"Pickles, huh?" Kiori said with a small chuckle. "I guess it's a bit more original than Wolfie." He expected the two of them to go back and forth a bit about what they would name their hypothetical dog, but then Rylee fell silent, which was unusual for her. He gave her a quizzical look, wondering what would make her look so uneasy, and then he felt her hand on his. It was unexpected, but not startling; as relaxed as he was, his body wouldn't instinctively draw away from her touch, but for some reason he felt something... abnormal. His body tensed up a bit, though Rylee was sure not to notice in her flustered state. kiori looked at her, trying to garner some clue as to what he was feeling from her face, but she would not meet his eyes. They were holding hands, she was blushing and timid; Kiori may have been ripped away from society, but he was no idiot. His intuition told him exactly what was coming.
Despite that sudden comprehension, when Rylee spoke, his pulse skyrocketed. He could no longer look at her, and he felt a cold sweat developing on his body, but he didn't move away. "Rye, I..." he started to speak in a choked voice, but even that little bit tapered off. He had no idea what to say. Sure, he had sweet-talked and caressed more than a few courtesans as a reward for his service, but he never knew any of them, and had never cared if he saw any of them again. They existed in his life merely to fulfill a physical need. This coming from Rylee, though, was completely new territory. He didn't even understand what he was feeling, or even that it was possible to feel the way he did. It was something similar to fear, but without the dread and drive for self-preservation that so often accompanied it. In fact, it really wasn't fear at all, but what he felt didn't really matter. What was he going to do?
It was one thing to fantasize about getting married and starting a new life, but fantasies had no consequences. This question, regardless of how he answered, changed them. Even if he refused, he was sure that they would still be friends, but their friendship would forever be tainted with the shadow of unrequited love. Kiori didn't want that. He didn't want anything that could potentially hurt Rylee in any way. But to go forward... he just wasn't ready. Then again, when would he be ready? Would he ever be ready? Hell, the way Rylee looked even she wasn't ready. Kiori mustered up all of his willpower and forced himself to look at her again. He looked even more scared now than when she faced an assassin at sword point, and for the first time he noticed just how beautiful she was. "If we kiss," he said at last in a soft, shaky voice, "then I suppose we'll have a little bit less to lie about."
With that, Kiori had made his decision. He took a deep breath and gently lifted Rylee's chin so they could see eye-to-eye. He wondered if he was breathing as hard as he thought he was, if he was shaking as much as he thought he was. One thing he did know, though, was that he was tired of being a pawn of fate. Twice already circumstance had abruptly thrown him into a new life. This time, he would take a step into one of his own accord. He leaned forward a bit, but hesitated, his heart a cannon in his chest going off in rapid succession. He had a choice; was this really what he wanted? He found the answer in Rylee's clear, glowing eyes. Right now, all he wanted was to make her happy. There was no more hesitation. He interlaced his fingers with the hand that had been delicately resting on his, gently caressed the back of her head, and gingerly pressed his lips against hers. Then, he wondered why he had been afraid of this in the first place.