the thin waist of a pretty brown skinned girl, a smile on his lips. This one so unlike the others he showed at home. Those were lopsided, half felt gestures tinged with the slightest bit of sarcasm and contempt. His eyes were on the shorter female his free hand lifting to toy with a pretty black braid. “You would cringe so hard if you met my family,” the teen chuckled, thin braid twirling between his fingers. It wasn’t the first time they had this conversation, most of their time spent at Zuri’s home. It was one of the only places he didn’t feel forgotten.

No one worried about the middle child. No one payed any close attention to what they did outside of the home, hell even inside of the home. Plenty of dinners were skipped while he was shoved into his room to play games, that is, unless he was with Ceren. Then noses would pop in every few moments to ‘see how things were going’. God, they really couldn’t be any more transparent.

Zuri’s was different. They were treated normally, checked in on her because her parents were just kind people, genuinely asking if they wanted something to drink or eat instead of thinly veiled lies to stave off things that would never happen. It didn’t hurt that the girl herself was absolutely breathtaking.

“Taron! Get in! We’ve got a dinner to go to. Sorry! Taron’s gotta change and get ready.” There it is, the cat let out of the bag. How embarrassing to have one’s mother shouting at you from the open window. Who was that next to Taron? Was that Zuri? They looked rather strange together, the boy a half-a-head taller. Still though if Taron found something, Meredith’s mom senses went full tingle and hoped Taron was being smart about how far he was taking the relationship. If Meredith could accept Leith’s choices however, could she really be so worried about Taron? What sort of mother would she be?

May noticed the shorter, dark-skinned beauty hanging out with Taron, so that must be Zuri. May had to admit she was pleasantly impressed, so many girls walked around caked in makeup with their skirts hiked up halfway up their arses, but Zuri seemed fresh, naturally quite pretty without a great deal of fuss. If appearances were anything to go by, Taron had done quite well with Zuri, but then again, she’d never really met the young girl, sometimes the sweetest looking girls could be rotten to the core. May hoped Zuri wasn’t that type of girl.

“Um, Taron, I think they’re waiting on you” Zuri said with a shy smile, pointing toward Meredith’s car. Taron huffed, all hopes of escaping his barely coping family tossed right out the very open window his mother had shouted at him from. Could she be any more annoying? He didn’t dare ask, for fear it may actually come true.
“Unfortunately,” he huffed, an irritated glance cast his mother’s way before it softened as he looked at Zuri. The girl was abnormally sweet and understanding, like a breath of fresh air in his overcrowded home. “I’ll call you afterwards?” He spoke with a hopeful tone. Zuri smiled, nodding in affirmation before her lips met his cheek. It was chaste, much tamer than other kisses they’ve shared, but still made his stomach erupt with butterflies. He smiled, before heading to his car, waving at his girlfriend before dropping into the backseat, smile gone and a mild glare pointed at his mother. “Could you be any more embarrassing?” He spoke, clearly annoyed by her less than...inconspicuous arrival. “Texting is a thing.”




A mother’s hand armed with a pen. The ball rolling ink over the paper pad, curving upwards, then sharply downwards, a turn abruptly done before rising to the right and curling left into the divot. A heart, a symbol so often used in these times its meaning lost. Was it a friendship heart? Thrown at the end of a line between close friends? An endearment or excitement, an innocent cuteness meaning nothing more than friendship? Was it a motherly heart? Filled and overflowing with the care for her child? The remainder of safety and comfort, a caring symbol of a mother’s love. Was it a lover’s heart? Something which means more than the other two, much more. Of which it was clear by her message, to which she had attached the money Ceren had turned down.

Richard invited us to dinner this afternoon,
feel free to stop by if you can make it.
Some cash for you and Ceren to have dinner together.
❤ Mom.

“Taron, Bailey! Are you both ready?” Peeking out the door, Meredith could see Kristoff waiting by an SUV. Six seats, Meredith, May, Leith, Taron and Bailey, with Kristoff of course as driver. Richard must have already been waiting at the place. At least they were spared the conversation with Richard in the car, and Kristoff was never much of a conversationalist. Meredith could ask him all the questions she wanted and the man seemed to only reply with an indifference to everything, or a rare nod or directional hand gesture. Meredith assumed he was a mute. “Come on kids, Kristoff’s waiting!”

Bailey sloped down the stairs, wearing one of the “dinner dresses” Meredith had stashed in her wardrobe when Richard first came on the scene. “Looking presentable” was important apparently … despite the lovely knee-length dress, Bailey still wore a pair of converse sneakers that didn’t match. She didn’t really care much about getting dressed up or glamorous … she didn’t feel pretty enough for all that fuss. Her hair was scooped back into a messy loose bun. Her head and toes didn’t match the lovely dress in the middle at all. May frowned when she noticed Bailey’s lazy appearance, but what could she do? May on the other hand looked quite swanky. The beautiful dress Will had gotten her still fit (actually fit a little better now, she’d lost a couple of pounds), hair swept back off her face, a subtle dusting of bronzer gave her a healthy glow and glossy red lipstick completed the look.

Taron bounded down the stairs, nose in his phone. His fingers flew over the screen as he texted, who one could only assume, was his girlfriend. He wore a button up shirt and black slacks with black leather shoes. It was minimal, seeing as neither child actually wanted to go, neither really put much effort into dressing. Sending off his last text, phone slipped into his pocket, Taron was the only one who dared question anything his mother did, especially if he didn’t want to do it. “Why do we have to go to dinner so you can make googly eyes at your boyfriend again?” he wondered with an air of nonchalance as he made his way to the door. This whole thing was stupid and he much rather be at Zuri’s or hanging out with Ceren, not that his mother was a fan. Honestly, he’d rather be anywhere but with his mother and her boyfriend at dinner.




irasshaimase!

