Stratocracy

Myriad Reality

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Spite bores me. But it's all I have.

@Etcetera

Spite isn't an emotion borne in a vacuum, you know.

Myriad Reality

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*Leans back and puts my hands behind my head*
No, won't help. Not like you think. I've just felt one thing for a long time.

@Etcetera

One thing is a whole lot more than nothing.

Myriad Reality

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*Rolls my eyes*
You all know. My best days had weight on me. Maybe once the last bit of good dies, that pain will be all that's left. I hope so.

@Etcetera

It's one thing for us to know. It's another for you to get to let it out.

Myriad Reality

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I want to earn each bit of it. Kill all good in me. Make it who I am, in and out.

@Etcetera

Once again, you fail to agree with yourself. So I know it’s the mask talking to me.
*Takes another sip*
But I don’t expect you to open up so easily. Not after you’ve waited this long. But what I will say is, when have you gotten a chance to truly talk about it? All the ways you were wronged? You never really got a chance to let the weight off your shoulders before, have you?

Myriad Reality

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*Scoffs*
Sure I did. That's the whole point.

@Etcetera

And what did you ever get a chance to do to remedy it? The wounds it caused, were left opened. Never dressed. Allowed to fester.

Myriad Reality

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I wish there was pain. Pain would be great. Guilt, sad, any of those. I don't care.

@Etcetera

Because you’ve had too much for too long. If I went and asked you when it all first started, I would bet the numbness hadn’t set in yet. None of that went away. You just got used to it, and you never deserved to have to.

Myriad Reality

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Word goop. Just go away if you won't make sense.

@Etcetera

What I’m saying is, that you’ve been soaked in the pain for so long that you’re convinced it’s no longer there. But the fact that it’s there is the whole reason you feel numb to begin with. But that is okay, because it can still go away.

Myriad Reality

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I wish it hurt. It's numb.

@Etcetera

Numbness isn’t absence of pain, you know. It just means you don’t feel it. But it’s still there.

Myriad Reality

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If I could die, they would have done it. This is my curse.

@Etcetera

A curse because it hurts.

Myriad Reality

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I don't feel pain. There's no such thing.

@Etcetera

If that were true, we wouldn’t be here.
*Leans forward*
You hurt so bad that your violence is a way of forcing people to end your pain the only way you believe is possible. But that’s just not it.