Greetings, it seemed as they entered. Haru looked like quite the place. Decorated in arranged flowers receded into hanging shelves, the smell of food wafting through the air as fires erupted from the hot tables controlled by the hat-toting, knife catching chefs entertaining diners with knifework and foodplay. It was rather vibrant, alive with the graces of the far east, with fancy carved dividers and stone-tabletops. Bottles of wine behind the counters of a long bar where men in suits clinked their stoneware cups with shouts of cheers. An old man stood behind a glass case, his hands pressing slivers of raw fish into blocks of rice, the look on his face as if he was concentrating on every single grain within his hand to marry them with each other and the fish. And to top it all off, the epitome of being a high-end place perhaps, was the hot towels the hostess offered with which was supposedly to relax with and the slippers. Oh yes, slippers for the floors were wood and guests were instructed to remove their shoes and check them in with the front, in the alcoves behind the wall and enjoy a semi-authentic experience. Oh Good. at least Bailey’s shoes wouldn’t be a problem now.

Bailey wasn’t impressed … Then again, pizza and chips was her idea of a good dinner … not this avant-garde or a-la-carte or … whatever fancy french word this high-class food went by. May was more than happy to be there though, ooh-ing and ah-ing at the talented chefs at work. Taron was being his cynical teenage self, scoffing at it all, sharing much of the same attitude as his sister.

Being requested to take off her shoes resulted in Bailey’s nose crinkling slightly in confused disgust … Who ate with their big smelly feet stinking up the room? Eww, weird. Still, she had no choice but to comply and shook off her beat up sneakers. No doubt if Richard saw the much-loved sneakers, he’d immediately demand they take her out shopping for a new pair. Bailey wouldn’t give them up easily though, they were comfortable and she’d grown attached to them as teenage girls often did.

“Will always said he’d love to see the Far East in person someday” May sighed, sadly a dream never realised. She could never hope to afford restaurants like this, she and Will had experimented with recipes at home, or gone to the small Asian market in town, this place was 5* posh-nosh, as much as sushi reminded her of Will, May was well aware that this experience was utterly unlike the kinds she’d shared with her old flame, it was probably better that way, if she were in the Asian market eating a warm sticky pork-bun from a napkin she may have been reduced to tears. This was a welcome change from that familiarity, and yet, it was nice to eat Japanese food again and enjoy it without the sharp pang of loss stabbing at her gut.

“Oh wow..” Meredith was impressed, well more than impressed: amazed. This was a place they would probably have never even imagined they would be eating at. How much does the food cost? They haven’t even given us a menu or anything to look over, was that a lobster tank around the wall they just passed by? And prawns? Langoustines? Far too rich for their blood. “Let’s make sure Rick foots the bill huh May?” A laughing jest, May stifled a chuckle as they followed their hostess to the table. Their table it seemed was behind a private screen, a sliding door of authentic paper, a shoji, which was pulled back to reveal Richard fiddling with his phone before they caught his attention.

“Meri! May! It’s great to see you all!” Well not all, Leith was missing but it seemed that was small potatoes to Richard. “Come on sit down, we’ve got the entire table to ourselves. Spread out, but you’re right next to me obviously Meri, I’ll have them clear off Leith’s spot since he’s clearly decided not to join us tonight.” Richard was already starting it seemed, taking control of the situation and asserting himself into a position of power within the family already.

“Thanks for inviting us Rick, sadly Leith had to work late, I’m sorry he couldn’t make it to this lovely dinner you’ve set up for us. May, did you want to be next to me and the kids could be on the other side? Taron you’re fine with sitting next to Richard right? And Bailey you can sit with Taron sweetie, you’re both old enough to not need mom or aunt May right? Or would you rather have Mommy next to you and auntie with your brother?” And now it seemed Meredith was all the better, quickly playing musical chairs to put the damper on Richard’s attempt to push her family around. Hopefully Richard would forget all about the missing member, and they could all have an enjoyable evening together.

May knew it was a lie … She was positive everyone knew the lie... Leith hadn’t decided, he’d been deceived, but it was for a greater good. Bailey knew it was better that Leith wasn’t here, though she’d have liked his company. She shuffled from place to place as she was bid. Quiet and moody, but at least she was an obedient little girl. May noticed her grades slipping slightly at school but didn’t voice concern, it may have been an unlucky string of tests, if it was something to be worried about, Meredith would have picked up on it by now.

Taron stared at his mother for a long moment, watching as she let yet another jibe at her eldest son slide, and for what? He didn’t understand why she put up with this, why she let Richard get away with the things he said. If it were anyone else, and he did mean anyone else, Meredith would have their heads. Everyone knew Leith was the golden child, that he could do no wrong. It was annoying beyond belief but Leith was always obnoxiously kind, so Taron really didn’t hold it against him, not really. His mother was what annoyed him, what made him feel any animosity towards his brother.

The lie that spilled from her lips only made his contempt for the woman grow. Not only was it a crock of complete bullshit, it was transparent as hell. He kept it to himself though, rolling his eyes and doing as the woman said. He felt his phone vibrate in his back pocket, mood lifting slightly as he pulled his phone out, a light smile flickering for just a moment.

“Oh, that reminds me, I’ve got some gifts for everyone. Taron, come here and help me with this box. I hope it’s something you like, I don’t know what the kids your age are playing these days so I asked the guy to help me choose the best.”

Taron’s gaze flicked up from his phone, half annoyed about being dragged away from Zuri, again, yet half intrigued. It was no secret that Richard tried to buy them. Taron allowed it because, well, who wouldn’t accept free shit? The guy was a prick and he loathed having to be here at all, but the large box was what made it almost not so bad. He still hated Richard, gifts or not, but at least he got something for being at this. A large box, rather suspiciously heavy, stacked with a thinly disguised layer of three rectangular addons over the top surface. Any gamer could probably guess what those three bulges were, and the contents of the wrapped box. It was a rather poor attempt to disguise a gaming console and three new games. A PS4, a shooting game, action-adventure and racing, all trying to pretend to be so mysterious.

“Rick, you shouldn’t have, Taron’s already spending too much time on his games-”

“Oh it’s fine Meri, it’s fine isn’t it Taron? Tell your mother you’ll still focus on your studies and whatever it is she’s concerned about while still playing your new games.”

“I’ll study or whatever,” Taron muttered with a shrug before he took his new gift to his seat, setting it beside himself, phone back out as he text Zuri the latest ‘crap’ Richard just tried to buy him with.

“And for your sister, Bailey, come here princess, I’ve got something for my Meri’s little girl… Close your eyes sweetie.”

Bailey looked at May, and then Meredith, then closed her eyes and shuffled over to Richard’s side. A handbag placed across her shoulder. Honestly a pretty-in-pink-pastel Kate Spade, slung across Bailey’s shoulder as Richard produced it from a large bag. A bunch of girls cosmetics inside the bag, nail polish in every major color, blush, lipstick, and shadow, everything a girl needs to feel beautiful and conceal all of her insecurities. Showering both kids in gifts, gifts Richard thought would be appropriate to win them over and thus show Meredith and May he was capable of being more than a provider but a good father to the kids.

Bailey’s eyes peeked open at the weight added to her shoulder. She didn’t know what a “Kate Spade” handbag was, but she knew who Richard was and knew that it wasn’t one of those knock-offs that Alice paraded around as if it was original. She couldn’t begin to guess how much the bag was worth. For a second she felt a tingle in her chest. Someone was spoiling her … Taron, Leith, May and Meredith tried to make her feel special, kind words when they had the time, but they simply didn’t have the time. Now Richard’s money attempted to fill the void in her chest that bullies chipped away at. She didn’t know much about make-up because the family could ill-afford it and sometimes Meredith would use the lame excuse “You’re too young to wear that much make-up”, even though all the other girls caked it on.
A small, cautious smile cracked across Bailey’s face. Maybe if she got good enough at her make up, the bullies couldn’t call her fat, ugly, Snailey … Maybe they’d actually like her.

“And one more thing... Because you’re a pretty princess…” Richard added, a tiara, gingerly slid into place. Sterling silver and of beautiful craftsmanship,bedazzled with glittering jewels surely imitation for a girl her age but still glamorous nevertheless, but each point capped with an authentic ruby gemstone. “There, how do you feel princess? I’m sure any boy would want to have you for his happily ever after now.” Kissing Bailey on the hand before turning to May and presenting her with a small envelope before Meredith could protest that it was all too much.

Bailey slid the tiara from her hair so she could examine it herself, before letting the dainty jewelled ornament slide back into place … Sure, she could argue that she was too old for kiddy-playtime tiara’s but … It didn’t feel like a cheap novelty toy, it was like the girls in the fashion magazines wore. She wished Leith were here. She wondered what kind of gift Richard would have gotten him. Leith didn’t appear to like things in general, give him a broken car to fix up and he was happy as a pig in shit. Broken things weren’t really Richard’s style though were they? He dealt in luxury high-end extravagant treats.

“And for you May, there’s a Seven Hundred Dollar Gift Card to Neiman Marcus in there. I don’t know your numbers.” the man said with a cheeky wink, in front of a blushing Meredith who just stood there flabbergasted at loss for words. “I’m sure you can find something that looks good on just like that dress you’re wearing tonight, you’ll definitely have to show me next time.”

May was slightly taken aback … it was a bit odd her sisters fella would spend such a ludicrous sum on her. Even men she’d dated didn’t drop that kind of cash, but it was spare change to Richard. The cheeky comment didn’t go amiss though, she’d remember that later, then again, you’d have to be blind, deaf and dumb to miss Richard’s arrogance. “Thank you Richard, this is very, very generous of you” May replied with a red-lipstick smile, careful not to be too grateful, she was after-all, the sister of the “girlfriend” and not the girlfriend.

“And for my Meri, my beautiful Meri, I know your numbers…” Richard embraced her, letting the joy of the showering of expensive gifts let him do whatever he wants to her in full view of her family as Richard nuzzled her flushed cheeks, “You look so nice in that dress, I’m almost sad I got you this one…” A black backless dress, one far less conservative than the old one Meredith wore in blue, “Good thing I got you some shoes, and something else too…” The shoes not presented like the dress which was swung around and then dropped back into the bag as Richard picked up something and made his way behind a completely overwhelmed Meredith.

A touch of cold metal dropped around her neck, the modest cut of her hemline being threatened as Richard’s hands touched the bare skin. A golden necklace with teardrop pendant sporting three diamonds getting larger as they fell down towards her chest. An expensive piece certainly, as Richard placed it around her neck. It was a very beautiful collar with which caesar claimed his list. A kiss to the back of her neck sealed the brand after his fingers locked the necklace in place. “There, I hope you like it. Only the best for my girls, and boy. Now let’s eat I’m starving.”

So many things wrong with those last words. First, Meredith hated that it was Richard who gave such a precious gift to her. Second was the ironic statement he made about starving, a fatcat like him starving as if he was blaming the wait on them. And third of course was the use of boy, not that Taron was a man yet, but what about Leith? Leith was Meredith’s boy, and by extension should also have been mentioned by Richard. But she had to let it go unless she wanted to spoil dinner for them all this evening. “I love it! Thank you Rick, you really do spoil us so, all of us.”

Richard knew that look. “I’ve got something for Leith too, even if the boy didn’t show. It’s in the bag, just take it home with you before we leave. Now, how about a dinner combo for two? The menu’s really quite something isn’t it? A full five-course meal with everything you order pretty much. Soup, Sushi, The meats cooked right in front of you, a fresh Salad, and ice cream. How about you May? Anything you see you’d like? Feel free to order Appetizers too, anything you want kids, oh and what will we all have to drink? They give you tea, but I’m in the mood for something a little more fizzy, and adult, May? Meri?”

“Bubbly sounds lovely Rick, maybe some sodas for the kids? Do they have sodas here? And I was thinking of either sharing something with May or the kids, I don’t know if the kids can eat it all, May? Taron you found something you like can you eat it all by yourself? Bailey honey? How about some fried dumplings gyoza I think? Or maybe the Teriyaki chicken and fried rice?” Concern asking for a consensus around the table, trying to just have an ordinary family dinner they could possibly never afford if it were not for Richard’s big fat thick…debit card.
“Do they have pizza and chips?” Bailey asked, high-end cuisine didn’t quite cater to her young, fast-food-loving palette. Potato chips and whatever was on top of her pizza was pretty much the majority of the vegetables that Bailey ate.
@Spud SPUDSY!! <3333


an Ex-govvy chick, tough as nails, has a prosthetic arm, scares the shit out of people by telling them she got bit and hacked off her own arm to prevent the infection getting to her, but really she lost the arm LOOOOONG before the outbreak and just likes to fuck with people.

Hates the govvy way of doing things, probably a bit of a petty criminal but if you're on her good side, you've got a pal for life!

Thas what im thinkin anyhow
Lets get greasy... I'd play a greaser I think ... or maybe an ex-govvy-turned-greaser ... heh
Car Service

-Collab Post-

Spud + SilentWriter83


((lemme know if you wanna change/add/edit/delete anything Si!!!))

"Son-of-a" Leith cursed under his breath, though he never finished the curse. Despite his age, his “manliness”, Leith was unbelievably polite and averse to using swear words or foul language.
A gasp escaped him when hands wrapped around his firm waist, flat, toned, muscles clenched slightly from the way he was leaning over the car. A small laugh bubbled up from behind the taller, more muscular man, his lover finding it rather humorous he was so jumpy.
He was reluctant to grab Ceren with his pot-black grubby hands, and yet, nothing would have pleased him more.
"Well I guess you may be overdue a service Leith purred, grabbing a chammy that was draped over a part of the car and attempting to rub off some of the stubborn dirt and oil.
“So overdue,” Ceren purred softly, hands sliding over narrowed hips, squeezing gently, intimately.

Dammit, it had been too long … the house was too frigid and stiff … He needed the intimacy, they needed it. Kisses and hugs and sharing a bed were all well and good, but sometimes you needed that rush, that prickling of the skin, that heat and friction … and that simply couldn’t happen at home while anyone else was around. If things got too heated, even if it was mild stuff, they had to pour cold water on themselves immediately, lest they take things too far.

Hands clean, he turned around and allowed his eyes to scan over Ceren, delightful as always. Hands settling on Ceren’s hips, the teen’s looping around the older males neck, he planted a kiss on his lips, not a promise for more unfortunately, but affection nonetheless.

"Can you give me a second, I left a few bolts loose down there I ought to tighten” Leith asked.
Ceren gave a sigh, but what could he do, it would only take a minute, he could wait. Arms loosened, hands trailing down a toned chest over the fabric of an old, thin tshirt. A low purr vibrating through him as an idea sprang up in his young man. "Maybe...I could help?” he suggested, blue eyes flicking up to Leith’s burning with a passion that needed to be sated.
"You could get me fired if you keep talking like that” Leith replied lightly, a laugh in his tone. Regardless, he lay back on the creeper, ready to slide under the car and poke around.
A light laugh, Ceren’s blue eyes watching the other slip beneath the car. Teeth dug shyly into his bottom lip, eyeing the man beneath the car. He glanced over his shoulder, no one around. Eyes fell back down, a plan forming in the devious mind.
"That wouldn’t be so terrible,” he mused, rounding the vehicle Leith was working on. “We’d spend more time together,” he chuckled, obviously joking. Ceren would never wish for Leith to be fired for such selfish wants. That didn’t mean he couldn’t toy with him.
"You know I get off work in just a couple hours right?” Leith asked rhetorically, but Ceren knew of course, not that patience played much of a role in this anyway.
He paused where knees were bent, sticking out from beneath the car. Brown hands wrapped around the edges of the small scooter helping the other slide in and out of his workspace. A quick flex of muscle, a sharp tug of the wheeled platform and they were once again face to face. “Your point being?” Ceren chuckled, not waiting for an answer before warm lips were pressed together, searing and needy and so full of love.
An expert tongue slipped between plush pink lips, tasting a cavern he’d already memorized, yet still excited him.
Leith failed to resist … then again, Ceren was exceptionally talented at stealing and keeping his attention even when Leith had other things he ought to be doing. A wrench (that fits right? lol) was dropped aside, forgotten at least temporarily as Leith’s hands found Ceren’s waist. A subtle push of his foot and the car became a canopy … Maybe his boss wouldn’t notice … at least if they didn’t make much noise, and heck, maybe he’d not be back that soon anyway.

Ben returned from his lunch break, nursing a bacon sandwich and a styrafoam cup of coffee. He could have sworn Leith was bashing away at the Volks Wagon when he’d left but … there didn’t seem to be any work going on around the hood where Ben had left him. Then he heard a sound …
"Shh- Baby”
"I can’t-”
"Wait I think I heard something-”
"You did” Ben interrupted, clearly he’d walked in on something. "Under the car? Really Leith?” Ben rolled his eyes, hoping the two figures beneath the car were decently clothed at least.

Two bodies slipped from beneath the truck, one with wide, innocent and frightened eyes, the other with a cheeky smirk painted on his lips.
"You know this isn’t your bedroom right?” Ben said pointedly, but lightly.
"I don’t even have a bedroom” Leith mumbled under his breath, he wasn’t the confrontational type … but it was bloody frustrating having no personal space.
“It could always be converted, right?” Ceren mused with a smirk plastered on his plump, pink lips, eyes flashing with amusement as he lay next to Leith, jeans tighter than before, Leith’s clothes a little looser than they should have been.
"Not likely Ceren, customers usually want their cars back after they’ve been fixed and not with new stains. Cmon, parties over” Ben gently chided.

Reluctantly … and with tremendous embarrassment, Leith brushed himself off, gave Ceren a look that was half-warning, half-apologetic, before he disappeared under the car again.
Maybe, just maybe he’d get home before the rest of the family and they could have a moment together … it wasn’t particularly likely but … stranger things had happened. Leith pressed and poked at parts till finally things started to work again, idly chatting with Ceren while he worked as Ceren sat on a clean spot on one of the workbenches.
Bailey Gets Bullied


Bailey was more than happy to let Taron take the front seat, she could slump down in the back, no one would see her, she'd hopefully make it to class just in time so she didn't run into her bullies first. Then she'd only have to tolerate them through lunch. Today could be a good day or ... well, a less awful than usually day. Hopefully.

She muttered a "thanks" as Ceren dropped her off outside the park. No friends waiting for her, but no bullies. She slid out of the backseat and skulked through the park gates.

Maybe today would be a good day ... or rather, a less horrible than it had to be day. She could get to first period just in the nick of time, then Alice and her friends would only get to pick on her during lunch period and in one or two of her classes. She could skip the morning torment they'd saved up for her.

It seemed today wasn't to be her lucky day ... In fact, it was as rotten as always, or maybe worse so.

"Hey Snailey. Saw you getting dropped off at the park today" Alice sneered.
Shit ... they know ... they saw... Bailey's heart sank. Now they had more ammo. They had more things to laugh about, more things to tease her about.
"Was your mom and brother too busy to drop you off at school you had to get a lift from his Buttfriend-I-mean-boyfriend?"
The girls erupted in giggling.

"Did your mom forget to make you lunch again today Snailey?"
"No" Bailey insisted. Mom had made lunch.
"Really? Prove it" Alice sneered.
"Yeah, prove it Snail!"
Lisa grabbed a fistful of Bailey's still-damp hair and "squealed "yuck" as Alice snatched her bag, chucking out her things unceremoniously making snide remarks.

"Slimey-hair-Snailey" Lisa crowed.
Alice made a lewd comment about Leith and Ceren doing inappropriate things in the shower, so that Bailey had to wash her hair with a yard hose like a dog. Lisa barked at her. Bailey cringed. She knew the birds and the bees, she didn't know how gay stuff worked and even though she loved Leith dearly, she didn't quite want to know how he had sex. He had the respect to keep his sex-life totally separated from her life. She knew he was careful, appreciated it ... Now the sanctity of that privacy, Leith keeping those things private to spare her, was broken and school-bullies were throwing rude remarks about her brother in her face.
Lisa began making lewd gestures and cackling. Bailey wanted to tell her she had fat legs and a witch nose but she couldn't do it. She endured Alice and Lisa cackling and gagging at their own rude suggestions of what happened in Bailey's bathroom in the morning.

Finally, Alice dug out Bailey's lunch and tossed her bag aside.
"Oh so you weren't lying." Alice remarked, waving the lunch bag in Bailey's face. "Are you gonna cry and stuff your greasy face, Snail?"
"Yeah, Fat Snail!" Lisa chorused.
"Fat Slimy Snail, Fat Ugly Snail!"

The torment was broken by the bell ringing. Alice and Lisa cackled and walked away, parting with a few snide remarks as Bailey choked down tears, kept on her best brave face and packed her things into her bag.

This wasn't how she wanted to start her day ... this was't how it was supposed to be. She was careful, she went through the park, she didn't show up on the halls on her way to class until the last moment and still ... they got her.

She avoided class. Zipped to the bathrooms and locked herself in the stall. Her throat and chest aching and her eyes stinging as she scrubbed away the tears.

She was late to first period. Hoping her eyes weren't too red, she kept her head down and took her seat. She just had to get through lunch now, and that one afternoon class where Lisa sat behind her.

Lunch was much the same as always. She tried to get away. To hide. But eventually they found her. The torment continued same as ever. This time Karen was there too, and one of the boys from the year above Bailey's. They circled her and pushed her around.

"Choir practice" couldn't come sooner and by the time final bell rang, Bailey couldn't run fast enough to the cramped stall in the old gym toilets that was rarely ever used ever since the new toilets were installed.

It was cold and dank and dark ... but at least she was alone. No bullies to find her. No aunt or mom to fret about her. No brothers or brothers-boyfriends ... The toilet stall almost felt more "hers" than her own bedroom since her two new tenants occupied half the space.

Even now. As she wept into her lap, she couldn't blame Leith for being the way he was. He didn't even know the pain his lifestyle caused her. If he knew, he'd be crushed by it, she couldn't bear to dump that on him. She couldn't be mad at her mom for finding comfort in another guy who ... wasn't all that bad really ... rude and a bit stuck up, but he spoiled mom ... Even Leith had said, quietly, when it was just the two of them sitting on her bed, "You don't have to like him, I don't like him ... but he makes mom happy. We have to be happy for her." Even pointing out his horrible comments didn't sway Leith's stance on Richard. He made mom happy, they had to just grin and bear it.

The ache in her chest didn't ease, but eventually she ran out of tears and washed her face in the sink. Sniffing and furiously rubbing her eyes, wishing the redness would subside. It was 4.30 now. Mom would be waiting at the school gates and she had to look "normal". She had to look like she just spent her time singing with choir and chatting to friends she didn't really have.

Leith's day, by comparison, was going far better. Though he'd have liked to spend the day in bed with Ceren, exchanging nauseatingly-sweet comments, he had work. But he liked his work and Ceren would be there when he came back. He'd get a day off sooner or later and they'd make up for lost time.

Right now, he was lying on a creeper, under the belly of a car, looking up at a maze of pipes and tubes and parts.
"Cmon girl, tell me what ails you" he mumbled to himself, inspecting a piece here and there. Overalls unzipped and the sleeves tied around his waist. A stained t-shirt on on top, beat-up sneakers on his feet. Leith, more often than not, looked delightfully scruffy. Even for his Coffee-shop job, he wore faded denim jeans, an ironic shirt and the same sneakers he wore when he worked on cars. A shame really, he had the looks of a model and would scrub up well if he wasn't committed to "looking like a grease-monkey" as his coworker Linda often reminded him.

"Try it again Nick" Leith called. Nick gave the key a twist, the engine creaked and groaned but still nothing.
Leith slid out from under the car and lowered the jack. Scratching his head, leaving a black smudge on his temple, he popped the bonnet and leaned in, looking around and jiggling parts, utterly absorbed in his work.
Would an LP of Skyrim SE even be all that worth it? It's not any different than vanilla Skyrim, and for that there's been thousands of those already.

Surely if you want to LP a new game, the Special Edition of Skyrim would be the last thing on the list.


Pretty much my point exactly.
Well I do have something but I can't post any videos yet. I was picked to be an Alpha tester for Mirage, the game made by the same people as Chivalry Medieval Warfare, if you're familiar with that game. BUT, being early Alpha, they have a clause against recording/posting any videos of it for now, which suuuucks because that game is going to be big, that's my guess. It's fantastic right now and it's just in it's 3rd Alpha. Mixing Chivalry with a magical twist.

Other than that, I just don't have any of the really new games so I have to do something older. I started to do an Outlast recording, but my rendering/editing software decided to be a prick and I didn't finish rendering the thing -_-


That sounds REALLY interesting!!! First off, thanks for not getting salty about my criticism(s)? Some people can't take any kind of concrit so its good when people are open to listen at least (I mean you don't have to take on board anything I say, but at least being polite about it when someone politely concrits is a good thing.)
Okay back on track, I'm not familiar with Chivalry, but the fact you're involved with an early Alpha shows 1. You're clued in on what games are coming up/industry etc, any idiot can play Happy Wheels, keeping up with indie games and early releases shows you aren't picking the easy finds or clickbaity stuff you're putting in the work with researching and following new games. Seriously, props to you!

Can you talk to someone from Mirage about talking about it maybe? Since you can't show footage, perhaps you could do a sort of vlog or info vid about what you think so far, offer some ideas/suggestions, rave about how cool it is etc, sort of sate the appetite for vids of the game before it even comes out so when you can release footage, well, then you go do that!!!

See about doing collabs, they're more often than not good for both channels involved. Its fun to watch one guy play games, its double fun to watch two guys struggle through a coop or shoot each other in the ass and tell lame jokes.

Yeah, Im just spouting out words now. See if you can talk about Mirage at least and keep a close eye on when you can release some footage of a playthrough, if you're the first one to do it/get out there early, it'll work in your favour.

All the best man, it sounds like you have real potential and the smarts to get it done. Hate to bash on skyrim playthoughs (they ARE fun, just 10 a penny). Maybe you could add some gimmick to it like playing "in character" where YOU dress up as a Dohvakiin and make terrible jokes about Odin and stuff (tbh I'd find that fucking hilarious, not sure if its been done before though) and your character is a normal bard doing normal bard things etc.
Sisterly Things
- Collab Post -
Spud + The Grey Dust


“Bailey Honey, what time is choir over? Is there any papers for me to sign or anything so you can be in it? Are your friends all joining too?” Choir? That was strange, but then again Meredith hardly had time to understand Bailey’s life at school anyways. Any interests or new hobbies would have barely registered in the mother’s already scattered mind. Still though, Meredith asked her rapid-fire questions, trying to wrangle her car-pool-plans into submission. Of course Bailey could get the bus, but getting a lift would give Meredith some time with her youngest daughter, much needed time she couldn’t afford to lose. There was no way she’d let this one go this time.

“4.30-ish I guess. There’s no papers, you just show up … Yeah, my friends are there too” Bailey shrugged, as if the carpool and questions were inconveniences.

“Alright, Taron you don’t mind hanging around a little bit after school do you? I’ll pick you both up after Bailey’s choir practice is over, you can hang back and get an early start on that homework” Ever the mom, Meredith had already thought ahead it seemed, thinking that dinner take longer than expected. Or worse, Richard would smother them all with more gifts as he so often felt the need to buy the family’s happiness. Parting her two little ones, a kiss on the brow for Bailey, and a less awkward a mom hug for Taron, she waved goodbye as they marched out the door, lunches packed away in their knapsacks, to school. There was some reluctance, but which kid did not have such hesitations about going to class? Things seemed so goddamn normal on the surface. As is the normal in this house, it seems. “Have a great day at school!” Shouted words echoing to chase after the three bodies that just left.

With the kids out at school, Leith probably already elbows deep in an engine at this hour, May and Meredith were left to their own devices. May drained the last of the wine in her glass, she could tell that Meredith needed a pick me up. Anyone starting the morning with their OJ glass full of wine was clearly in need of a boost (a boost of the non-alcoholic kind). But in this house of glass who can blame them?

“Whaddya say I treat you to a facial at the salon hmm? Seems like you could use a treat. I’ll get some lunch delivered from that place across the street that you like and you can just lie back, relax and tell me everything that’s on your mind. Clearly, I’m only scratching the surface” May Suggested. An open invitation others would certainly leap at, especially knowing they were going out later in the evening. Who would say no to a day to relax at a salon?

“I don’t know May … There’s probably work I could be doing here at home. Maybe I could plan something nice to do with the kids or get them a little treat or-” Meredith started. Prattling on the list of excuses she made for her sister, and more so for herself to enjoy an afternoon cozying up to a spa chair with heaven on her face. Such expoliation to draw out the toxins on her mind, what a perfect allegory and yet still she thought of ways to avoid drawing those dark thoughts out.

“With what money?” May retorted. She knew as good as any that they were skint. They had the house, but it was too small, they couldn’t afford to rent somewhere else even though they seriously needed the room. And it’s not like Meredith could just ask for Richard to buy them a bigger place, no that would be so desperate to throw away the last bit of dignity her sister had left for herself. “You need a treat yourself first. Keep on worrying like that and then you’ll have wrinkles sprouting up everywhere, neither you nor Richard wants that” May warned. She knew as well as Meredith that losing Richard this late in the game was a gamble that couldn’t be taken lightly.

You need a treat yourself

That’s rich, Meredith thought. Wasn’t she spoiled enough already? A wealthy guy buying her dresses, taking her on fancy dates, having her driven about town by a chauffeur. She was lavished in these things and yet, May thought more spoiling would fix this? She felt guilty. She couldn’t protect Leith from Richard’s barbs, and couldn’t afford to turn the man away. She half-wished she could pry into Leith’s mind and figure out if he understood, if he didn’t hate her for her choice, but then part of her was scared of what she’d find. What kind of mother let a man into her house if he said the things Richard said about her son? Bailey and Taron were younger, perhaps they didn’t know why she did it, maybe they were blissfully ignorant of the ugly truth. She could only hope. Taron seemed to warm to Richard, that almost eased her conscience, even just slightly. He needed a father figure in his life, especially at his age, though Meredith loathed to admit Richard could be that figure, she could hardly deprive her middle-child of the attention either. She really couldn’t win. And Bailey … well she just floated along where the current took her which was worrying in its own way.

“C’mon, we’re going to the salon, put on some comfy shoes and get your bum out the door” May insisted. The voice of reason dragging her sister back from the depths of crushing despair. Yes, perhaps a day at the salon was godsend, and they could catch up there together, as sisters. Facials aside, Meredith knew she needed to get some of this, even just the tiniest bit, off her chest. Her sneakers clashed with her dress but she didn’t care, for just one moment today, she didn’t need to present herself impeccably, for Richard.




The salon was soothing from the moment she passed over the threshold. Meredith eased back into a comfy reclining salon chair in one of the back rooms. Soft tranquil music floated through the air, oils and lotions and potions lightly perfumed the air. May put on her salon over-dress, or as she called it her “Posh-Apron”, the salon name embroidered on the lapel. She heated up a soothing face mask as Meredith hesitantly allowed herself to unwind.

“Is it dinner that has you this wound up?” May asked, smoothing a mint-green coloured mask on Meredith’s cheeks.

“Well it certainly doesn’t help, but no, that’s not it” Talking while the mask was worked out, contours shifting, but alas conversation was more important that beauty right now. For the Mona Lisa cannot talk.

“Well, then spill it. I only have a couple of clients to deal with today so I have time to listen”

“That’s the problem May. I don’t have time for my kids.”

“I already explained this hon, the kids are at the age where they don’t cling to their mothers skirt, they’re growing up and independent.”

“And miserable”
Meredith interrupted.

“Well now you’re exaggerating. Leith doesn’t like Richard and I’m sure he’d rather be in his own place instead of sharing his sister’s room, but you’ve let Ceren move in with him, you’ve supported him, what more could he ask for? Bailey is a moody teen and Taron actually seems to be getting along quite well. Are you having problems with Richard? Because the kids are doing fine, are you trying to use them as a scapegoat for the real problem here because you know you can’t hide things from me sis.”

May had her points … maybe Leith would be uncomfortable at home even if Richard was out of the picture … Though that didn’t seem likely. He adored Bailey and as awkward as the logistics were, sharing his sisters room wasn’t all that bad. Richard was what upset him, and, May suspected, his suspicions that Meredith wasn’t as comfortable with him as she acted perhaps. But Richard … well, May didn’t know him quite so well as her sister and her nephews and niece. If he was the problem, she’d need a little more info to go on to get to the root of it.

“Has he said something? Are you two having troubles?” May pried.

Richard was a much needed financial anchor for the family, whether anyone cared to admit it or not. If they were having troubles, it was no surprise Meredith would be stressed out.
Meredith let out a wear sigh, May was about to get hit by a tsunami of micro-and-major problems.

“I’m sleeping with a man to try and support my family-”

“That’s not entirely true, surely there’s something there, he’s not the worst-”
May attempted to justify.

“A man who calls my eldest son vile things,” there was no disagreeing with that point, “Rick always wants me around him all the time, so I barely see my kids. Who’s there to tell Leith that he’s not wrong or broken or vile? Then there’s Ceren, and I don’t approve, but what can I do? My hands are tied. Taron’s starting his own step into love but he spends so much time at his girlfriend’s house, we haven’t even had the birds and bees talk, and dammit May, it's bad enough with Leith and Ceren in the house I don’t want another one moving in or... And little Bailey … she’s just so distant. She was always a quiet one but now it’s like we don’t even speak the same language. It’s because of Richard? It is isn’t it. She doesn’t like him, that has to be it but he’s the only hope of getting her through college and she’s a clever girl. I can’t deprive her. I just want the best for them all, but I can’t… I’ve been a terrible mother May. But all I want is the best for my family, Our family, you’re just every part of it you know. I can’t possibly thank you enough for being there when I’m with Rick-”
“-Does Bailey miss me when I’m away? We should go see her Choir group one day and surprise her maybe.”

“Of course Bailey misses you, in her own little way, but you can catch up on things. A girly day, just you and her, I’m sure you and Rick can work out a day off to spoil her”
watching her choir performance seemed like a good idea too. She was a quiet, shy girl, May was impressed she went to choir at all but if it boosted her confidence, everyone in the house would be thoroughly supportive.

“And maybe Taron could bring his girl over to the house and introduce her, well more than just a name, I haven’t even seen what she looks like, have you May?”

May shook her head, “He always goes to her house. It would be nice to meet her, I could cook up a special dinner or something. See sis, these are just little easy fixes, you can do this. We can have a girl-day with Bailey, listen to her choir, have a family dinner with Taron’s girlfriend over.” The fly in the ointment was Leith of course … really, if Ceren was out of the picture, they’d probably all move in with Richard by now and the other problems would sort themselves out. Juggling her partner and her gay-son seemed to be tearing Meredith in two. All roads in the mother's heart after all seemed to lead to Leith, and by extension Ceren.

Yet, it was not an issue Meredith cared to talk about. She had her reservations, and she knew so too did her sister, and probably vice versa. May too respectful to be so vocal to her sister, and Meredith too loving to be so vocal to her son. It was something left unsaid, for everyone feared to cross the bridge. It was the the elephant in the room to which the threads of the family remained tethered to. Else it would have all gone already, Ceren and Leith in some apartment someplace together. Taron soon to follow after with his girlfriend. Bailey could enjoy life with Mom and Richard. May could be there with her sister as well. They could leave this place of stress, leaving behind the bad memories, and take only the good ones they had of their little shack. Too small to fit their troubles, too big to make them easily solved.

“You’re right Sis, I… I guess so. You were always the one with a level head in the family. I’d trade in my beauty for your brains any day.” Ending it all on a joke, a chuckle shared between two sisters, oh how good it was to laugh, to think back to the past, stepping out of the troubling present and far far away from the distant future.

“Theres just one thing…” she pointed out, one problem not addressed. “What are we going to do about Ceren?” We … because May refused to let Meredith face everything alone.

“What can we do? He makes my Leith happy. I mean sure he doesn’t pay rent or help with the food, but a drive or two for a kids isn’t too bad right? Still though, I guess… I mean as long as Leith is… I mean I don’t enjoy it, but… I wish the boy would get someone more… Right. Like how you found Will, godbless his soul. I don’t want him to be hurt by Ceren, there’s something I just can’t shake off about the boy. But what can we do May? He stays around for Leith. I can’t kick him out without... And I don’t want to say I don’t trust him, but I just don’t want him ruining our family. Oh pleased don’t tell Leith I told you that Sis.”

Right … Someone right for Leith … Meredith didn’t need to say it, but they both knew what she meant was someone straight. That would be ideal.
“You’re right” May agreed, she couldn’t kick him out for no reason, Leith would be crushed and Ceren had nowhere to go. “You know I would never tell Leith” she promised. She was loyal to her sister, and they were chatting in confidence. May also didn’t have the heart to say that to Leith, it didn’t exactly help that Richard constantly reminded him though.
“Leith is a bright boy- Man” she corrected herself, Leith just shot up once puberty hit him, tall and toned, girls always looked his way and yet none ever caught his eye. “I’m sure he’ll see sense in time. Love is blind as they say, but, well … give him time.”

The hope was there. Leith would find something else, someone else and all the problems would be solved.
Wicked post Si. Ceren is really caught in the middle of things but totally left outside ... like he sees EVERYTHING in this family and he's stuck right in the middle but he doesn't belong at all and sits outside the picture at the same time. Its a very tough position to be in.
Sorry I went nuts

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